I highly reccomend it...............

Seriously, i think i'm coming off as someone who has no life outside of this computer...a troll sitting in their parent's basement if you will.

i have a wonderful group of friends here in the area, some kinky, some not, and i am perfectly fine with that. Do i necessary want to subject myself to the process of "converting" people to see that "nikki is actually ok?" Hell, no. This is where the bitterness is. i shouldn't have to. Any possible first impression i could have had with the majority of Wichita kinksters was ruined by a fat bastard with an axe to grind.

i don't consider it letting him still "control" me. i feel it is self-protective and self-valuing to not continue putting myself in situations where i am treated like shit.

It's funny. (not ha ha but a hmm kind of way)

I was talking with my Master today when I realized I was having ..not a sub drop but like a kink drop. I spent the weekend with people where it was perfectly acceptable to talk about bondage and spanking over dinner without looking around to see if anyone overheard. I was talking to a vendor about rope bondage books and she didnt blink when I said my husband had tried it but I wanted to by the book for my Master.

And today, I'm back in my job and back to having to make sure that I dont inadvertantly out myself or Malin and freak someone out. I have to make sure that I dont call Master my master or boyfriend or lover on accident. Maybe that's what had me from PJ's to naked in 11 minutes (*smirks at Muse and Homburg*). The freedom that these people understood, these people were like me.

I am VERY frightened in social situations. I always have been. So the idea of getting "out there" and joining in always frightened me. But now, I'm kind of looking forward to finding a group to munch with or hang out with. Sure, I cant "play" unless Master's there, but I get to be with people who think and feel like me.

Events do tend to have that "back from summer vacation" kind of drop, definitely.

I know how hard it can be to not hide in the shadows, Fi. It's hard for me too. But from the sounds of it, you did a GREAT job this weekend. Pat yourself on the back for it, eh?

Dragon*Con leaves that same funny feeling when you leave. I cried.

As far as I've been able to figure out, I'm the only person in this STATE that's into this sort of thing. I've yet to figure out a way or place to meet people that are more local than me moving back to WA. <shrugs>

One thing to add, I was thinking about this in the bathroom a moment ago. I had a moment on Sunday that made me realize that everyone at the event was the same M/s, D/s, D/lg, didnt matter.

The venue was at the civic center and on Sunday I wore my collar (proudly) and a regular shirt and jeans. But there was also a Bridal Expo and some Wholesale Liquidators thing and there was a line for the wholesalers. In front of me, walked this man in a latex, light blue, maid's dress, little girl socks and high heels... and when he walked through that line, people gave him a look and backed up like he had the plague. When I walked through a few seconds later...

They did the same to me.

And what did I do? I smiled, held my head high, and dammit, turned around and walked back through them just so I could do it again

Netzach said:

Events do tend to have that "back from summer vacation" kind of drop, definitely.

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Yeah.. they really do.

The unpacking and putting all of the stuff away sucks too.
Our St. Andrew's Cross is out on our apartemtn's balcony which is right by the main entrance of our apartment complex, and overlooks the parking lot.
I'm certain the neighbors have seen it.
I'm too tired to care.
I'm kind of amused by it being there, too.

Homburg said:

Did I mention that the snakes were awesome? Seriously. I mentioned Moose and Lola, my favourites heart: Moose), but they were all just incredible. And the folks helping to staff the booth were just great people.

Though I'm pretty sure that "v" was tempted to buy some floor-tape off Deb. Damn, that girl can sell.

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Lola is a favorite of many. And that dumeril snake is named Mousse .. like the chocolate dessert. I love his pattern and color scheme.

Deb is amazing, no doubt. And this was the first time that we got the chance to really get to know her partner, Melissa...

The BDSM stuff was not even the focus for me this weekend at the FFF. I was completely focused upon enjoying the 'high quality people' who surrounded me ... while it lasted.

We are blessed to have such good friends aka 'helpers'.

I'm thrilled that this high quality group had grown by more than a few over the weekend.

P.S.
I'm going to make that image aka 'official' logo thing like I said I would... soon as I catch up on more sleep.

Sir has organised Lit get togethers here in Sydney in recent years, although due to His health we have been forced to give this up over the last couple of years. In fact it was at one of these G&Gs (Greet and Gropes ) that He and I announced that we were a couple in r/l. I'd flown over the week before to meet Him, and flew back two weeks after to pack up and move back in January 2004.

We've made some real friends out of these meets, and I have fond memories of a lovely dance floor kiss with one of the ladies, and a few of us sitting round a table in a pub discussing fisting like it was something normal.... None of them post on the BDSM forum, we all met on a thread called aussies in the Playground, which is one of the first threads I ever went to when I joined Lit.

And guess who saw one of my posts and asked me to go to that thread? None other than Sir - little did He know that we would eventually move in together and even get married!

sinn0cent1 said:

---- Nala.... OH my .. oh boy.... She's a unique soul. I'm wondering how long until she can find her way back into our company, again. I have no recollection of a pause between laughing with her over the weekend. My ribs ache. I almost peed my pants a few times. She is a nut. I love ya, girl.

And I can think of many things to do with Nala...... heh .
No moleste, Nala & V . !!!

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Sweets all it takes is a date and time I'll be there! You are the best and you'll never be too far for me to get to...just holler.

As for doing many things...hmmm...

Love you, Baby!

No Moleste

Velvet Bubbles said:

As far as I've been able to figure out, I'm the only person in this STATE that's into this sort of thing. I've yet to figure out a way or place to meet people that are more local than me moving back to WA. <shrugs>

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VB, you are not the only person in your state who's kinky. Trust me on this. To find local Munches, email groups, and events in your area, try:

SceneUSA - http://www.darkheart.com/sceneusa.html

Caryl's Page - http://www.drkdesyre.com/

The BDSM Events Page - http://www.thebdsmeventspage.com/ which has links to both organizations AND events.

Caryl's stuff includes yahoo groups and ICQ members and just way lots of ways to meet people. Join Alt.com and go to the chat rooms, there are local and regional chat rooms... There are kinky people EVERYWHERE. Hell, I found em in Bible Belt Buckle South Carolina. There are some in your area too!

I live in a town with a population of about 900..so there is absolutely no local scene. So..I travel..a lot..lol. I've got to meet Homburg and "V", and BiBunny and Bi_Kitty, and Chris, and Sir Winston, and dove. I also get to see new places..so it's pretty cool.

HottieMama said:

You have obviously never been to Wichita, where the "scene" is fairly dominated by one person who happens to be my ex. Ever try to walk into a room as a single sub after your ex dom, your first dom...told everyone in the group EVERYTHING about you? Your likes...your dislikes...your kinks that no one else knows... Ever have every conversation start off with..."Oh...so you're XXXXX's former sub." Ever questioned about details of your former relationship in front of everyone during dinner??? No??? i didn't think so.

Thanks for the advice, but FOR ME, the local "scene" here is not a healthy thing.

And yes, i am fucking bitter about it. Yes, i think it sucks that the majority of these people act like they are fucking twelve. However, unless i choose to submit myself to public humiliation, there is nothing i can do about it. i refuse to struggle to fit in someplace where i am obviously not wanted!

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Wow must suck hard! I would definitely hate the whole public humiliation thing. I wish you the best with this situation ~ 'nuff said.