ecstaticsub
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"Drastic times call for drastic measures"
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I tried so many ways to just surrender and trust that everything would work out. My head was perfectly fine. It could go with the flow and accept what come along. It could be happy.
But my heart, my submissive soul, that vulnerable tiny self that needed her Daddy couldn't give up the old and enjoy the new.
The struggle consumed me.
But he said "I own you, I will not let you go even if you ask to be released"
He said it months ago, maybe a year. It both scared me making me feel trapped at times and consoled me, reminding me of my place in his life.
It called for a drastic measure, a sacrifice to bring about a renewal of spirit. A sacrifice I offered.
It is only the beginning. The new beginning. My head and my heart are finally focused together.
I'm excited about the future, our future.
Sorry for quoting myself but I wanted to come back to say my sacrifice was worth it. My head and heart are finally focused together.
I've learned something. There is that saying "Don't sweat the small stuff" , well that's important but equally helpful is to not sweat the big stuff either. All those negative emotions do nothing to solve any problems. Positive emotions, understanding and compassion are much more powerful.
Sweet surrender. I just take anything and everything thrown at me from all sides in my life and just go with the flow.
It makes me a much more fun person to be around. I like myself more. It also makes me stronger. Since I decided to not let anything bring me down when something does happen that used to cause me to crash I remind myself that I'm not allowed to go negative anymore and I don't.
He has voiced and shown his appreciation for the changes in myself I have made. I am his good girl.