aznhoney
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- May 14, 2006
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the quick (and pertinent) facts:
1. i'm 23.
2. i'm shy.
3. i've never had a boyfriend.
4. i've never been kissed.
5. i've been reading romance novels for nearly 10 years.
6. i write erotica in my spare time.
so that's the situation. i honestly don't know much about male-female dating rituals, and i'm really too damn shy. *grimace* growing up with strict asian parents ("no boys! study, study, study!") sort of set the pattern for my behavior with guys, so that avoiding guys has been the norm. haha. i can't entirely blame my upbringing for my situation. i do have twinges of self-esteem issues, when my size12 self wishes to be a size2, but those moments come further apart as i've learned to accept myself---small breasts and all (although i'm not going to lie: i'd dearly love to lose 15 pounds and gain two cup sizes.
).
but i digress... i have a pretty good imagination, and that's where the erotica writing comes into play. but the thing is: looking at me, and even knowing me, no one would ever think about the wild fantasies and erotic scenarios that stream into my head at different times. i'm the typical good little asian girl: quiet, respectful of elders, book smart, slightly submissive, and always acting properly in public.
and then, there's the other side of me: the side that no one sees. it's my erotica writing. it's my love for fishnet and lace stockings, garters, and bustiers. it's my obsession with sexy shoes. it's the black leather corset i keep hidden in the back of my closet. it's the "me" that sometimes goes out in public without underwear or a bra. it's the part of me that has dozens of photos of myself wet and naked in the shower (hidden on my hard drive, of course.
). it's the part of me that has a remote controlled wireless vibrator and a jar of honey dust just waiting to be used.
so, i ask your opinion: should i be more up-front about the other side of me? or should i keep it hidden?
1. i'm 23.
2. i'm shy.
3. i've never had a boyfriend.
4. i've never been kissed.
5. i've been reading romance novels for nearly 10 years.
6. i write erotica in my spare time.
so that's the situation. i honestly don't know much about male-female dating rituals, and i'm really too damn shy. *grimace* growing up with strict asian parents ("no boys! study, study, study!") sort of set the pattern for my behavior with guys, so that avoiding guys has been the norm. haha. i can't entirely blame my upbringing for my situation. i do have twinges of self-esteem issues, when my size12 self wishes to be a size2, but those moments come further apart as i've learned to accept myself---small breasts and all (although i'm not going to lie: i'd dearly love to lose 15 pounds and gain two cup sizes.
). but i digress... i have a pretty good imagination, and that's where the erotica writing comes into play. but the thing is: looking at me, and even knowing me, no one would ever think about the wild fantasies and erotic scenarios that stream into my head at different times. i'm the typical good little asian girl: quiet, respectful of elders, book smart, slightly submissive, and always acting properly in public.
and then, there's the other side of me: the side that no one sees. it's my erotica writing. it's my love for fishnet and lace stockings, garters, and bustiers. it's my obsession with sexy shoes. it's the black leather corset i keep hidden in the back of my closet. it's the "me" that sometimes goes out in public without underwear or a bra. it's the part of me that has dozens of photos of myself wet and naked in the shower (hidden on my hard drive, of course.
). it's the part of me that has a remote controlled wireless vibrator and a jar of honey dust just waiting to be used. so, i ask your opinion: should i be more up-front about the other side of me? or should i keep it hidden?
