You can now call me the bionic single Dom

[Richard49]

I have spent much of the day working on my herb business and worring about find a patent advocate. Even a patent advocate will not be enough to help with other VA issues.

I meet with a elder of the church I attent
( he and I were in Army together over 30 years ago
small world)

We had coffee and I shared with him my need.

A couple of the threads
(like face slapping)
really brought the sadness of my loss of the relationship with R

However I should have stupid tatooed on my forhead
for even trying it again

It seems so strange to know I am dying
that the Drs can do nothing more for me
yet my cock works
I am horny
want the feeling of Doming

I feel so alone at times
so alone

If the VA would come accross with the pension I deserve
I could at lest travel...maybe meet some of you
Look out Miss T

Such as life

 

[Richard49]

Maybe one of you women can explain this to me....

R called me tonight about the female POW that was freed... she was a teacher and so is R......

Anyway she said she was addicted to me and that is why she has to stay away

I know about co-depency and frankly none of any of my life including this makes any fucking sence at all

 

[lark sparrow]

Easier said then done - 2 cents from a woman

As tempting as it is, "why?" can be one of the worst questions to get stuck in regarding other people. Sometimes we will never know why and their reasons will never make sense to us - it may take time and distance to understand. Sometimes one just has to move on and focus on themselves and their own behavior and motives.

Eventually there has to be that recognition that I really want to be with this person (if only s/he would change this, that and the other) is not enough, or comes the knowledge that it takes two to tango on and off, on and off, and that kind of addiction is double-sided in nature. The why doesn't change anything when the relationship is no longer viable.

It's a process we all go through alittle differently, and I can empathize with your struggle of two months to find peace within yourself outside of that relationship. Sometimes we are set with so many problems at once it is overwhelming. Is hanging onto this relationship which may feel a positive, as in a hope to help you through daily, worth the added worry, stress and repetitive disappointment?

 

[Richard49]

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[Richard49]

Weather here turned from "nice"
to freezing rain
to snow
to freezing rain with snow

We are suppose to get 8 inches of the white stuff
tonight with freezing rain tonight

So I am house bound with no coffee or tea or ....
bad planing on my part

 

[bunny bondage]

what's the weather think it's doing? it's springtime! someone should go up to Richard's area and give the weather a calander or something.

 

[Richard49]

what's the weather think it's doing? it's springtime! someone should go up to Richard's area and give the weather a calander or something.

Are you willing to cum confront Mother Nature ?

 

[bunny bondage]

Are you willing to cum confront Mother Nature ?

one of my dad's rules for life (he has many, you know) is this:




respect the ocean.



so i guess i'm not the sub for the job!

 

[lady-kat]

Weather here turned from "nice"
to freezing rain
to snow
to freezing rain with snow

We are suppose to get 8 inches of the white stuff
tonight with freezing rain tonight

So I am house bound with no coffee or tea or ....
bad planing on my part

Richard...

no one should have to go without coffee or tea or....

i'll share coffee, lol......

always assuming mother nature doesn't pull another "spring joke" ...it's snowing here and below zero with the wind chill....

 

[Richard49]

bb I can not imgine a job you could not do if you set your mind to it ... one of the process of growing up/maturing is challenging every rule I parents gave us ..........

lady I got out yesterday and got a few things done... unfortunatly even though the weather was nice my health was not ...... so did not drive far or much .......

I am still dealing mentally and emotionally with many things from trying to find a patent advocate to getting my house clean ....

Then there is Lance on here threatening to turn me into the FBI and moderators ignoring him but remove a URL from this thread that had pic of R,S and me ........

I am finding lit a less and less safe place to be .....

 

[bunny bondage]

aww, that was a cute pic! they probably had to take it down cuz it had a child or something. i'm sorry! and what the hell could lance turn you in for? he's just some seventeen year old kid who's trying to be important. it amuses him, but he'll get bored and go away eventually. you should just pretend he doesn't exist.

 

[MissTaken]

Bunny,
You are right on about the photo and as for the rest, the best lit policy is to ignore whomever bothers you.

Richard?

Now, when it seems that everything is messed up, you can't tackle all of it at once. It is impossible.
Prioritize.
Do what you can about the things you can actually have an impact on.
Leave the rest.
There was a time, when things were so fucked up here that if I could make it to 8 p.m. with my children fed and sleeping, I would look back on my day. I would then, ask myself what did I do to move forward today. As long as there was something done everyday to improve my, I mean our, existence, I could rest.

While having someone to share the grief and the challenges with makes the challenges seem to pale, R is not the person to help you through right now. I don't know if she is as confused as she sounds, or if she is playing games, but Richard, she is no good for you. My friendly advice remains for you to not let her into your life at any level right now.

*many hugs*

 

[Richard49]

aww, that was a cute pic! they probably had to take it down cuz it had a child or something. i'm sorry! and what the hell could lance turn you in for? he's just some seventeen year old kid who's trying to be important. it amuses him, but he'll get bored and go away eventually. you should just pretend he doesn't exist.

You saw the pic of R,S and me?

If so do you not think he looks like me? <grin>

Lance can not be ignored
He is a preditor of the worse kind
and to threaten to turn me over to the FBI

Come on now ..........

See I can remember when praticing this lifestyle
could send you to jail along with your consenting partner

 

[Richard49]

Miss T

I am doing what I can to NOT get hooked back into an intimate realtionship with R ...........

In respect to doing what I can about what I can

1) I have run out of options for a paent advocate
When I end up in hospital again
I havbe kissed my ass good by and hope god has my soul

2) Ever other "challenge" I have can only be handled with money
as long as the VA refuses to rule in my favor
I have no solutions
at lest any I can think of

3) Lance is no kid
look at his hands in his photos

He is dangerious to me and everyone else on these boards

 

[MissTaken]

A bit of clarification

For Richard and anyone else who is wondering:

If ANYONE makes a genuine threat against ANYONE else on this site, the webmasters will deal with it as they see fit.

They have been at this a long time and need to be trusted. However, if you dont' feel safe, then you can alter how much personal info you share or you can chose to leave.


My recommendation is to tailer what you post. Never post identifying information. If you post photos, make sure they look enough NOT like you that you couldn't be picked out of a crowd. Do not post your phone number, home address, e mail address or anything else that might help someone locate you.

Yes, there are some who can be trusted with this info. Use your pm option.

Just my two cents submitted with many hugs to all.

 

[Richard49]

Today I was elected

to the board of directors of my local Alano Club

Alano Clubs are a social organzation for those
in recovery and to promote recovery meetings etc.

 

[lark sparrow]

You saw the pic of R,S and me?

If so do you not think he looks like me? <grin>

Lance can not be ignored
He is a preditor of the worse kind
and to threaten to turn me over to the FBI

Come on now ..........

See I can remember when praticing this lifestyle
could send you to jail along with your consenting partner

I think you have to remember that people like lance "the sky is falling" manyon are usually too busy being a bother on the internet to do much of anything else (and I doubt the FBI is very interested in the fact that Richard from Michigan posts on a BDSM BB) - however, a quiet and more malignant person who notices all your personal information available and can identify you, your ex and her child by face might be much more of a threat. This is a highly read board and you can't count on everyone who reads it being positively into BDSM, benevolent and trustworthy. Unlikely that someone would use the info you have openly provided, but definitely possible.

Posting other people's (and minors) faces publically for anyone to see, without their express consent (particularly on what is a pornograghy based website) is not a good thing - it just isn't. It could give your ex problems at work or with family/friends, it could even give the kid a problem at school. Keeping personal info of a self-identifying nature privately shared is the best way to prevent feeling threatened from the likes of lancemanyon or worse.

 

[MissTaken]

Re: Today I was elected

to the board of directors of my local Alano Club

Alano Clubs are a social organzation for those
in recovery and to promote recovery meetings etc.

Congratulations.

 

[bunny bondage]

You saw the pic of R,S and me?

If so do you not think he looks like me? <grin>

i did see the pic, and it was adorable! however, i'd have to see it again to judge his look-alike-ness to you!

and congrats on your erection - i mean election!

 

[Richard49]

i did see the pic, and it was adorable! however, i'd have to see it again to judge his look-alike-ness to you!

and congrats on your erection - i mean election!

I set through meeting with one <grin>

 

[Richard49]

I will know by Friday

As many of you know
I have been battling VA for a number of years
for a disablity pension
I feel I deserve
for service connested illness/injury

I just got a call sayig that I should have current
ruling by Friday .........

and it looks very favorable that it will go through

Please pray for this

 

[lady-kat]

Re: I will know by Friday

As man you know
I have been battling VA for a number of years
for a disablity pension
I feel I deserve
for service connested illness/injury

I just got a call sayig that I should have current
ruling by Friday .........

and it looks very favorable that it will go through

Please pray for this

i will pray for this Richard,

that you get all this and more.....

 

[MissTaken]

Re: I will know by Friday

As man you know
I have been battling VA for a number of years
for a disablity pension
I feel I deserve
for service connested illness/injury

I just got a call sayig that I should have current
ruling by Friday .........

and it looks very favorable that it will go through

Please pray for this

*crossing fingers*

You are in my prayers, Richard.

It is sad that the VA makes it so difficult for our vets to get what they need. When my uncle applied for assistance, he was a quadripelegic, they suggested he was employable.

He told them that with the arm that he could only raise in and lower, perhaps he should become a pickle pusher? The guy who has to fit the last Vlasic pickle in the pickle jar!



It took years, but he was helped.

 

[Richard49]

Re: Re: I will know by Friday

i will pray for this Richard,

that you get all this and more.....

Thank you for your prayers

Please keep them coming

 

[Richard49]

Re: Re: I will know by Friday

*crossing fingers*

You are in my prayers, Richard.

It is sad that the VA makes it so difficult for our vets to get what they need. When my uncle applied for assistance, he was a quadripelegic, they suggested he was employable.

He told them that with the arm that he could only raise in and lower, perhaps he should become a pickle pusher? The guy who has to fit the last Vlasic pickle in the pickle jar!



It took years, but he was helped.

I like your uncle

Thank you for your prayers
I need all I can get

9 years ... and now we are near the finish line
I hope
Then they could say NO
and we are on to the appeals process
last time it took 8 years before it got to
federal court
and I won
but not enough