You can now call me the bionic single Dom

[Richard49]

To say I am angery at the moment
would be an understatement

No I have not heard from the VA
but from her

She had made a big deal about me presenting her with her 1 year key tag on Thursday night .. she even picked out the present she wanted and I ordered it. I ordered flowers to be delievered to her work.

She posted me today that she now does not want tme to proform the ............ ggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I am even crying.......

Why do I post all this
cause I think
IMHO
Doms are to often thought of as having no emotions/needs
that submissives come and go
and so be it

Even if I was not chronically ill
This would be tough on me
I think it would tough on anyone that is a real Dom
cause a real Dom values his submissive

Oh hell

 

[bunny bondage]

aww Richard, of course doms are people too. our kind of relationship is just the same as any other, it involves humans with emotions and concerns and depth. don't worry about what other people have to say about it, screw their image of what you should be.

 

[Richard49]

To R

you posted me again today

The card you got was sent days ago
It was schudled to go to you today
as were the flowers

your message
Thank you for thinking of me. I dont deserve it

why did you send it
what do you want
what game are you playing

yes I want to contact you
I want to hold you
but I can not

you have abused me one to many times
if and when
you are willing to go to
couples counsoling
then
maybe

 

[ChemE_student]

Richard,

I don't really know you, but I just wanted you to know that I'll be thinking of you. It sounds like you're going through some very hard times, and I hope you know the Lit community cares about you.

ChemE

 

[Richard49]

aww Richard, of course doms are people too. our kind of relationship is just the same as any other, it involves humans with emotions and concerns and depth. don't worry about what other people have to say about it, screw their image of what you should be.

should have
could have
should be

bb
thank you
you are wonderful

 

[Richard49]

Richard,

I don't really know you, but I just wanted you to know that I'll be thinking of you. It sounds like you're going through some very hard times, and I hope you know the Lit community cares about you.

ChemE

Thank you

When I first got sick
and could not set up long enough to come here
one of the members contacted me
cause others were concerned

in part this is why
I do not think of lit
as a porn board

 

[Richard49]

Today VA is suppose to get back to me opn my claim
only been 11 years

However I am not counting on them being timely <smile>

R has emailed me several times
over the last few days

As much as I have wanted to respond
I have not

 

[kayte]

Today VA is suppose to get back to me opn my claim
only been 11 years

However I am not counting on them being timely <smile>

R has emailed me several times
over the last few days

As much as I have wanted to respond
I have not

{{{{{{{{{Richard}}}}}}}}}}} Just want you to know I am thinking about you. Hope you find the strength you need to help you deal with all of your issues.

 

[Richard49]

It is 6:15 Friday night
No word from VA

I won't go into the other stuff

ggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

 

[Richard49]

It is Satuday afternoon
the sun is shining
and the weather is wonderful

There is a munch tonight
so far it looks like 6 Doms
(not counting me)
and one attached submissive

R has posted me a couple of very sad type emails
I want to resch out and rescue her
however she still is not owning her stuff
She talks about lossing me

I want to write her
"you did not loss your
lover
Dom
Best Freind
activites partner
recovery partner
you threw me away"

 

[Richard49]

It is Sunday afternoon
Beautiful outside

I have not heard from her since Friday

Am I the only one that finds it easier to say
"I am sorry"
and then
change beahvor
rather then feel meserible ?

What more can I say?

 

[MissTaken]

It is Sunday afternoon
Beautiful outside

I have not heard from her since Friday

Am I the only one that finds it easier to say
"I am sorry"
and then
change beahvor
rather then feel meserible ?

What more can I say?

No, you aren't the only one.

I always feel better after taking responsibility adn dealing with something, rather than letting it pervade everything about my life and my psyche...which the really big stuff can do.

*hugs*

Oh, adn of course VA isn't going to be timely. Keeping my fingers crossed for ya!

 

[Richard49]

No, you aren't the only one.

I always feel better after taking responsibility adn dealing with something, rather than letting it pervade everything about my life and my psyche...which the really big stuff can do.

*hugs*

Oh, adn of course VA isn't going to be timely. Keeping my fingers crossed for ya!

VA ggggggggggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
timely
those
@@#$%$#@$%$% N
folks only know
quiting time and coffee time

I left message for my VFW rep
asking him what happened

Last time all the VA rating officers
took a golfing trip together

Going back to the other
I have always been overly responsible
Even when I was at the hieght of my addiction

I shack my head
say some prayers
hope the hopless

I need a butt to flog
any voluntars?

 

[entitled]

Not volunteering for the flogging (yet ) but Your pm box is full.

 

[Richard49]

Not volunteering for the flogging (yet ) but Your pm box is full.

Glad you said yet

I hate the PM box
anyway it now has room

 

[entitled]

Glad you said yet

I hate the PM box
anyway it now has room

You never know when i might be up that way to volunteer. i have family that direction, after all.

Thank You.

 

[Richard49]

You never know when i might be up that way to volunteer. i have family that direction, after all.

Thank You.

You need your Doms premission

How's the baby coming

 

[Richard49]

Monday at 6 PM here

No word from VA

No word from R

Beautiful day
but am to sick to enjoy

I need to remember to take herbs
when I start to feel sick
and not wait

 

[entitled]

You need your Doms premission

How's the baby coming

Of course i would have permission first. It would just take a little time to work on Him to get it.

The baby's coming very, very slowly. It should be here in a couple of days, though.

Please take care of Yourself better and take those herbs. i worry for You!

 

[Richard49]

Of course i would have permission first. It would just take a little time to work on Him to get it.

The baby's coming very, very slowly. It should be here in a couple of days, though.

Please take care of Yourself better and take those herbs. i worry for You!

I do the best with me that I can.

Good luck on baby

and getting premission

 

[Richard49]

Each day I lean more and more towards
1) giving up the lifestyle
2) giving up on realtionships

Freinds tell me I know how to do them
but am not finding someone that does

I am not the egotistical
I am 53 years old and have never had a successful relationship
and my submissives seem to desert me

I need to figure out how to fulfill some basic "needs"
1) a patent repersentive
2) an advocate for me with VA
3) help with transposrtation down state when I have to go to VA hospitals

but like what's the point?

 

[lancemanyon]

How about instead we call you the Bionic Imprisoned Predator?

The clock is ticking.....

 

[wildsweetone]

hello, i am a bit of a lurker in the bdsm threads and just felt the urge to waffle...

lancemanyon reminds me of a stalker i had following me around the internet a couple of years ago. i don't recall my stalker waving pornographic piccies around on the internet though...

***
hello Richard, Sir, i guess i've gotten to the point where i cannot hold my tongue quiet.

several things spring to mind here. mostly that i am sorry you are having a difficult time of life at the moment. i wouldn't wish upon anybody the trials you are going through. though i know for certain, when they are overwith, you will be in a far better place than you are right now. many of life's uncertainties will have disappeared and your spiritual spring growth will have endured much after the dormancy of winter years. i hope summer arrives quickly

people such as those who have no ability to show an open mind will not seem nearly so 'intrusive'.

keep holding on Sir, you have a beautiful soul.

ps... and i actually don't recall having seen your nether regions floating around the boards either....

please excuse me for waffling.

but like what's the point?

you are needed.

 

[Richard49]

No you will not find pictures of my ass
with the request to be fucked by all comers

but I think Lance the Moron is right

For whatever time I have left
prison might be a good place for me

it can not be worse then the jungles of VN

and I would not have to worry about
finding solutions to problems like I listed above

 

[Richard49]

I recieved call from VA
well from my VFW rep

My claim has been reviewed and approved
by
a Jr Rating officer
now it awaits
a Sr Rating Officer to review the approval

There are at lest 50 cases a head of mine

It could take a month or more