Yearning to Learn

[ARaynes]

OOC: CG, Bad Kitten and I hope we please you well with this thread. We are putty in your hands to mold us into the perfect subs.

IC:My name is Olivia Dumas. I have just arrived at the house of the man that will teach me so much. I have longed to have one like him in my life for many days.....and now I am here.

Nervously I reach up and grab the door knocker. Thoughs wonder in my head of what if I am displeasing to him? What if he does not like me? What if I mess up so horribly that he releases me out into my own. I so want him happy with me.

I wore what he suggested, getting many looks on my way to the cab from the airport. The light blue summer dress made my blue eyes shine like the ocean. My red curls were pulled up in a hairband, dangling lovely from it. I wore no make up, no hairspray. My body was as nautrual at the day I was born.

There were no undies under the dress, just my body, firm from the time I spent at the gym. I wanted to please everyone with my looks and was quite impressed with what I had done so far.

"Ok, Olivia. It is now or never."

My hand reaches out and grabs the knocker, this time hitting it three times. I step back and wait for the door to open, my heart beating like a humminbirds.

 

[cgraven]

I sat in the den reading and wondering why in heavens name I had agreed to train to new subs at the same time . Marcy said that they where desperate to learn, that she had given them as much information as she could and believed that they where in earnest in their desires. I ideal thought what do these two women expect and will I be a disappointment to them. After all a middle-aged balding retied Master Chief petty officer, wearing slacks and a blue CPO shirt was not quite the picture one normally conjured up when the term Dom was mentioned well that would be their 1st lesson.

There was a knock at the door. And laying my book aside I went to answer it .

“Ah you must be Olivia do come in.”

I was pleased as she had dressed as we had discussed on the phone. I showed her into the den. A rather nicely proportioned little red head.

“Would you like a glass of wine?”

 

[ARaynes]

Olivia

I looked at the man that had opened the door. No leather, no whips and chains in his hands. Nothing like I would have first expected. He was a rather nice looking older man.

He ushered me into the den and asked if I would like a glass of wine. His voice was sweet and calm not angry like I would have thought. I was beginning to think that my conceptions were all wrong.

"Uh, Yes. Please. Uh, May I uh, sit?" That was getting him Olivia. Show him how nervous you are. He is gonna think you are just some teen wanting to fake it. "I am sorry, I don't mean to be so nervous, it is just, well, honestly, I can't believe I am actually getting this chance. Thank you."

I watched him, wanting to see that he didn't hate me already. I wanted to know that this was gonna work.

 

[cgraven]

“Olivia not quite what you expected am I?”

I smile gentlely at her.

“For lords sake girl take a seat you must be tired after your trip…..Can I get you a glass of wine?’

There is a confused look on Olivia’s pretty face.

“Olivia we need to get to know each other a bit to build trust,… trust is the bases for all Dom / sub relationships.”

Again I know this is not what she expected. So many see this life only through the “Want to Be’s” that stalk the net.

“Do tell me a bit about yourself, and I am sure you must have a hundred questions”

 

[ARaynes]

Olivia

I watch as he pours the wine. "I don't know really where to start. I am from Aurora California. Uh, I was raised by my mother and taught at home. I graduated from Berkley in a degree of criminology. I basically eat work and sleep. I sought you out because I have heard you can teach me what I am wanting to learn. Trust is a big basis, yes. I didn't mean to seem distrustful. I want to learn."

My nervous habit begins to show as I fiddle with my hand. I had done that since I was six years old. "I do have questions, but I don't really know where to start. Should we wait on the other girl? Perhaps she has the same questions."

 

[cgraven]

I take Olivia hands in mine and gentle rub them. She is nervous and it is natural.

“Yes if that makes you feel more at easy.”

 

[ARaynes]

Olivia

"Thank you. You seem like a great man. Is it wrong of me to ask about you? Until she arrives?"

I watched and relaxed as he took my hands in his.

 

[cgraven]

"No not at all my dear.... What would you like to know?'

 

[ARaynes]

Olivia

She thought about the questions. "Well, like where do you come from, how did you decide to become a Dom? What you did, anything to break the ice. Just let me know about you."

I smiled, feeling a little more at ease. He was not going to hurt me. He was just as curious about me as I was about him.

 

[cgraven]

‘Well I was born on an Abenaki reserve in Quebec Canada, Grew up in Germany, England, and the Far East. I hold degrees in History, Political Science, and Travel and Tourism. Spent 20+ years at sea. In the Coast Guard. Now I write and lecture.”

I study the redhead out of the corner of my eye as I talk.

“How did I decide to become a Dom.? Well guess it really is part of my nature…. What made you look into becoming a sub?”

 

[ARaynes]

Olivia

I blush. Was I supposed to feel shy when it came to why?

"I want the feeling of having no control. I have a lot of control over the way my life is and knowing that I do not have that control turns me on." I blush again. Just saying this to someone made me blush, let alone someone I really didn't know.

 

[cgraven]

"Olivia is it the lack of control you desier or the freedom from responsibiliy?"

I pasued searchng her eyes.

"They are very close but yet suttly different.... You will learn that the more control you freely give the Dom the more trust ther must be between the two of you."

 

[ARaynes]

Olivia

I think about his words, and in all honestly I am not sure which it is.

I ask, "Well, if I give up my ability to control, I am still responsible, I think. I mean, yes, they may have control of me, but I can always use the safe word, and then be in control again and choose the level of responsiblity I have. Or am I wrong there?"

I know a confused look overcomes my face, and at first I worry about disappointing him, but am I not here to learn? He will not be dissappointed.

 

[cgraven]

‘My dear moer than control or responsibility it is a matter of power. It may seem strange to you now but both the Dom and the sub have power. Yes Both those it be different the Dom has the power of decision the sub of willing submission. She is of course free to leave at anytime if the Dom dose not meet her needs. Like wise he can dismiss her if she dose not please him. In reality they have equal power.”

I hold her hands comforting and tring to relax my new student.

"Now what have you learned from the reading list I gave you in perpartion for this 1st meeting?"

 

[ARaynes]

Olivia

I thought back on all that I had read. There was a lot, but I knew there was still lots more to learn.

"I have learned that there are many stages to this type of relationship, and it is all dependant on trust. If you dont' trust, then it is hard for anything like this to happen. There are things that I still need to learn, but I think that it may be the person I need to learn about, like your likes and dislikes, so I know what to do and not to do...."

I was relaxing now more that I talked. He was gentle and kindness shined in his eyes.

"I have learned certain terms that are going to be beneficial to know, but there is so much to learn, I know I havne't covered half of it yet."

I smiled at him, my body relaxed now, nervousness no longer a worry.

 

[cgraven]

“Olivia Very good my dear you please me in that you have actual read the list I gave you. So many just rush in looking for an erotic thrill and truly place them selves in danger. We will start at the lowest level that of Dom /sub.”

I raised my hand to still any protest.

‘Like learning to walk you must crawl 1st.”

 

[ARaynes]

Olivia

"Yes, I will crawl, and learn so that one day, I may walk." I smiled. He was pleased. I was so happy with that that I could have jumped up and down.

 

[cgraven]

“Olivia The biggest misunderstanding now days is that the Dom /sub relationship pervades ever aspect of the sub’s life. That she is trotted about like a bobble to be displayed to the world to build the Dom’s ego. My dear that is wrong. Oh yes with in our society we are very proud of our sub’s and Dom’s, but we do not flaunt it to the world in general. That would be like your lover announcing at the local tavern that he was screwing you and how , when and how often. To say the least very tacky. Plus the Dom sub relationship applies to a very specific aspect or relationship in all others you are the strong capable woman you have always been.”


I glance at my watch.

" My our other student is in danger of being quite tardy."

 

[ARaynes]

Olivia

I looked at the door, half expecting her to step in any moment, but she didn't. "Yes, I am afraid she is a bit late. Do you wish to wait, or go ahead and start?"

I looked down again and then met his eyes. "You won't flaunt me and I refuse to flaunt this, with my life such as it is, but I do want to learn. I want to learn to do everything right, and not do it wrong."

 

[cgraven]

‘Dear I think we should wait a bit, but I am quite pleased with your progress so far”