Yearning in the age of COVID

[KinkyTeacherGuy]

For years, my wife has not been open to receiving oral, finding it distasteful (no pun intended) and disgusting. This has been problematic, as I LOVE going down. Everything about it is a turn-on for me: the taste, the smell, the feel, the way a woman's hips rise off of the (bed, floor, whatever), the way she tightens her thighs when she cums, the moans and shrieks and grasping of sheets, the satisfaction expressed when I slide my fingers inside just as my tongue is getting into a rhythm of massage on her clit - and there's a sense of power involved in being able to give that much pleasure for so much time.

For years, I have sometimes met up with women for the sole purpose of giving them cunnilingus. Some of them I found while at professional conferences around the country. Some of them I met through dating apps or Whisper or any other discreet venue that I could find. Sometimes they insisted on giving back, others were content to lean back and enjoy, but all of them consistently found pleasure in my mouth. I went into each experience wanting nothing in return except an open mind and open thighs, and each time I found sexual pleasure in giving. Other than occasional breaks, one women let me eat her pussy for nearly an hour and a half - a fact I only figured out later.

As long as I had these outlets maybe 1-2 times per year, I was content. My wife and I have a great relationship emotionally and sexually, with the exception of this one little thing. COVID has put the brakes on this and it is causing me strain. In February 2020, I went to a conference in New Orleans (the site of the 90 minute oral), just before airlines started locking down and before the nation went into quarantine. With COVID, it has been unthinkable to reach out and connect with anyone. I have had my second vaccine shot, but I have family members that I am reluctant to expose for the sake of my oral addiction. And, like any addiction, I am going through withdrawal. I miss the scent of a woman's thighs and the taste of her clit and the noises she makes in response to my mouth.

I don't know how to end this other than to say that I am sad that I cannot live out my fetish. I know that meeting up with a stranger to go down on her until she is beyond satisfied without any expectations in return is pretty tame as far as Literotica fetishes go, but it's my thing and I'm completely unfulfilled at the moment.

 

[Aychdee01]

Totally get it, my good man. Things have been desert dry in my marriage for years and actually had a good long time female friend who moved away at the start of the ‘Rona....used to have at least a weekly session having my tongue in her ass and hers all over me, but it’s been a painful dry spell ever since her departure.....so bored

 

[curvynsweet]

I wish I was your neighbor, you’d never have to use another dating app to search. It has been so long since I experienced a mans face between my legs...even before corona. God I miss it. Sometimes I want to cry if I think about it too much.

 

[StarGazer58]

You are not alone in this and I understand how you are feeling. I miss what you described but I also miss the kissing and touching, the feel and sound of her getting aroused, just the feel of a woman in my arms. My marriage is completely dry so definitely miss the occasional intimacy with a woman that I used to experience.

 

[wifewatcher1997]

All valid points and definitely something to miss at this time!

 

[Bamamama1990]

Love the first part of this thread I was similar

 

[jenai88]

For years, my wife has not been open to receiving oral, finding it distasteful (no pun intended) and disgusting. This has been problematic, as I LOVE going down. Everything about it is a turn-on for me: the taste, the smell, the feel, the way a woman's hips rise off of the (bed, floor, whatever), the way she tightens her thighs when she cums, the moans and shrieks and grasping of sheets, the satisfaction expressed when I slide my fingers inside just as my tongue is getting into a rhythm of massage on her clit - and there's a sense of power involved in being able to give that much pleasure for so much time.

For years, I have sometimes met up with women for the sole purpose of giving them cunnilingus. Some of them I found while at professional conferences around the country. Some of them I met through dating apps or Whisper or any other discreet venue that I could find. Sometimes they insisted on giving back, others were content to lean back and enjoy, but all of them consistently found pleasure in my mouth. I went into each experience wanting nothing in return except an open mind and open thighs, and each time I found sexual pleasure in giving. Other than occasional breaks, one women let me eat her pussy for nearly an hour and a half - a fact I only figured out later.

As long as I had these outlets maybe 1-2 times per year, I was content. My wife and I have a great relationship emotionally and sexually, with the exception of this one little thing. COVID has put the brakes on this and it is causing me strain. In February 2020, I went to a conference in New Orleans (the site of the 90 minute oral), just before airlines started locking down and before the nation went into quarantine. With COVID, it has been unthinkable to reach out and connect with anyone. I have had my second vaccine shot, but I have family members that I am reluctant to expose for the sake of my oral addiction. And, like any addiction, I am going through withdrawal. I miss the scent of a woman's thighs and the taste of her clit and the noises she makes in response to my mouth.

I don't know how to end this other than to say that I am sad that I cannot live out my fetish. I know that meeting up with a stranger to go down on her until she is beyond satisfied without any expectations in return is pretty tame as far as Literotica fetishes go, but it's my thing and I'm completely unfulfilled at the moment.

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Fantastic thread. Feeling your description of the desire and actions engaged in to meet this long-held fetish. I can appreciate the relationship you have with your spouse. Respecting the limitations and finding avenues to meet your innate desires that rise to the surface due to unmet fulfillment. We can only deny ourselves for a period of time.

This longing for oral stimulation fed by scents and tastes and texture in our mouths is a shared desire. I can feel your longing and know many here can relate to this deep-seated desire.

 

[KinkyTeacherGuy]

Love the first part of this thread I was similar

How so? Tell me more, please.

 

[KinkyTeacherGuy]

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Fantastic thread. Feeling your description of the desire and actions engaged in to meet this long-held fetish. I can appreciate the relationship you have with your spouse. Respecting the limitations and finding avenues to meet your innate desires that rise to the surface due to unmet fulfillment. We can only deny ourselves for a period of time.

This longing for oral stimulation fed by scents and tastes and texture in our mouths is a shared desire. I can feel your longing and know many here can relate to this deep-seated desire.

I almost sent this to you as a private message, but I was concerned that it might not yet be welcome. You are a fantastic writer and certainly someone who understands the value and impact of intellectual stimulation. Regardless, it is validating to hear your response, as there is not a day that goes by these days where I am yearning and unfulfilled in this area. I have a hunger that burns and aches more and more each day, and I fear that the day of being able to eat my fill once more is still a long, long time from now.