Wondering if I should keep going, or if I'm just messed up...

[GivingInToALot]

I'm not saying liking to suck cock is messed up, just that my motivations, the psychological reasons I want to do it, might be messed up. A little background should help...

I was always curious about sucking cock, as long as I can remember. Other than giving a few handjobs when I was 18 (and some light ummm... tasting... during that), I didn't think I'd ever go through with it.

Then, when I was 31, my wife confessed to having an affair. I won't go into everything, but after a while she and I were fighting about whether or not to reconcile and, out of anger one night when I turned her down for sex about two weeks after she told me, she said she could get laid any time and stormed out. When she came back the next day she swore nothing happened... a year or two later she confessed that she went home with a stranger that night but didn't sleep with him.

Eventually, we got past all of that... mostly... and then years later she let slip that she went home with a guy and his roommate, but swore that only one of them fucked her, and she

 

[RipleNStllWtr]

And........what happened next

 

[kLangleybi]

And she............walked in on you while you were sharing this with us?

 

[JasperKryx]

I'm not saying liking to suck cock is messed up, just that my motivations, the psychological reasons I want to do it, might be messed up. A little background should help...

I was always curious about sucking cock, as long as I can remember. Other than giving a few handjobs when I was 18 (and some light ummm... tasting... during that), I didn't think I'd ever go through with it.

Then, when I was 31, my wife confessed to having an affair. I won't go into everything, but after a while she and I were fighting about whether or not to reconcile and, out of anger one night when I turned her down for sex about two weeks after she told me, she said she could get laid any time and stormed out. When she came back the next day she swore nothing happened... a year or two later she confessed that she went home with a stranger that night but didn't sleep with him.

Eventually, we got past all of that... mostly... and then years later she let slip that she went home with a guy and his roommate, but swore that only one of them fucked her, and she

Yeah. Right. I believe that she didn't do anything thing. I can't remember all the times I took two girls home and didn't do anything. Hahaha. Right. I only recall ever having two girls and funny thing is they were both named Colleen.