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Rambrat

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There is someone I'd like you to meet... my father.

Next month would have been his 78th birthday...born September 29, 1924. He died on November 8, 2000 four months after we discovered that he had cancer.

Inspired by PC's moving tribute to his father, I wanted to honor my father on his birthday. My father did not share much of his life experiences, so I know very little about him other than he was born in Baltimore Maryland, served in the army as an MP, loved Las Vegas and loved women. In fact, when he discovered that he would not have long to live, he chose Vegas as his last request. We all went to Vegas one last time.

We did not always get along and it took some 30 years to finally come to an understanding of each other. I lived most of my life trying to NOT be like him. In the end, I realized that perhaps I should have been more like him in some ways and also realized that I am like him in some ways.

He would have loved Lit.

In closing, I wanted to share the words that I spoke as I stood before all who gathered to say goodbye to my father.

a tribute to him...

My father once inquired as to why I always chose a path in life more likened to an obstacle course … to which I replied… “because I didn’t want to be like you Dad.” He nodded his head as if to say … I understand. For as much as we wanted to do more with our life than our father… he wanted it for us, that much more.

Through the years, I grew to understand my father more because along that rocky path, there always stood a figure willing to give me some direction.
Perhaps my father never invented anything that simplified our existence … nor did he find a cure for some horrid disease … but what he did do was equally as important to us. He gave of himself.

Because of him … we always had a roof above our head … because of him, we never went hungry … and because of him, we were always clothed. He always provided … he was always there to lend an ear. And isn’t that the measure of a man.

There is something else that I came to realized about my father … something that we should all strive for … and I think it can be summed up by something the wizard said to the Tin-man as he gave him his new heart … “remember, that a heart is not judged by how much you love others, but by how much others love you.

And my father was loved.

So now I say … “I want to be like you Dad.”

I love you Dad … and I will miss you.

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I'm thinking of you, hugging you, and I'm moved beyond words...what a man you are.

Beautiful.
 
Its posts like these that make me grateful that I still have both of my parents, not to mention the other loved ones in my life.

Thank you for sharing. :heart:
 
Rambrat said:

We did not always get along and it took some 30 years to finally come to an understanding of each other. I lived most of my life trying to NOT be like him. In the end, I realized that perhaps I should have been more like him in some ways and also realized that I am like him in some ways.

He would have loved Lit.


This is so true and something I struggle with often after losing my mom. The wasted years which can never be reclaimed. But I think our parents expect it to a certain extent. I see it in my son now, the amazement when I don't agree with him but respect his opinion and listen to his logic. I let him win once in awhile too.
 
Hugs, Rambrat. As I am watching my mom go through her breast cancer treatment day by day, I think more and more about how important she is to me and how I don't want to lose her, especially before I can have a baby - I know I will need her most then!
 
Is loss redeemed by memory ? Or does memory merely swell the sense of loss, becoming the enemy ? The language of loss is the language of memory: rememberance, memorial, memento. People leave our lives all the time. Some we meet only briefly, others we've known since birth. They leave us memories- which become skewed through time - and little more.


Ian Rankin



I am sorry you miss your Dad. I know you will always love him.
 
That was wonderful, Ratty.

*HUGS* and :kiss:'s

For once I feel speechless....
 
Nice thoughts.

It's easy for me to think of the ways I do not want to be like my parents but your words remind me of the ways I would like to be like them.

I hope his birthday is a day you can take to celebrate his life.
 
Emerald_eyed: thank you for your help:kiss:

intrigued: thanks for the hug babe.

Bindii: he would have liked that ass.

shyybabe: I wished that he was open more. I asked that he write things down, leaving us with something. Even in the end, you couldn't interrupt that ballgame...

peachykeen: God, it's not easy to watch someone go. I always wished that my father would see me become someone to be proud of before he left. I think that if he could see me here...he'd be proud because I've managed to meet the approval of so many people.

SilverVeil: In the end, a better understanding arose..as if the final piece of the puzzle was found that reveal the whole image. My father did the best he could with what he had to work with...

Luscious Lioness: Always so sweet. We were a lot alike...and very different. The one thing that I developed that he could never quite grasp was a sense of romance. I don't think that he had quite the charm..but he was lovable.

Pixie: Thank you hon.

RawHumor: Hey buddy! Thanks!

SINthysist: You look good in shades.:D
 
Rambrat

I'm sorry for your loss. my father past away 18 yrs. ago on Aug.22.He also had cancer. He was a very private person but one thing's for sure you always knew where you stood with him. He wasn't an overly affectionate person but you always knew you were loved by him in the little things he did. He was a wonderful father, and made sure we never lacked for anything. I don't know of anyone who ever disliked or mistrusted him. I hope that maybe i inherited at least a few of his good qualities.I still miss him after 18 yrs. and thanks to your thread i will take time to say to my dad "I Love You" and thanks for helping me become the person i am.
 
Beautiful tribute. I know your father is proud. Thank you for sharing. :rose:
 
(((Ram)))

I lost my Dad to cancer in "98, I know how you feel sweetie.
While going through a very rough time in my life a few years earlier, everything seemed to be falling around my ears, Dad told me "I am proud of you Sunshine, you never give up." I don't think he realized how much those few words meant to me. They encouarged me not to give up and I am a very happy woman today. I miss him and I know how much you miss your father. We have our memories to help.
 
That was beautiful, R.

There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about my mother. I think sometimes we forget just how much we owe our parents.

Thank you for making me remember. :kiss: :rose: :kiss:
 
Dammit Rambrat,

You just had to go and make me cry. Now I'm going to have to go and call my dad and listen to him bawl me out.

I feel for your loss. My daddy has been fighting cancer off and on for over 10 yrs. He was a hard man to live with when I was a child. But he taught me alot, granted I did not appreciate it when I was younger, but as I grow older I grow wiser and more appreciative. And I know that when he finally does go, it will devastate me. So I thank you Rambrat for your words about your father, because at some point in the future I will run across those same words once again, and they will be a testament and tribute to who I am today, and who made me that way.
 
lovely tribute ram and look at it this way, you have those memories that you can cherish, you have that strive to measure up to your dad and be like him, you have the empty hole in the very fiber of your being from where he was taken from you. Your lucky to have those things in some respects, not all of us are that fortunate. Enjoy them, embrace them, but most of all never forget them.
 
It takes quite a man to look back on his life and see where he was wrong, see where he might have been better, and to grow and change from all that he sees.
He is proud to have a son like you. Don't ever doubt that.
 
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