Why does the hint of masculinity excite me sexually?

Escierto

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As some of you may know, I have been visiting my Filipina transgender girlfriend this month.

Today as we were sitting at a table outside the hotel restaurant, I was looking at her face and I could see the dark facial hair growing along her jawline and under her chin. The rest of her face was smooth and hairless except for that area.

It’s a strange thing but when I see her facial hair like this, instead of being repulsed, it excites me sexually and makes me want her intensely. I would have been happy if she had bent me over and fucked me at that very moment but unfortunately we were in a very public place.

I have also noticed that when my face is in her crotch licking her balls and cock, I am turned on by a distinctly masculine musky odor. She doesn’t take hormones at all so her body probably has these effects as a result of her testosterone.

Although she is exceptionally naturally feminine, I wonder why I like these masculine aspects of her body? She doesn’t like anything masculine about her body except what is between her legs but I revel in them. Of course I would never tell her that. Why does her telltale masculinity give me such a thrill?
 
I think you should just accept it as a bonus since you didn't mention being attracted to other men gay or straight .
 
Honestly, this sentiment should give hope to trans women everywhere. Unless they transitioned at 18 with the full kit of puberty blockers, most of us have found it near impossible to purge all traces of maleness. I’m told my voice passes no problem, but those people don’t hear me before I warm up every day. Plus I’m taller than my cis sisters. My crush calls me a glamazon, which she means as a compliment, but it makes me terribly self-conscious. What’s important about her statement, and about yours, Escierto, is that we are loved and appreciated by SOMEONE. And that’s really what counts.
 
Honestly, this sentiment should give hope to trans women everywhere. Unless they transitioned at 18 with the full kit of puberty blockers, most of us have found it near impossible to purge all traces of maleness. I’m told my voice passes no problem, but those people don’t hear me before I warm up every day. Plus I’m taller than my cis sisters. My crush calls me a glamazon, which she means as a compliment, but it makes me terribly self-conscious. What’s important about her statement, and about yours, Escierto, is that we are loved and appreciated by SOMEONE. And that’s really what counts.
Thank you for saying this. It means a lot.
 
I think what it is is that we're attracted to the urgency and immediacy of male sexuality, I mean you can't argue with a hard cock or a big cumshot.

But it's all the markers that come with masculinity that are unattractive and can ultimately cause even a revulsion.

This applies I'd imagine mostly to us bicurious lot, who think about cock a lot but men as desirable pretty much never. I did have a totally out and proud gay workmate who explained it me as, say you're straight, you get the warm and fuzzy romantic feels for women as well as wanting to fuck them right? So try to imagine feeling that for masculinity, muscly hairy male bodies, macho attitudes, deep voices, beards and moustaches etc. That's what being out and out gay is.
 
As some of you may know, I have been visiting my Filipina transgender girlfriend this month.

Today as we were sitting at a table outside the hotel restaurant, I was looking at her face and I could see the dark facial hair growing along her jawline and under her chin. The rest of her face was smooth and hairless except for that area.

It’s a strange thing but when I see her facial hair like this, instead of being repulsed, it excites me sexually and makes me want her intensely. I would have been happy if she had bent me over and fucked me at that very moment but unfortunately we were in a very public place.

I have also noticed that when my face is in her crotch licking her balls and cock, I am turned on by a distinctly masculine musky odor. She doesn’t take hormones at all so her body probably has these effects as a result of her testosterone.

Although she is exceptionally naturally feminine, I wonder why I like these masculine aspects of her body? She doesn’t like anything masculine about her body except what is between her legs but I revel in them. Of course I would never tell her that. Why does her telltale masculinity give me such a thrill?
you need to go out shopping together fo panties or granny panties, , with her wearing several outfits or bathing suits, I wear panties and an occasional bra, like my partner, Some sperm smell better than others.
 
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you need to go out shopping together fo panties or granny panties, , with her wearing several outfits or bathing suits, I wear panties and an occasional bra, like my partner, Some sperm smell better than others.
She never wants me to dress feminine and I don’t. Her sperm is exquisite!
 
I think what it is is that we're attracted to the urgency and immediacy of male sexuality, I mean you can't argue with a hard cock or a big cumshot.

But it's all the markers that come with masculinity that are unattractive and can ultimately cause even a revulsion.

This applies I'd imagine mostly to us bicurious lot, who think about cock a lot but men as desirable pretty much never. I did have a totally out and proud gay workmate who explained it me as, say you're straight, you get the warm and fuzzy romantic feels for women as well as wanting to fuck them right? So try to imagine feeling that for masculinity, muscly hairy male bodies, macho attitudes, deep voices, beards and moustaches etc. That's what being out and out gay is.
Yes! All the masculinity does not appeal to me but a truly feminine person with traces of masculinity oh my god, I can’t resist her! Like when I see her facial hair or that musky smell between her legs - it drives me wild!
 
I don't have any answers for you, but I think another thing we have in common (besides loving who we have sex with -- not just lusting), is that ever desire to understand why we are the way we are. I've done that for a life time, and would guess you have probably done the same.

PS: I'm a cheapskate. I use the same razor over and over. Likewise, my vision isn't as good as it used to be. So I struggle to shave all my facial hairs under my jaw and on my neck. I hate that as it makes me look a bit unkept when I put my glasses (more reading type) and see I've left a mess on my neck. I can grow a decent moustache and goutee, but not so much on the cheeks. I just wish I could move my ability to grow on my neck up to my cheeks and have a smooth neck. I started shaving again, as I got tired of feeling itchy on my face. Its strange that my partner was always shaved until about the same time when he decided to have a full beard which he can grow just fine. He would make a good Santa. I do wish he did shave from time to time, so i could simply take his razors and not worry about mine getting so dull! :) Like I said, I'm a big cheapskate!!!

Perhaps the existence of hair you see on your girlfriend is because she might not see it with her eyesight... As I have said before, that fact that you love her makes all the difference. So what if you find the distinction between the genders is not always black and white? I remember how rigid things used to be (I was born & raised in the rural mid-west (born 1959), when not to be rigid in the excepted norms of gender was a BIG FAUX PAS! It sucked. I didn't want to be a girl. Still, to be totally honest, I have a birth defect (a bad right ear). So I always wore my hair long enough to cover my ears. That was SO non-male back then, that I was labeled a sissy or hippy for non-conforming. Granted, I was not the butchest thing on two legs, but again I never desired to be a woman. That same bull-shit attitude existed in the military when I was forced to live with my dad 1971-74 which a good part of that time was at Clark AFB in the Philippines. I remember a friend asked me why I didn't cut my hair to be like the other boys so that I wasn't teased so much. I told him about my ear. He said, that any decent guy wouldn't hold my defective ear against me. I responded: "But it is ok for a decent guy to hold the length of my hair against me?" Nonetheless, he shut up, and the topic never came up again...

I swear to myself sometimes that my strong desire for men physically as emotionally is something God planned for me because if I had no such compulsion, I would have divorced myself from the company of men because so many of them can be jerks. One should never divorce themselves from one half of the population -- especially if it is the half they belong to. My attraction forced me to see that there are indeed kind, wonderful, caring men you just have to keep your heart open for such. There are good fathers, there are good male mentors, etc. So I had to force myself to give people (especially men) the possibility to prove they weren't complete jerks.
 
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Today we were having our regular cam chat and she was taking a shower and getting ready to go to an event. At one point she got a razor and was shaving her upper lip and chin while imploring me in a theatrical voice, "Don't look! Don't look!".

Of course I was looking and desiring her most intensely. About as much as I have ever desired anyone.
 
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