sch00lteacher
Social Security Sucks
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- Sep 29, 2001
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Hello friends and family. I am writing this to check in with everyone who cares, to let you know that I am still alive and kicking around the net. I haven’t forgotten you. It has only been a week since I lost my mind temporarily and made a big fool out of myself.
I wanted to make sure that I apologized to Killermuffin. KM you are someone who I have admired all along. I love reading your posts. There is no excuse for including you in my explosion last week, that was all me. I offer the apology, I hope you accept it. If you can not I understand, and I will still hold you in admiration, and still read what you have to share.
I have given a hell of a lot of thought as to what happened last week. I have been trying to figure out what happened to me. I have a lot of excuses I could offer. That doesn’t seem right somehow. It isn’t just one or two things, it is a hell of a lot of things. Some big, some small, all of them eating at me at once, very few of them having anything to do with Literotica at all. Some of you know what I have been going through, a lot of you don’t. The ones that don’t know me very well, or what has been going on in my life were the ones that seemed the most upset. It is to these ‘newbies’ that I guess I feel a need to explain myself and actions too.
On November 6th of 2001 I had a total hip replacement on the right side. I had the left one done in June of the same year. I also suffered a heart attack on May 1st of last year. Not a fun year for me. Anyhow, I have been at home since 11/6/01. I have been in a good deal of pain since 11/6/01. I have been taking a lot of pain medication since 11/6/01. Even my stay at the hospital this last time was different. I was not acting normal. I was a total pain in the ass to the staff, I would not stay in bed, and they came close to tying me in.
My last doctor’s visit at the VA hospital, the doctor wanted me to have a psychiatric evaluation done. This after talking to me, and my wife who the doctor demands accompany me on my visits (she doesn’t lie to him, I do). I haven’t heard yet when it is going to be. The VA isn’t known for moving fast. He is talking about one of these full day things where they hit you with all the cute little tests you learn about in psychology 101. If it was just up to me I would have told him to shove it. My actions last week help me to understand that maybe, just maybe, I do need to follow through on this. I have been taking medication for depression and anxiety for a long time. I have suffered all my life with those.
So, my ‘new’, and old friends. My doctor thinks I am nuts. I have been sitting at home in constant pain, and doped up for almost three full months. I was getting almost all of my outside contact with humanity through the board. You can’t do that, the board is not reality. I tried. I lost it.
I am not going to come back full time. I am not ready to. I have enjoyed visiting other web sites, ones that I have been ignoring for awhile. But I do think I will come back every now and then to check in. To those of you who I gave my email address to, I still check it everyday. Anyone else may feel free to PM me here.
I do ask that if you have something really negative to tell me that you PM me instead of doing it in public. I can take a lot of things in private that I can not in public. When attacked publicly I feel the need to defend myself strongly.
If nothing else, just ignore me. I am after all just a crazy old man
I will be in and out. Hope you don’t mind. I will try not to mess the place up too much.
Be good.
edited for spelling
I wanted to make sure that I apologized to Killermuffin. KM you are someone who I have admired all along. I love reading your posts. There is no excuse for including you in my explosion last week, that was all me. I offer the apology, I hope you accept it. If you can not I understand, and I will still hold you in admiration, and still read what you have to share.
I have given a hell of a lot of thought as to what happened last week. I have been trying to figure out what happened to me. I have a lot of excuses I could offer. That doesn’t seem right somehow. It isn’t just one or two things, it is a hell of a lot of things. Some big, some small, all of them eating at me at once, very few of them having anything to do with Literotica at all. Some of you know what I have been going through, a lot of you don’t. The ones that don’t know me very well, or what has been going on in my life were the ones that seemed the most upset. It is to these ‘newbies’ that I guess I feel a need to explain myself and actions too.
On November 6th of 2001 I had a total hip replacement on the right side. I had the left one done in June of the same year. I also suffered a heart attack on May 1st of last year. Not a fun year for me. Anyhow, I have been at home since 11/6/01. I have been in a good deal of pain since 11/6/01. I have been taking a lot of pain medication since 11/6/01. Even my stay at the hospital this last time was different. I was not acting normal. I was a total pain in the ass to the staff, I would not stay in bed, and they came close to tying me in.
My last doctor’s visit at the VA hospital, the doctor wanted me to have a psychiatric evaluation done. This after talking to me, and my wife who the doctor demands accompany me on my visits (she doesn’t lie to him, I do). I haven’t heard yet when it is going to be. The VA isn’t known for moving fast. He is talking about one of these full day things where they hit you with all the cute little tests you learn about in psychology 101. If it was just up to me I would have told him to shove it. My actions last week help me to understand that maybe, just maybe, I do need to follow through on this. I have been taking medication for depression and anxiety for a long time. I have suffered all my life with those.
So, my ‘new’, and old friends. My doctor thinks I am nuts. I have been sitting at home in constant pain, and doped up for almost three full months. I was getting almost all of my outside contact with humanity through the board. You can’t do that, the board is not reality. I tried. I lost it.
I am not going to come back full time. I am not ready to. I have enjoyed visiting other web sites, ones that I have been ignoring for awhile. But I do think I will come back every now and then to check in. To those of you who I gave my email address to, I still check it everyday. Anyone else may feel free to PM me here.
I do ask that if you have something really negative to tell me that you PM me instead of doing it in public. I can take a lot of things in private that I can not in public. When attacked publicly I feel the need to defend myself strongly.
If nothing else, just ignore me. I am after all just a crazy old man
I will be in and out. Hope you don’t mind. I will try not to mess the place up too much.
Be good.
edited for spelling
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