Where to start? "Does anybody in here feel the way I do..."

[bordendazed]

Remember how we laughed..?

We lived through the 70's, loved in the 80's, flew through the 90's and stubbed our toes on 9/11/01... And it's 5 years later, and, what has changed?

Ages 35 to 55, we have been there and done that. Some more than others, and some, less, and some just from afar, while others, see only the mind's eye.

Here we have the gift of awareness, the literal pulse of life; The sensual prose of sensuality. Sharing words, senses, feelings and fantasies in a one-way (or two dimensional keyboard communication) format to please the senses and to stimulate the masses? Or, is it just to share the feeling with those that appreciate it?

"What shall we use to fill the empty spaces where waves of [mental] hunger roar? Shall we set out across the sea of faces in search of more and more applause..." Or shall we just accept what we are, and what we have?

Surely there are people that appreciate the intellect of a stranger's mind, and value the scent of someone's efforts. Where are those that live to love an dare not be burdened with the fear of society nor the rusty chains of "love"?

People who could exist on a plane of mental revelation disregarding gender, age or petty possessions. Belief in a fellow human's experiences and their ability to enlighten others with wisdom and revelations unkown or unimagined. Is it possible?

Searching, lusting, looking for those that follow their mind, and not the ways of the past nor the fears of their present... Where are the thinkers, the philosophers, the sensual hedonists, the tactile experimenters; those that live and love in the same moment, and yet, can move on to another topical subject without regrets?

Not juvenile 'fuck buddies' nor plastic poseurs, but those with a passionate opinion and a fanatical sense of belief in their own opinions, with a common thread that resonates through all of our generation?

Confused, confounded or just frustrated-maybe that is true, but I want to, one of these days, before I return to the elements, share my experiences and learn from others'; to revel in the beatuy of this shared existance; to be and to have been.

What a long strange trip it's been...

Comments, critics and confounded enigmatic confusional statements welcome, hoped for, and desired.

 

[soakersue]

You took the words right outa my mouth

Searching, lusting, looking for those that follow their mind, and not the ways of the past nor the fears of their present... Where are the thinkers, the philosophers, the sensual hedonists, the tactile experimenters; those that live and love in the same moment, and yet, can move on to another topical subject without regrets?

Not juvenile 'fuck buddies' nor plastic poseurs, but those with a passionate opinion and a fanatical sense of belief in their own opinions, with a common thread that resonates through all of our generation.



We all stoped protesting, we became middle class, we pay mortgages.
And I am not sure I like it. Well thought out and put into words.
Thanks

 

[ntsu]

We all stopped protesting, we became middle class, we pay mortgages.
And I am not sure I like it. Well thought out and put into words.
Thanks

I never thought it would turn out this way. What happenes to the dreams?

 

[bordendazed]

We pay our debits to ourselves and to those we owe.

We watch the young flail and falter as we once did; we watch the old flail and flater as we soon will.

But now, we only flail and falter among our invisible selves.

Is it too much to ask, to ask for a hand, a shoulder, an embrace, a touch, a smile, a whisper, a friend?

Is it?

 

[cyikac1986]

Ah, but as long as you are able to realize the wrong turns and dead ends your life has taken and you still have breathe in your body, you can rebel. It took me 46 years to realize this.

To paraphrase Dylan Thomas: Do not go gentle ino that good night...rage,rage against the dying of the light...

And to paraphrase Blue Oyster Cult: All our times have come..Here but now they're gone...40,000 men and women everyday...Redefine happiness..We can be like they are

Even if the changes are small they can still be significant if they improve your lot in life.

 

[bordendazed]

"Twenty Two thousand days, it's all we've got. it's not alot..."

To rebel among the clueless is to urinate into the wind.
To rebel among the friendly is to pee in your own pool.

Rage and angst have provided many opportnities, but have offered many more unhappy endings.

Don't fear the reaper, but don't join it either.

Find a friend and wander the world; or "save your strength
And run the field you play alone"?

 

[cyikac1986]

We, as humans, are social creatures, but many choose to turn their backs on potential friends because they judge too harshly. What fun would it be if we all looked alike and thought alike- a homogenized society as dreamt by Orwell.

I have diverse friends from a multitude of cultures, they all look different, act different, and their ideals are different. And yet we are drawn to each other because of, not despite, those differences.

So, boredndazed, there are people like you out there who are willing to take that chance and reach out to a stranger, ever mindful that we may get our hand bitten for the effort, but stil make the effort anyways.

 

[soakersue]

Epiphany

"Twenty Two thousand days, it's all we've got. it's not alot..."

To rebel among the clueless is to urinate into the wind.
To rebel among the friendly is to pee in your own pool.

Rage and angst have provided many opportnities, but have offered many more unhappy endings.

Don't fear the reaper, but don't join it either.

Find a friend and wander the world; or "save your strength
And run the field you play alone"?

So... it boils down to the realization that " life is short". My son asked me awhile back " why do you still like people" , so naturally I asked him why he did not. In the course of our conversation, I told him, other people are the one really big mystery. And when we find ones that we connect to, then we find the one thing that finally makes us feel complete. We have had alot happen to us ( my little family) so he is angry. The fact that I march on I hope will make a difference to him in how he approaches life, as he is only 16, there is much adjustment time left to him.
I on the other hand will not go easy into the night. And on my way I will stop to fish, and watch the sun set.

 

[lik_m_ade]

So... it boils down to the realization that " life is short". My son asked me awhile back " why do you still like people" , so naturally I asked him why he did not. In the course of our conversation, I told him, other people are the one really big mystery. And when we find ones that we connect to, then we find the one thing that finally makes us feel complete. We have had alot happen to us ( my little family) so he is angry. The fact that I march on I hope will make a difference to him in how he approaches life, as he is only 16, there is much adjustment time left to him.
I on the other hand will not go easy into the night. And on my way I will stop to fish, and watch the sun set.

Like your response, Sue.

One's destiny is determined by each decision you make. (with a little Karma mixed in for good measure) The life you will have, the legacy to your son are both set in motion by your decision to like people.

Practice philosophy where you find yourself, frugal hedonism if you must, but give your opus on the planet the meaning you want it to have. A mortgage can be a millstone or the path to enlightenment, it's just a tool of your spirit. Ghandi freed millions with salt, we can liberate with the word, the image, the bit of data that challenges, compels and comforts.

What do you want?

What is to be done?

 

[lik_m_ade]

*apologizes profusely for bringing thread to a screeching halt, then beats a hasty retreat*

Sorry!

 

[cyikac1986]

*apologizes profusely for bringing thread to a screeching halt, then beats a hasty retreat*

Sorry!

I am not so sure that this thread was meant to be long lasting. I think it is more a pathway encouraging others to leave the comfort of your cocoon and complacency behind, to live life, to experience the unexperienced, to take that road least followed........

 

[DrFeelgood]

Oh my, way too deep for a Saturday night....

 

[sirgary]

..just a thought..

...growing up, I always envied the people who had a hometown. I was a air force brat and my fathers duty stations seemed to change every other year...

In all the countries, regions, and states I have lived in I have noticed two common elements that all people share...one is the hope for their children to have a better life than what they had, the other is all people have the capacity to hate.

The rest of life is a cycle...there will always be another war, another peace, another breakthrough invention, another terrible tragedy, another wasted day, another day of great productivity... "a time for every purpose, under heaven".

Now I am a very simple man...I try to worry about only what I have the control to change...
....I want to feel the cheek of someone I love...experience the intimacy of someone I have yet to meet...and to have an honorable death...

... ...

 

[lonelyinsnowlan]

I don't fit the ages outlined in the first post, but the words resonate with me...

There's more to life than this mindless, droning existence... and I want to find it, track it, pounce and let it's energy fill me completely.

I want beauty. Love. A companion to adventure with. I want to be awed again by life.





(G- TOTALLY not stalking you... happened to come upon the thread, but thanks for reviving it for me to find)

 

[Lorelei_11]

I'd like to be loved, but I've never experienced it. I've loved people, but they didn't love me back. That was apparent by their actions and inactions.

I've pretty much lost my faith in mankind. I've been through to much alone, and now I'm doing it again.

 

[sirgary]

I'd like to be loved, but I've never experienced it. I've loved people, but they didn't love me back. That was apparent by their actions and inactions.

I've pretty much lost my faith in mankind. I've been through to much alone, and now I'm doing it again.

...being alone isn't so bad....losing faith in mankind happens to all of us at some point...loving someone who doesn't return that love is as natural as rain...

My Grandfather told me once when I was feeling down and alone.....

"...if the bait you are using doesn't attract the fish you want, change your bait..."


...try it....it works...

... ...

 

[Lorelei_11]

...being alone isn't so bad....losing faith in mankind happens to all of us at some point...loving someone who doesn't return that love is as natural as rain...

My Grandfather told me once when I was feeling down and alone.....

"...if the bait you are using doesn't attract the fish you want, change your bait..."


...try it....it works...

... ...

I'm overwhelmed, dealing with everything alone. I don't wish to bait anyone. All I have is myself and I'm struggling to take care of everything. Its taught me a lot about the people in this world. A lot of very negative things. What the masses are like. I'm just trying to get through each day. I don't like fish.

 

[lonelyinsnowlan]

I'm overwhelmed, dealing with everything alone. I don't wish to bait anyone. All I have is myself and I'm struggling to take care of everything. Its taught me a lot about the people in this world. A lot of very negative things. What the masses are like. I'm just trying to get through each day. I don't like fish.

*hugs*

I know exactly how you feel. Yeah, there's a lot of negative.... and I have those days when it's all I can see. Then someone comes along and gives me hope, at least for a second, and I can keep going.

Hope you find that spark.

 

[MrFantasyMan]

alone is a choice... not always the preferred choice perhaps...it's also a state of mind...when you dwell on the negative it has a way of hanging around you...maybe it's a karma thing...


and in the words of a smarter man than I..."you can't always get what you want...but if you try some time...you just may find...you get what you need"...now to mail Mick a royalty check...

 

[lonelyinsnowlan]

alone is a choice... not always the preferred choice perhaps...it's also a state of mind...when you dwell on the negative it has a way of hanging around you...maybe it's a karma thing...

But alone doesn't feel like a choice and I think that's what's difficult. For the person who feels alone, it feels like they are unwanted and that nothing will change. Yes, we can change the way we think about ourselves or others.

Being with someone who's bad for you isn't better than being alone. And even if it's the right choice for the moment, it still doesn't feel good.

 

[Lorelei_11]

*hugs*

I know exactly how you feel. Yeah, there's a lot of negative.... and I have those days when it's all I can see. Then someone comes along and gives me hope, at least for a second, and I can keep going.

Hope you find that spark.

Thanks (hugs you back)

If someone offered me a helping hand, I could see some humanity in people. Until then, its a jungle. I have a spark in me, thats probably going to get me through all of this.

 

[Lorelei_11]

alone is a choice... not always the preferred choice perhaps...it's also a state of mind...when you dwell on the negative it has a way of hanging around you...maybe it's a karma thing...


and in the words of a smarter man than I..."you can't always get what you want...but if you try some time...you just may find...you get what you need"...now to mail Mick a royalty check...

I'm not dwelling on the negative, I'm living "in it." I have health and financial problems due to it, that are extreme. Trying to figure out ways to scrape through it. My karma is very good. I see a lot of other peoples that isn't though.

 

[lonelyinsnowlan]

Thanks (hugs you back)

If someone offered me a helping hand, I could see some humanity in people. Until then, its a jungle. I have a spark in me, thats probably going to get me through all of this.

Anytime you need an ear, I'll be more than happy to listen. Wish I could do more.

 

[Lorelei_11]

Anytime you need an ear, I'll be more than happy to listen. Wish I could do more.

Thanks, I just might.

 

[cat_xoxo]

Long strange trip, indeed

Been lurking a while, have had some newbie-ness about posting.

Read bordendazed's post .... and couldn't not say how much it moved me and how much I enjoy your writing. Thanks.