When Are You Going to Start Living?

[alexandraaah]

I've spent a lot of my life making decisions in a blink, or really not making a decision at all.

I tended to just do things, no forethought, no attention to possible consequences.

This lead me into some of the most amazing moments I'll ever remember and am grateful for that. It also got me into some hairy situations and left a lot of grey hair on both my parent's heads.

Anyways, there's still a piece of me who is that same girl, but mostly I like to plan my whims now, if that makes any sense.

So, my question is: do you really feel like you LIVE? Do you feel you hold yourself back, and for what reason?

I like the freedom of knowing that if I want something...to do something...that I'll do it. I'll somehow make it happen.

Share with draaah.

 

[marksgirl]

I live, I live, I live. That is the story of my life.

 

[estevie]

I was once a girl who did exactly as she pleased...without a care in the world.

I wish I could be that girl again. Just one more time.

 

[Kitte]

Tuesday June 18th 2002. That is the day I will start living.

 

[Sillyman]

When am I allowed to?

 

[marksgirl]

Sillyman just jump right in!

 

[alexandraaah]

I was once a girl who did exactly as she pleased...without a care in the world.

I wish I could be that girl again. Just one more time.

It's your sentiment that led me on an 8000 mile journey last summer.

I did as I pleased; packed the car, the dog, a tent and just drove west for the summer. I didn't know if there would be another opportunity to have such freedom.

I'll never let go of those six weeks.

 

[alexandraaah]

When am I allowed to?

Twenty years ago, that's when.

 

[Sillyman]

Twenty years ago, that's when.

Bloody hell.

 

[estevie]

It's your sentiment that led me on an 8000 mile journey last summer.

I only have to go 800.

 

[Zircon]

...So, my question is: do you really feel like you LIVE? Do you feel you hold yourself back, and for what reason?...

Share with draaah.

Hi Draaah,

When the house, car, credits cards, insurance, ect gets paid off, then I'll LIVE, feel alive and free...but by then I'll be too old to do anything else...LOL...RL is holding me back...

Z

 

[alexandraaah]

I only have to go to 800.

While I don't understand this, I'm willing to chip in gas money.

That kind of living and freedom is unmatchable in my opinion.

It's life, ya know?

Dayum, I'm deep, someone kick me.

 

[alexandraaah]

Re: Re: When Are You Going to Start Living?

Hi Draaah,

When the house, car, credits cards, insurance, ect gets paid off, then I'll LIVE, feel alive and free...but by then I'll be too old to do anything else...LOL...RL is holding me back...

Z

I blew all that off to live. Not in a completely irresponsible way, but I didn't let it stop me, I couldn't.

Your av scares the shit out of me.

You're never too old, I don't think.

 

[calypso_21]

LIving...

Recently posed the same question to myself and am doing just that...living just for me!! Well and a few others but definitely for me! Doing what I want to do. Haven't done it all yet, but I'm still young and even if I wasn't young, I'm certainly not dead. So no excuses.

Caly

 

[Laurel]

As far as "work" or whatever goes, I'm pretty impulsive, but I'm a little more conservative in which impulses I follow. I'm not much of a planner. To make up for that, I usually have a dozen irons in the fire at any given time. If I get an idea for something cool, I start it immediately and work on it as I can - rather than make a elaborate plan of how to proceed. If it leads nowhere, I abandon it and work on the other dozen or so projects. Eventually, something takes root...like Lit, for example. The others die off. Repeat enough times, and you've got lots of cool stuff going on.

Personally, I'm very impulse-driven. As we're childless & similar-minded, we tend to live like kids sometimes. Midnight trips to 7-11 for ice cream. Spur of the moment day trips to Disneyland or the beach or Vegas. Since we spend most of our time working, it's cool to be able to take off for a few hours at random when the pressure gets too much.

 

[Aphrodisiac]

So, my question is: do you really feel like you LIVE? Do you feel you hold yourself back, and for what reason?

I seem to live in the moment and that has gotten me into some sticky situations. But looking back I would not change one thing about the way I lived those moments. I learned a great deal.

Though there are certain aspects of my life that I do hold back , I hold back because I fear I might fail ... I hate that fear... but I am slowly getting over that obstacle in my life.


Did my answer make any sense ?!?!

 

[alexandraaah]

Did my answer make any sense ?!?!

Completely, yes.

 

[Sillyman]

Re: Re: When Are You Going to Start Living?

Personally, I'm very impulse-driven. As we're childless & similar-minded, we tend to live like kids sometimes. Midnight trips to 7-11 for ice cream.

Damn it, now I want ice cream.

 

[Jewelz]

What a great thread and couldn't have come at a better time than this point in my life.

I am about to embark on finally living for me. Somehow I have lost "me" along the way and centered my happiness around everyone else's. Gave so much of myself to everyone else, that I wasn't living for me any more. I was merely a puppet on a string. They had the control.

My marriage is over after being together for 14 years, married 8. And I am making a trip out west in 20 days. It will change my life as I know it. I'm finally doing something for me.

 

[alexandraaah]

My marriage is over after being together for 14 years, married 8. And I am making a trip out west in 20 days. It will change my life as I know it. I'm finally doing something for me.

You're so there. So ready.

Let us know how amazing it is, okay?

 

[Jewelz]

You're so there. So ready.

Let us know how amazing it is, okay?

I will darlin! I'm free to be me. Damn, I think I am actually starting to like me too. Hasn't happened in many many years!

 

[darkscribe]

I would like to start living and in a sense I do. I do what I want, when I want, and how I want. I take no shit from anyone........except when it comes to women
For some reason the "no shit" attitude goes away and I become a scared little boy. I am a man now, but in this sense I haven't lived yet. I have been in certain situations and have done certain things, but I feel that I am also missing out on alot. For some odd reason this is only place where fear has control over me. It becomes very frustrating and I don't know how to get around it. Just thinking about this frustrates me even now.....
You can tell just by reading my poetry.

 

[estevie]

While I don't understand this, I'm willing to chip in gas money.

That kind of living and freedom is unmatchable in my opinion.

It's life, ya know?

Dayum, I'm deep, someone kick me.

LOL, its not gas money, darlin'.

You don't understand and its not something I discuss on the board. I don't have the freedom. I have consequences for my actions. I am no longer that girl. Fate...fickle bitch, ain't she!

 

[District Line]

It's life, ya know?

Dayum, I'm deep, someone kick me.

Carpe 'Dayum' huh ? Hmmmmm.

 

[calypso_21]

I will darlin! I'm free to be me. Damn, I think I am actually starting to like me too. Hasn't happened in many many years!

I'm right there with you Jewelz...amazed at how much I like who I am, now that I'm changing my life!! You go girl! Am leaving too!


Caly