What's your sexual journey look like? Then vs Now

[rc1989]

*From a young age horny neighborhood boys playing with our dicks at the direction of an older girl.
*Still young, I was bullied into sucking off the older next door neighbor boy and continually sucking him almost every day that summer and him fucking me.
*A year later sucking and fucking the 40ish neighbor man across the street.
*Fucking my first girlfriend and many more in high school as well as a couple of male friends.
*Getting married and having kids.
*Discovering ABS's and glory holes in my early 20's sucking cock every chance I got while still having marital sex as often as possible.
*in my 30's discovering and fucking horny ladies picked up in dance clubs and having sex with men and wife.
*Getting divorced in late 40's and meeting up and marrying an old girlfriend from high shcool that was as horny as me having outrageous sex marathons together with other men, women and couples. Continued to have sex with men and attending all male group sex parties.
*Through my 50's 60's and into my 70's I'm still married and love sex. Top or bottom, male or female I just love sex.
* So what am I?

My journey has some similarities.
*Slightly older cousin and I looking at playboy and penthouse . First jacking ourselves then him telling me to jack him off. After about two years we borrowed some of another cousins penthouse forums with stories about sex and a lot of stories about blowjobs. Quickly went from jacking to me sliding under the covers and swallowing his dick and a couple minutes after that him cumming in my mouth.
*Watching a much older cousins girlfriend walk around there house nude with her full bush and big tits on display. Playing strip rummy with her and jacking under the coffee table.
*Getting with my neighbor who I had know since I was small. Went from mowing his grass to sucking him off and him fucking me.
*Making a best friend and sharing each other's bodies till he found a girlfriend that put out.
*Met a girl, but all we did was finger and suck each other.
*Finally old enough to go to ABS and sucked strangers dicks.
*Met a man that worked at our library and was sucking him 2 minutes after he shook his dick at me. He lasted a couple minutes, didn't say anything but held my head as he came in my mouth. Met him at least twice a week at the library.
*Finally old enough to go legally in a bar. First gay bar gave a guy head in the hallway while others watched.
*Met a girl and married the first girl I fucked. Married for 30 years.
*Met a few men on Craigslist for oral and jacking them went to other sites like silver daddies for car blowjobs and jacking.
*Now jack and sometimes meet guys for jacking.
Still love sex, giving head especially.

 

[SuperSissy]

Oh my.

* started jerking off as soon as I can remember, like kindergarten, so sex has ALWAYS been on my mind, my whole conscious life
* started fantasizing about girls and boys early, never cared about social norms for sex
* sex with girls came first, about age 15
* first male I was 18, I sucked him off a few times, and and then he fucked me. I stayed in a secret, down-low relationship with him for years until he passed.
* He sissified me as well.
* Loved that man.
* he eventually handed me to his son and I was his secret sissy for years
* In between met a girl got engaged and then married
* in between also, I lived in Manhattan while fiancée was in Philly and was a slut for anyone who walked, but mostly men
* had kids, had affairs with men and women, got divorced, turned gay, turned bi, turned back to full time sissy, turned bi, gave up labels, met another woman
* currently in a several years long hetero relationship with that woman, and staying monogamous.

 

[swflabimale]

* I was taught submissive behavior by my Pediatric nurse with full approval by my mother. The famous quote: Do what she tells you, she knows best. Exams done in the nude preceded by rectal temp taking, up to the age of 15 all with my mother present.
* From that age and continuing for almost 4 years, my older cousin cultivated a close relationship using nudist magazines that seemed to focus on males of all ages.
* When I met my wife later on, I opened up to her after a year together and after a chance meeting with my cousin, she became sexually insatiable and nothing was off the table...nothing.... including bringing my
submissiveness into our activities.
* Later on, we opened our marriage a bit and she fucked a friend of ours while I fucked his wife. In between that happening, I did some mutual cocksucking with my gay neighbor.
* I had, on more than several occasions hinted that I needed to open up on some of my suppressed feelings and my wife was more than willing to help me achieve them, (she did her best to find two guys that would take me at both ends while restraining me), but life got in the way along with some family issues (that had nothing to do with any of the above) and it put things on a back burner.
* Later, A medical procedure caused my wife to go into an unexpected early menopause and she did a complete 180 degree turn from total perv to no interest at all.
* Right now, I have created a contact through a woman involved in LGBT lifestyle and I'm hoping she can help me find a partner or two. Hoping for success!

 

[FlirtyWordy]

For most my life, I was straight and found the idea of being with a man horrifying. Then something in me changed, and I started imagining what gay sex would be like. The fantasies became quite intense, but I had no idea how I could safely experience a man.

Despite all my fears, I finally visited a Denver bathhouse in October 2019 and met three men. I kinda freaked out afterward, but I was hooked. I knew one night wouldn't be enough. Then Covid hit a few months later.

Talk about a downer.

The good news is that the Covid threat has receded, and I've been fortunate to experience a couple of magnificent cocks since then. My favorite was in Palm Springs, where I met a beautiful man with a big, thick cock. I jerk off to that memory every chance I get.

Where is the Denver bathhouse?

 

[nostuff]

Where is the Denver bathhouse?

My understanding is that it has closed.

 

[FlirtyWordy]

My understanding is that it has closed.

Thank you

 

[lordpenizworth]

My journey has some similarities.
*Slightly older cousin and I looking at playboy and penthouse . First jacking ourselves then him telling me to jack him off. After about two years we borrowed some of another cousins penthouse forums with stories about sex and a lot of stories about blowjobs. Quickly went from jacking to me sliding under the covers and swallowing his dick and a couple minutes after that him cumming in my mouth.
*Watching a much older cousins girlfriend walk around there house nude with her full bush and big tits on display. Playing strip rummy with her and jacking under the coffee table.
*Getting with my neighbor who I had know since I was small. Went from mowing his grass to sucking him off and him fucking me.
*Making a best friend and sharing each other's bodies till he found a girlfriend that put out.
*Met a girl, but all we did was finger and suck each other.
*Finally old enough to go to ABS and sucked strangers dicks.
*Met a man that worked at our library and was sucking him 2 minutes after he shook his dick at me. He lasted a couple minutes, didn't say anything but held my head as he came in my mouth. Met him at least twice a week at the library.
*Finally old enough to go legally in a bar. First gay bar gave a guy head in the hallway while others watched.
*Met a girl and married the first girl I fucked. Married for 30 years.
*Met a few men on Craigslist for oral and jacking them went to other sites like silver daddies for car blowjobs and jacking.
*Now jack and sometimes meet guys for jacking.
Still love sex, giving head especially.

That Librarian experience...wow!!!

 

[magic_rat]

I'm a pansexual cis gender male heavy into kink, and I'm currently in my mid 30s, yet I'm still discovering the whole spectrum of my sexuality.

I’m you, 30 years on.

But after reflecting on my own journey, I've become really curious and would like to hear from other people about how their sexuality started and where it's currently at today.

Oh where to start?

I guess in my teens. I knew I was bi. I’d go to teen discos, be lucky of I got to slow-dance with a girl and maybe a squeeze of her bum through clothing. Then I’d stop off at a cottage (public toilet frequented by gays) and I’d get my cock sucked, I’d suck a few guys off and sometimes even let one fuck me in a cubicle, often with the door open and others watching.

Then I got married. Wife was experienced, was open to fun and games and we experimented wit 3somes etc and I thought I could leave the cock behind. But I didn’t. I just led a double life.

Kids came, sex stopped, last 10 years of marriage were sexless but I’d go to a gay sauna whenever I could do it discreetly.

marriage broke up, I got my own place, joined Fabswingers and Fetlife and my life went into overdrive. I can now be open about my pansexuality and my partners love it. Being amongst other kinksters has given me the courage to examine why I did some of the ridiculously risky things I did as a teenager and I now feel like a fully formed person.

 

[drobert44]

Vanilla life; poor wife died, found Lit, Fetlife, began dating sissies, love it! I cant date women; would lose my freedom.

 

[magic_rat]

If my marriage were to end, I suspect it would take little time at all for me to be fully immersed in slut mode and that scares me.

When my marriage ended it took me about 15 minutes to go full-on slut. Nothing to be scared of though. You scratch that itch, then you realise that you can get sex when you want and it’s not so urgent, so you can focus on quality over quantity.

My journey is really just beginning but reading about yours helps more than you know

We’re all on a journey. Nobody ever truly reaches the destination.

 

[magic_rat]

Vanilla life; poor wife died, found Lit, Fetlife, began dating sissies, love it! I cant date women; would lose my freedom.

Depends on the woman. Mine indulges and enjoys my deviances and I indulge hers.

 

[drobert44]

Depends on the woman. Mine indulges and enjoys my deviances and I indulge hers.

Lucky dog; I would love to have a woman like that. I wouldnt care what she did as long as she was safe.

 

[magic_rat]

Safety is paramount.

 

[drobert44]

When my marriage ended it took me about 15 minutes to go full-on slut. Nothing to be scared of though. You scratch that itch, then you realise that you can get sex when you want and it’s not so urgent, so you can focus on quality over quantity.

We’re all on a journey. Nobody ever truly reaches the destination.

It's ride of life.

 

[KinkStevens]

Wild then, mild now

 

[EdgySubMic]

Having grown up in the late sixties and early seventies in a non-religious family, I knew about the birds and the bees from very early on. Nonetheless, I decided that all this non-hygienic nonsense was not for me and stuck to that view for a very, very, very long time.

Upon entering my teens, my interest in playing cowboys and indians morphed into an interest in non-sexual bondage, which pretty much ended all such games there and then, as the other person involved didn’t share those views.

During all of primary as well as high school, I got bullied a lot for being an introvert loner, for being too smart, for not liking football, for not chasing girls (nor boys, for that matter) … While in high school, I frequently got called our local slang word for faggot, which I didn’t actually understand – this was long before the internet and Google, mind you. I never showed my submissive tendency at the time, and was not even really aware of it. Even my masturbation activities were plain vanilla. But my bullies might have "smelled" something anyway.

During my early university years, I did fantasize a few times about selected female co-students, and about one in particular who lived in the student room next to mine (Hi Cynthia!), but I hardly ever spoke to them for real beyond study related topics. Not even to my lovely neighbor. My studies and computers were my true passion – call me a nerd.

After starting my first job and moving into my own apartment, I finally started experimenting with light self-bondage, but mostly considered myself asexual. For many years, I never watched any porn – despite having had internet access from very early on. Regular porn just didn’t do anything for me. One day, while traveling on a city bus, I found a gay porn booklet that someone had lost there. I took it home, read every bit of it twice over, found it all “very interesting” but then made sure to dispose of it afterwards (silly me). No such stuff in my apartment…

Then a new colleague walked into my life. Within weeks we became good friends and soon after I was in deeply love, although it took me a long time plus a hint from him to fully realize that fact. I was already 30+ when all the bits and pieces finally fell into place: I’m a sapiosexual first of all; overwhelmingly gay; and sexually submissive (as well as fiercely loyal) to people who earned my admiration and trust through their intelligence and our mutual interests. Those have been few and far between in my life, however. Actually, none until I met this guy. Today, I’m a collared slave to one such person, and have been so since 1996.

 

[cdstefi]

I'm a pansexual cis gender male heavy into kink, and I'm currently in my mid 30s, yet I'm still discovering the whole spectrum of my sexuality.

I've never been in a serious relationship and I never participated in casual sex or sought one out night stands, so I feel like my journey has moved along slowly.

But in my early twenties I thought I was just a straight guy with a "gay kink" cause I had a lot of fantasies about women I crushed and wanted a romantic relationship with them, but my fantasies about men never involved commitment or romance. Over the last 10+ years my sexuality has changed a lot as I've been working towards overcoming the shame I put on myself. Even my kinks keep expanding. I used to only want to be a Dom for women and a sub for men, and now I also have desires in being a sub for women or a Dom for men depending on what they'd want. I feel like I could even date the right guy, and I've even become more open about the idea of polygamous relationships which I use to think were horrible.

But after reflecting on my own journey, I've become really curious and would like to hear from other people about how their sexuality started and where it's currently at today.

Although I've always crossdressed, I regarded myself as straight until I met my current (second) wife. She's extremely open-minded and sex-positive, knew I liked to wear lingerie and adopt a more feminine persona from the start of our relationship, and gently encouraged me to open up more about my interest in cock. She also took my anal virginity with a Feeldoe

So now I've blown and ridden a couple of guys and loved it. I still adore her and find her as sexy as ever, so I guess I'm full-on bisexual now

 

[AchtungNight]

Heterosexual male here. The most frequent male lead character in my Lit stories lives an idealized version of how I would like to my life to have gone, sex included. Wealthy writer who was able to get his ideas on paper and publish them, also bed just about every woman he’s ever wanted, celebrities included. And they usually pursue him.

Irl, I’ve had a lot less success, with money and with relationships. A few childhood crushes that never moved past that, a love of adult fiction and cheesy romance novels in my teens that led me to realize my sexuality and discover masturbation, a hot Aussie girlfriend in high school who took my virginity but we then lost touch, one consensual incest relationship that we ended by mutual understanding once we understood it might go farther than it should if it didn’t end, a few college dates, a serious relationship eight years after college that became an eight year marriage but then we divorced amicably, some hookers, many lonely years. One awesome fantasy girl I wish existed in real life. All the females I’ve bedded in real life and the fantasy girl show up in my stories in echoes of some kind. My life’s not over yet but I honestly don’t know where it goes from here. Maybe I’ll write more if inspiration strikes.

 

[Travisspank]

I was straight throughout teenage years. Had girlfriends, but had my eyes opened to the other half of my sexuality in early twenties after having my cock sucked in an adult theater. That first experience opened me up to further experimentation with men, which led to fantasies of being sucking cock and being fucked that I later pursued. After my first time sucking and bottoming I was hooked and have been a discreet bi since. Early thirties got married and had a kid, and I took a hiatus from men, but I still had the desire to be taken my another man, and acted on it occasionally when opportunities arose. Around 40 sex life with wife disappeared and I turned back to men for sexual fulfillment. Currently my only sexual encounters are with men on the side and I am still married.

In the 20++ years I’ve been bi, I have sucked and been fucked by about 25 different men, some on a regular basis but mostly quick hookups. Currently I have a regular I meet 1-2 times a month and when I travel alone I am always looking for some cock.

 

[CousinB]

In my 70’s and just now addressing my desire for cock. I have take. 3 men into my mouth and let one of them fuck me multiple times. I hunger for more but I also must protect my wife which limits my fun.

If my marriage were to end, I suspect it would take little time at all for me to be fully immersed in slut mode and that scares me.

My journey is really just beginning but reading about yours helps more than you know

 

[CousinB]

I was aware of my sexual attraction to men from a fairly early age, but thought I was bi and put the same-sex attraction on the shelf, as it were.

Coming out was a gradual process for me, thwarted by denial. A turning point came when I was in a restroom at my university library one weekend (many years after graduating) and saw a scribbled note for “safe male sex” with today’s date, a few minutes to go, and on another floor. I got as far as going to the floor before chickening out.

I’d been having gay masturbation fantasies more and more (and my marital sex life was flagging) That I had such a powerful desire that Saturday in the library, however, made me give myself permission to have intentionally and pleasurably gay masturbation fantasies as much as I liked. Which turned out to be close to 100 percent. Still, I pretended to myself I was just bi.

I started masturbating with other men online, first in Second Life, then in various webcamming venues.

It took me nine years after my library epiphany to visit a gay bathhouse, where I lost my gay virginity (somewhat shambolically).

For some time after that I was freaked out. Then my spouse pulled a nasty stunt which convinced me that I no longer cared about marital fidelity to someone who treated me so poorly.

I started going to bathhouses every chance I could. Still, it was a couple of years before the penny dropped: My primary sexual attraction is to other men. Glad I finally figured it out.

Most of my sexual experience has taken place after my library epiphany, which I mark as my coming out, even if I pretended to be bi for some years still.

And almost all of that has been gay. Hundreds of male lovers (an unremarkable number as these things go, but I treasure the memory of every man who ever fucked me or sucked me.) More sex, longer sex, better sex. I last fucked my spouse 14 years ago; don’t miss it all that much.

But I’m very glad to be gay!

Thanks for sharing your transition story from bi to gay, I can completely relate as I am sure many men here would agree. And like you, it took me years to finally arrive at something I always knew….i am gay. And it feels great to admit to that. I am a proud gay man.

 

[lordpenizworth]

I love this thread.
My journey began in a sexually repressed family, but I always knew that within me I had a flame for sex which may have been brighter and more intense than I'd felt was normal.
But kept it hidden.
On high school dates I'd receive three bjs an evening from my gf, and I was content with that.
College was featureless.
By grad school I was masturbating daily, enjoying vanilla porn every so often, and by my early thirties I had synched up w a friend's wife and was feeding her weekly, scheduled yet abruptly like dogs having sex in an alley.
Always the churchgoing golden boy in the public eye, however.
Then I thought about oral sex w men, eventually finding a kind older gay who understood my interest and let me try him. I went back a few weeks later.
I have had an affair with a married woman -- the best sex I've ever had -- involving being watched, her exploring my ass, and me turning her into a cock-craving anal queen, whereas she'd barely ever done oral at home.
I have met many closeted bi men while chatting or cruising and have had wonderful, affirming conversations (such as this thread!).
I've been servicing men on and off for 17 years and am comfortable with my sexuality.
These days I keep an eye open for women who are discreet and sexually uninhibited, or willing to be. I don't look too hard though.
And I smile at men in hopes they're looking for a discreet man in whom to confide.
I'm more experienced and open than anyone in my life knows.

 

[KinkStevens]

I experienced stints of near lunacy when I was younger, but its calmed down quite dramatically in my older years. I still love my kinks but my urges are in check and I think my decisions through a lot more. Maturity sucks

 

[drobert44]

Although I've always crossdressed, I regarded myself as straight until I met my current (second) wife. She's extremely open-minded and sex-positive, knew I liked to wear lingerie and adopt a more feminine persona from the start of our relationship, and gently encouraged me to open up more about my interest in cock. She also took my anal virginity with a Feeldoe

So now I've blown and ridden a couple of guys and loved it. I still adore her and find her as sexy as ever, so I guess I'm full-on bisexual now

So fun, aint it?