what's your mental state during the great lockdown?

[rae121452]

i'm eating a lot more and napping a lot more. i get anxious in the afternoons and take another nap. i'm wanting to drink more, too. depression comes and goes, never too long lasting. an ugly sense of foreboding that i can't seem to shake.

have you noticed any changes and how do you cope?

 

[KeithD]

Well, I just finished hand painting 106 Christmas cards for this year. That might indicate something.

Actually, I'm a writer and editor working at home, so, if anything, the lockdown just gives me a good excuse for hiding out in my study--which is pretty much what I was going to do anyway.

I knew what Donald Trump was and wasn't before this, so none of his killing nonsense has surprised me much. It does surprise me that more aren't telling him just to fuck off. Some are, though. Probably more than usual when he was being slightly less crazy.

 

[Saint_Ann]

Finding it harder and harder to work. The project I'm on would be impossible in the best of conditions. Conference calls with people scattered all over the country who don't know anything. I have diarrhea, zits, a cough, and I think I'm getting a cold sore. Nothing sounds good to eat. Can't sleep at night. Tired all day.

So, for the most part, it's going great.

 

[Setanta84]

My roommate has completely lost her shit. She's posted reminders to wash our hands on every available surface in the common areas, is insisting on not locking the doors so emergency personnel can get into the place at a moment's notice, and has bought a new microwave and insisted on having me take the old one into my room so I no longer have to use the kitchen. It's starting to feel like a dinner theater production of Misery.

 

[KeithD]

My roommate has completely lost her shit. She's posted reminders to wash our hands on every available surface in the common areas, is insisting on not locking the doors so emergency personnel can get into the place at a moment's notice, and has bought a new microwave and insisted on having me take the old one into my room so I no longer have to use the kitchen. It's starting to feel like a dinner theater production of Misery.

I can see where it can get dicey when you're living with someone other than a spouse, with both of you retired and pretty strictly sheltering.

A friend of mine was put in a real dilemma today. Her husband is a hospital doctor who has been living in their basement apartment for two months now to protect her. And today the nursing home her mother is in found three residents and two staff with the virus. She can't leave her mother there and she can't bring her home because a doctor working daily with covid patients in a major hospital is still too close in the basement to be bringing ninety-year-old momma into the house. I'm grateful I don't have that sort of dilemma. (But I wish the mayor of Las Vegas, the governors of Georgia and Nebraska, and the Lieutenant governor of Texas did have that sort of dilemma to face).

 

[Jada59]

I'm not doing well. I think we got put on lockdown earlier than other US places. I'm in WA. Our Governor is saying we will probably remain in lockdown for quite some time more.

The problem? He has deemed drug reps to be non-essential employees. They are the ones who bring the insulin samples to my Dr. He in turn gives some to me. Otherwise I can't afford it. Believe me we have exhausted all options and yes I have insurance. That is my only real concern. He (Inslee)said he will give a speech tomorrow and some things may open up again. I can maybe make it a week with no insulin. I'm type 2 so I won't die quickly without it. Rather, my death will be long, drawn out and painful. Don't want that.

Normally I'm very happy and easy going. No more. My gardener and I are snapping at each other for stupid things.

Neighbors are going crazy. I've hd laundry soap and TP stolen from my garage. Got a call from the Sheriff to be on the lookout for an elderly man running through yards in this area. The police scanner turned up two more men running loose at 2 am. People are walking or standing in the street. Gathering in my driveway. Screaming and chanting. Lighting fireworks. Speeding down the street. Breaking the laws because they know they won't be arrested!

I was finally able to shop again. Still no stimulus money for me. Food is costing me sooo much more! I am unable to buy most of what I usually do and am having to buy frozen/[prepared foods. I normally cook from scratch, but meat isn't plentiful now.

We've been living on crackers and cereal and mainly mail order foods. The Cap'N came today. 10 boxes. All different looking than before. He tasted it first. He said the taste was the same but the texture is different. We both looked sad. Isn't that silly? We both just wanted some sort of sameness. Some sign of stability. And now our favorite cereal has changed.

I hate wearing the mask. I can't wear it with my glasses or they fog up. So I go without and can't see things in the distance. Not good.

I am either sleeping too much or not enough. Not eating enough. No appetite. My clothes are getting loose. My panties fell off earlier. My sweatpants caught them but... Each side slithered down more and more until my knees got caught up with each step. They're nopt granny panties either. Just slippery. And then? My sweatpants fell all the way down. Luckily I was in my driveway. Don't think anyone saw me.

I am exercising too much, My arms hurt. I want to sleep again, but I need to finish my dinner of an apple and peanut butter.

I've been crying some and can't stop. I'm not a crier.

I feel like I may never see my friends and family again. One friend just lost his leg due to blood clots from this virus. I won't name drop but yes, him. The Broadway guy.

This is no way to live. It's not living. It's just sad.

 

[Not Normal]

Jada

--

I'm alright. We're walking a decent amount and that is good. I have a little work and a little money. Bluey is working from home. We have each other, but we're trying not to stress each other out.

I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. I KNOW this shit is gonna get worse. Dumbass in GA is pulling such bullshit I want to spit and I don't even live in a state that borders GA.

 

[FL30]

I normally work with the public so I always self-isolated on my days off already, so no changes for me except a loss of income due to not having to work so much.

If I had groceries at home to eat and I didn't need to go out, then I didn't. Same as now.

I only go out if I really need to.

 

[PokieMon]

My goes out to you Jada, it sounds like you're having a really tough time of it. Is there any way you can have your insulin refilled in another state? Or maybe your doctor has a friend doctor someplace else with some samples they can give you.

On the other hand, panties falling off? That sounds more like a silver lining than a bad thing.


As for me, I definitely have it better than a lot of people. Hours, so income, has been cut in half, which is better than being cut to zero, but still painful. However, I'm completely losing all sense of time -- every day is the same routine, get up, putter on the computer for a while for work or personal, go do some yard work for the exercise (& because the yard looks like crap), then fall asleep on the couch trying to watch something to relax. Rinse, repeat, repeat, repeat...

Getting so bad I'm considering breaking the "rules" and dragging a friend to the coast to take some sunset pictures.. if only it weren't overcast.

 

[SpeareChucker]

Pretty much the same, but then again, I've tended more towards being a hermit as I get older. I have a great parcel of land and woods and plenty of outdoor flower beds and garden to keep me busy. I am watching more old movies, but that is weather more than edict.

In order to avoid inconvenience, I have been shopping on line, but that nonsense should be coming to a end very soon. I don't like getting groceries in this manner; produce must be chosen in person.

 

[coati]

i'm eating a lot more and napping a lot more. i get anxious in the afternoons and take another nap. i'm wanting to drink more, too. depression comes and goes, never too long lasting. an ugly sense of foreboding that i can't seem to shake.

have you noticed any changes and how do you cope?

The sense of foreboding is the big one for me.

We have a mentally ill President who is totally unprepared to deal with this degree of crisis. He is raising unrealistic expectations about returning to normal "sooner rather than later". He is setting the stage for enormous disappointment and despair-- I know that feeds my sense of foreboding.

I cope by working. Demand for food and home repairs is increasing, so my farming and construction skills are put to work every day. My clients are very grateful for quality work, and they honor my requirements for social distancing. My hands are chapped from constant washing, and my face has marks from the masks I wear every time I leave home, but I have avoided the nap syndrome during the day and sleep about seven hours at night. The summer seedlings in the field are doing pretty well, and the winter vegetables are still producing. The local food bank appreciates everything I bring them.

I know I have it so much better than most people right now. I hope that those who are in despair will be able to take a deep breath, step back from the despair, and determine what they can do to make things better for themselves and others. Even little steps toward making things better will help.

 

[TooShyGirl]

I'm just wanting a bit of alone time..
Small apartment, plus daughter and hubby around.
He would be at work, but he's been having a throat issue and since he works in a hospital, they won't let him back until it's gone. It's frustrating...

 

[enigma3]

I'm just wanting a bit of alone time..
Small apartment, plus daughter and hubby around.
He would be at work, but he's been having a throat issue and since he works in a hospital, they won't let him back until it's gone. It's frustrating...

I understand.......i like my space too. here's a rose for you

 

[shewantsmore]

Im suffering alot,not able to go out apart form shopping ,exercise once a day..worried,frustrated, bored,angry,no space for myself,trying not to explode

 

[enigma3]

Im suffering alot,not able to go out apart form shopping ,exercise once a day..worried,frustrated, bored,angry,no space for myself,trying not to explode

Here's a rose for you too . but i think you'll wantmore

 

[Maeven_quinn]

About the only other person I'm spending regular time with is my primary, and we're both sad and frustrated.

I've been getting a lot of home fitness in. I can work from home, which is fine, but I"m getting less and less motivated to do so.

Reading and writing porn is keeping my mind off things.

 

[Stewart_Pidd]

Jada

--

I'm alright. We're walking a decent amount and that is good. I have a little work and a little money. Bluey is working from home. We have each other, but we're trying not to stress each other out.

I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. I KNOW this shit is gonna get worse. Dumbass in GA is pulling such bullshit I want to spit and I don't even live in a state that borders GA.

Sounds about like me. Just trying to keep things cool, stay as active as possible, and keep stressors to a minimum.

Back in December, without really thinking about a pandemic, I bought two additional freezers and two generators. I had never been a survivalist type, but I put together a survival plan anyways. I put together a decent kit and stash, and it seems that it was done just in time.

I do feel bad that others didn't have the foresight (not that I was running on foresight), money, or time to do the same. I'm keeping an eye on some elderly neighbors through this, and like you, I think this is going to get worse.

The governor here is a Trumpbot and has an admin that's beyond stupid. These southern governors will put anyone in harms way besides themselves bro.

Stew

 

[LLCox]

Sounds about like me. Just trying to keep things cool, stay as active as possible, and keep stressors to a minimum.

Back in December, without really thinking about a pandemic, I bought two additional freezers and two generators. I had never been a survivalist type, but I put together a survival plan anyways. I put together a decent kit and stash, and it seems that it was done just in time.

I do feel bad that others didn't have the foresight (not that I was running on foresight), money, or time to do the same. I'm keeping an eye on some elderly neighbors through this, and like you, I think this is going to get worse.

The governor here is a Trumpbot and has an admin that's beyond stupid. These southern governors will put anyone in harms way besides themselves bro.

Stew

I have been prepping since 2011. I like to be able to take care of myself. You are right about the trumpbot Governors... this FUBAR is not near done with.

 

[hobbit.]

finely balanced.

 

[Ziggins]

Boredom, LMFAO, horniness.

 

[Hugh_Essay]

I'm not doing well. I think we got put on lockdown earlier than other US places. I'm in WA. Our Governor is saying we will probably remain in lockdown for quite some time more.

The problem? He has deemed drug reps to be non-essential employees. They are the ones who bring the insulin samples to my Dr. He in turn gives some to me. Otherwise I can't afford it. Believe me we have exhausted all options and yes I have insurance. That is my only real concern. He (Inslee)said he will give a speech tomorrow and some things may open up again. I can maybe make it a week with no insulin. I'm type 2 so I won't die quickly without it. Rather, my death will be long, drawn out and painful. Don't want that.

Normally I'm very happy and easy going. No more. My gardener and I are snapping at each other for stupid things.

Neighbors are going crazy. I've hd laundry soap and TP stolen from my garage. Got a call from the Sheriff to be on the lookout for an elderly man running through yards in this area. The police scanner turned up two more men running loose at 2 am. People are walking or standing in the street. Gathering in my driveway. Screaming and chanting. Lighting fireworks. Speeding down the street. Breaking the laws because they know they won't be arrested!

I was finally able to shop again. Still no stimulus money for me. Food is costing me sooo much more! I am unable to buy most of what I usually do and am having to buy frozen/[prepared foods. I normally cook from scratch, but meat isn't plentiful now.

We've been living on crackers and cereal and mainly mail order foods. The Cap'N came today. 10 boxes. All different looking than before. He tasted it first. He said the taste was the same but the texture is different. We both looked sad. Isn't that silly? We both just wanted some sort of sameness. Some sign of stability. And now our favorite cereal has changed.

I hate wearing the mask. I can't wear it with my glasses or they fog up. So I go without and can't see things in the distance. Not good.

I am either sleeping too much or not enough. Not eating enough. No appetite. My clothes are getting loose. My panties fell off earlier. My sweatpants caught them but... Each side slithered down more and more until my knees got caught up with each step. They're nopt granny panties either. Just slippery. And then? My sweatpants fell all the way down. Luckily I was in my driveway. Don't think anyone saw me.

I am exercising too much, My arms hurt. I want to sleep again, but I need to finish my dinner of an apple and peanut butter.

I've been crying some and can't stop. I'm not a crier.

I feel like I may never see my friends and family again. One friend just lost his leg due to blood clots from this virus. I won't name drop but yes, him. The Broadway guy.

This is no way to live. It's not living. It's just sad.

Greatest healthcare system in the world, eh?

Sorry

 

[chillywilly2]

I'm fine, not much different here
still going to office
just no pub after work so over to buddies garage
never did go into stores much and that would only be like Home Depot and now I go online and order and sit in my truck and wait till they bring it out to me

I do feel for those that are stuck inside though...must be horrible

 

[Hugh_Essay]

Pretty much the same, but then again, I've tended more towards being a hermit as I get older. I have a great parcel of land and woods and plenty of outdoor flower beds and garden to keep me busy. I am watching more old movies, but that is weather more than edict.

In order to avoid inconvenience, I have been shopping on line, but that nonsense should be coming to a end very soon. I don't like getting groceries in this manner; produce must be chosen in person.

Why arent you going to grocery stores for produce? You're an advocate for returning to life as normal yet you refuse to do so yourself? Lead by example, dont be a trumpette.

 

[FataMorgana]

No different to non-lockdown.

 

[Bas_van_Fraassen]

No different to non-lockdown.

Pretty much this. Except for some minor changes to scheduling events like attending theater, life and quality of life are much the same. I work from home. And most people I see are self-quarantining from public locations, so we're collectively a safer group, and still see each other. Even grocery store madness has quieted.