Whatcha waiting for?

[ABSTRUSE]

I ask myself this daily.

When do I pull myself up by my bootstraps and start my life?

I was recently thinking about our good friend and fellow AHer Carl East. The newbies may not know Carl. Carl is one of the sweetest gents around and brave enough to share with us here his life.
Mr. East hit a low point in his life, he was homeless and living in a tent. He endured terrible conditions, snow etc as well as being robbed. He dealt with his marriage falling apart as well as battling depression. The worst had to be spending Christmas during all of this trauma.
I'm thrilled to say that Carl's life has turned around. He is happily married now and living in the states. It's a joy to see him so happy and loved.

I didn't post this to embarrass Carl, in fact I now look to him as an inspiration. How many of us would have given up? How many of us have endured personal loss and abandoned hope?

We've offered up hopes and prayers to fellow AHers that have lost bits and pieces of their lives. We've supported our friends here that are enduring illness and loss. We see what Neonlyte and Fairysong are going through.

I think about my own personal strengths and weakness and wonder if I could endure what some others have gone through. Sophia lost her home and now strives to make a better life for her family. Colly, poor girl, seems to have a perpetual black cloud hanging over her. Many of us suffer from depression and worse. Many have financial difficulties or bad relationships.

I'm not mentioning these things to be a downer but to remind myself that I have it better than others in some ways. So I'm going to try to look to others as inspiration and as a guiding force to let me know that when things look their darkest someone else has had it darker and survived.

The new year is approaching and I'm going to hope...no...strive for the best that I can possibly do and start to live again. 2006 will be the Year of Me. It will be my resolution to be the best person I can be, not just a good mom or a good friend but a good person in general. To pull out what lies deep inside and share the best bits with the world.

If I get pissy feel free to throw this up in my face.

Feel free to post your resolutions here or thoughts or just tell me to shut the hell up and threadjack away.

Abs.

 

[hugo_sam]

I ask myself this daily.

When do I pull myself up by my bootstraps and start my life?

I was recently thinking about our good friend and fellow AHer Carl East. The newbies may not know Carl. Carl is one of the sweetest gents around and brave enough to share with us here his life.
Mr. East hit a low point in his life, he was homeless and living in a tent. He endured terrible conditions, snow etc as well as being robbed. He dealt with his marriage falling apart as well as battling depression. The worst had to be spending Christmas during all of this trauma.
I'm thrilled to say that Carl's life has turned around. He is happily married now and living in the states. It's a joy to see him so happy and loved.

I didn't post this to embarrass Carl, in fact I now look to him as an inspiration. How many of us would have given up? How many of us have endured personal loss and abandoned hope?

We've offered up hopes and prayers to fellow AHers that have lost bits and pieces of their lives. We've supported our friends here that are enduring illness and loss. We see what Neonlyte and Fairysong are going through.

I think about my own personal strengths and weakness and wonder if I could endure what some others have gone through. Sophia lost her home and now strives to make a better life for her family. Colly, poor girl, seems to have a perpetual black cloud hanging over her. Many of us suffer from depression and worse. Many have financial difficulties or bad relationships.

I'm not mentioning these things to be a downer but to remind myself that I have it better than others in some ways. So I'm going to try to look to others as inspiration and as a guiding force to let me know that when things look their darkest someone else has had it darker and survived.

The new year is approaching and I'm going to hope...no...strive for the best that I can possibly do and start to live again. 2006 will be the Year of Me. It will be my resolution to be the best person I can be, not just a good mom or a good friend but a good person in general. To pull out what lies deep inside and share the best bits with the world.

If I get pissy feel free to throw this up in my face.

Feel free to post your resolutions here or thoughts or just tell me to shut the hell up and threadjack away.

Abs.

THIS ^^ is why you are so loved here!
Regardless of whatever persona you employ, the true beauty that is you comes through. *Grizzly Bear Hugs*

 

[rgraham666]

Abs.

I'll have to think about my own resolution. Don't like to make them. It seems to me that making decisions paints a great big bullseye on me that the Fates then unload on.

 

[ABSTRUSE]

Abs.

I'll have to think about my own resolution. Don't like to make them. It seems to me that making decisions paints a great big bullseye on me that the Fates then unload on.

Just shake your fists at the fates! Let's brave the storms together, shall we?

 

[ABSTRUSE]

THIS ^^ is why you are so loved here!
Regardless of whatever persona you employ, the true beauty that is you comes through. *Grizzly Bear Hugs*

I thought it was my snappy one liners?

 

[sophia jane]

I adore you. And like many others, I'll be behind you, gently nudging you to remember what you've just said.
But I know you what it takes to kick life in the ass and get what you want. So get to it. (now go buy the fucking Christmas lights!)



My resolutions:
I'm starting small. I'm about to be more or less on my own most of the time. So when I have the opportunities, I'm going to get out of the house and do things. I'm going to find a way to make a life for myself in my new town. Even if it kills me.

 

[Lady_Kit]

Whatcha waiting for?

Waiting for the energy to tackle my inner demons while engaged in mortal combat with the external ones.

 

[ABSTRUSE]

I adore you. And like many others, I'll be behind you, gently nudging you to remember what you've just said.
But I know you what it takes to kick life in the ass and get what you want. So get to it. (now go buy the fucking Christmas lights!)



My resolutions:
I'm starting small. I'm about to be more or less on my own most of the time. So when I have the opportunities, I'm going to get out of the house and do things. I'm going to find a way to make a life for myself in my new town. Even if it kills me.

I guess I better go buy those fucking lights now. Oooooo the new Sophie is so bold and daring...turns me on.

 

[Belegon]

Even though I tend to be a boring whiney bastard about things in my own life sometimes...

I have it pretty good. anything I can do to share that I will. I mean, my major crisis over the last two years has been something that many people would consider a good problem to have when faced with none of what I apparently have too much of.

I'm financially stable. I have awesome kids. I am succeeding at my hobby and I have made a whole gang of new friends at a time in life when I see many other people shrinking their circle of friends instead of expanding it.

Sure I'd like to solve all my problems with a *snap*...but it just don't work that way

 

[ABSTRUSE]

Waiting for the energy to tackle my inner demons while engaged in mortal combat with the external ones.

It occured to me one day, whilst in the midst of a mental whirlwind, that my inner demons are a manifestation of me being a whiney little bitch and allowing myself to believe I didn't create those suppossed demons. It's easier to blame them, then blame myself.

 

[sophia jane]

I guess I better go buy those fucking lights now. Oooooo the new Sophie is so bold and daring...turns me on.

Probably shouldn't get too used to it. I'm sure she won't last.

 

[ABSTRUSE]

Probably shouldn't get too used to it. I'm sure she won't last.

That's okay, I probably won't be human for much longer either.

 

[sophia jane]

That's okay, I probably won't be human for much longer either.

Lucky for you, we all like your bitchy non-human side, too.

 

[ABSTRUSE]

Lucky for you, we all like your bitchy non-human side, too.

It's an acquired taste.

 

[rgraham666]

Just shake your fists at the fates! Let's brave the storms together, shall we?

I'm in.

For a resolution, I want to advance my career as a writer. See if I can get stuff published on paper, maybe have a cheque however small, come in on a monthly basis.

And I'll work on gaining the strength to handle the dense idiots that make up the bulk of my species.

 

[sophia jane]

It's an acquired taste.

Yeah. It took me a bit to get over my fear of you before I could truly adore you.

 

[ABSTRUSE]

Yeah. It took me a bit to get over my fear of you before I could truly adore you.

PMSL!!!!!

 

[sophia jane]

I'm in.

For a resolution, I want to advance my career as a writer. See if I can get stuff published on paper, maybe have a cheque however small, come in on a monthly basis.

And I'll work on gaining the strength to handle the dense idiots that make up the bulk of my species.

Those are excellent ones, Rob. You totally have the talent to be published (and paid).

 

[sophia jane]

PMSL!!!!!

It's funny except I'm really serious.

 

[ABSTRUSE]

It's funny except I'm really serious.

No way? really? I'm that scary........now that motivates me.

 

[sophia jane]

No way? really? I'm that scary........now that motivates me.

Lol.
I avoid confrontation like the plague, and when I first joined lit you always seemed a little...aggressive? assertive? And I didn't know you well enough to know that everyone here is friends and it's normal to call each other "bitch" etc. I think I'm used to this place now, tho.

 

[ABSTRUSE]

Lol.
I avoid confrontation like the plague, and when I first joined lit you always seemed a little...aggressive? assertive? And I didn't know you well enough to know that everyone here is friends and it's normal to call each other "bitch" etc. I think I'm used to this place now, tho.

Good to hear.....bitch.

 

[rgraham666]

Those are excellent ones, Rob. You totally have the talent to be published (and paid).

Thank you, sophia.

 

[ABSTRUSE]

I'm in.

For a resolution, I want to advance my career as a writer. See if I can get stuff published on paper, maybe have a cheque however small, come in on a monthly basis.

And I'll work on gaining the strength to handle the dense idiots that make up the bulk of my species.

Sorry, I stormed over this!!!

Ragemore!!!

 

[rgraham666]

Sorry, I stormed over this!!!

Ragemore!!!

I want calm, rather than anger, Abs.

I was a rageoholic. Loved my fury, sought out ways of triggering it, needed a fix daily.

Like all addictions it started to destroy me.

I'd rather the ability to face the morons, especially the ones with power with equanimity