What type of humiliations led to your SPH fetish?

[CurtGiles46]

For the guys who have SPH fetish, how many humiliations did you suffer before developing this fetish?

My first time happened in my early 20's, it caught me completely by surprise. I was standing at a urinal in a restaurant bathroom and there was an older black man using the urinal to the right of me. I noticed he was making weird faces and he seemed to be staring at my penis. He got finished urinating before I did, and as he was walking toward the exit door, he stopped and turned around back in my direction. He started laughing loudly and he taunted me by chanting, "He got a little dick! He got a little dick!"

When I realized he was mocking my small penis size, my face turned red with embarrassment, but I didn't dare utter a word. In the heat of the moment, I was afraid he might hurt me if I said anything mean back to him or defended myself. I think that aspect was one of the triggers that eventually resulted in my SPH, that I hadn't defended myself to him, I just stayed silent and he got the feeling of a full ego victory over me.

For the next few months, I kept remembering that event and pondering if I was really small. I did some research and read that the average US male has a flaccid size of 3.6 inches. I found a cloth tape measure and measured my penis. I was shocked by how small I was when flaccid, just 2 inches. I was already naturally a very shy person so finding out I had a small penis made me feel even more submissive.

I soon stumbled into the online world of SPH and forced feminization. It began to make sense to me that small dicks like mine belonged in panties.

 

[jp8155]

For the guys who have SPH fetish, how many humiliations did you suffer before developing this fetish?

My first time happened in my early 20's, it caught me completely by surprise. I was standing at a urinal in a restaurant bathroom and there was an older black man using the urinal to the right of me. I noticed he was making weird faces and he seemed to be staring at my penis. He got finished urinating before I did, and as he was walking toward the exit door, he stopped and turned around back in my direction. He started laughing loudly and he taunted me by chanting, "He got a little dick! He got a little dick!"

When I realized he was mocking my small penis size, my face turned red with embarrassment, but I didn't dare utter a word. In the heat of the moment, I was afraid he might hurt me if I said anything mean back to him or defended myself. I think that aspect was one of the triggers that eventually resulted in my SPH, that I hadn't defended myself to him, I just stayed silent and he got the feeling of a full ego victory over me.

For the next few months, I kept remembering that event and pondering if I was really small. I did some research and read that the average US male has a flaccid size of 3.6 inches. I found a cloth tape measure and measured my penis. I was shocked by how small I was when flaccid, just 2 inches. I was already naturally a very shy person so finding out I had a small penis made me feel even more submissive.

I soon stumbled into the online world of SPH and forced feminization. It began to make sense to me that small dicks like mine belonged in panties.

And in my hungry mouth.

 

[Mason9653]

Im not small, average I would say but my wife tends to flirt with hung guys so when the clothes come off I'm the smaller of the two.

Im ok with that i tend to cum faster than the guys she brings home too. I'm quick to clean her up, that gets some of the guys cutie to stick around.

 

[MorlockIam]

It was in school in the change rooms, I never thought of dick size but some of the other boys saw and made fun of me. Word got out and the girls would smile in that "understanding" kind of way. I enjoy being humiliated now as it's a rush although I have also been told I am average. In many ways SPH kind of made me more accepting of my size.

After these change room incidents during swimming classes where I learned from the boys that my flaccid penis was small.

I was in the pool and we were lined up in two rows boys facing girls. We had to do some task that involved jumping up and then sinking into the water to crouch and touch the bottom.

As I did this my bathers came off as I sank into the water. Luckily as we had to touch the floor I could pull them back up quickly. The girl opposite saw this and smiled with a blush. I am not sure how clear it would have been under water with the splashes but she knew what happened.

The girls already heard the gossip from the boys anyway. My fantasy even at the time was that one or two of them would just approach me and ask for a look. I waa already forming a CFNM/SPH fetish.

 

[Richelieujuniour]

Jesus, I think I’d rather die… It is happened to me to not have the biggest cock come out in the clothes, come off, but only once or twice… In the end, I think having a big cock is a double edge, sword, and it’s not that be all and end all of sex, of course, but boy, you little dick guys think so that’s fine with me, I love having a woman all the fun and none of that responsibility

 

[bjlatx]

For me it was showering with a few friends on a camping trip. One of the guys was really hung. He was dating the girl that ended up being my wife. I know she had to have thought of him often. She’d also get really hot when I would tell her about fucking some guy with a big dick again. Now she’s a 100% hotwife and she tells me dirty things about my dick while I masturbate. It’s great.

 

[betabrad]

Many years ago when I was with this woman named Carmen, we were making out, taking off our clothes, when she first saw my hard penis I heard her stifle a giggle. She said , ohh my, you have such a cute little dicklette, put on my panties, I wanna see how it looks in panties. I put them on for her , and she said - now get on your knees and lick me. I licked her to orgasm and then I told her i wanted to fuck her but she told me that I was too small for her. She said - please baby , I would love it if you stayed on your knees and jacked off for me. If you last for more than a minute you can fuck me. Unfortunately I couldn’t hold back and I came in a few seconds. I caught my cum in my hand and she told me to lick it all up for her, and I did. I know she must have picked up on my submissive nature that she knew I would do what she told me.

 

[OldGoodPup]

My Miss likes to have me show off my limp noodle to her friends and lovers. It's average but definitely a grower not a show-er. So she keeps me limp (usually with a small, gentle clamp on one testicle) and then makes me parade in front of them.

Of course, she's not limited in her choice of partners and I know my place is to serve as her tongue. I suck her lovers to their full hardness, kiss their tips before I place it at her entrance and then lick them both to enhance their pleasure. All while my limp noodle dangles. Of course, I'm on cleanup duty after. On rare occasions, when I've done a good job, she'll ruin a little mess from into my special teaspoon and then giggle as my small noodle twitches ans I swallow for her.

 

[cubbyfire04]

After I broke up with the girl I lost my virginity to. She made sure to tell me that her new boyfriend's cock was WAY bigger than mine. Then it happened again with a different girl I was in love with years later. I think that was the one that made it stick. In hindsight, they both were just being spiteful and petty... I mean I ended up marrying the first one 25 years later lol. Even still, that feeling of thinking someone else was capable of something I wasn't became a huge turn-on.

Might also help explain why I'm a submissive bottom when I'm with men and get unbelievably turned on when a larger man teases my small cock with his bigger one .

 

[MTC3_9]

I am rather small, 2 inches flaccid and 3.9-4.4 inches hard (NBP-BP). I first noted the size difference in middle school gym class when all the guys showered. I was a late bloomer for both size and pubic hair. Of course, as a teenager and young adult, internet porn solidified my self-opinion as a little guy. In my 40’s, though, I visited a nude beach where I was probably the smallest guy, and it truly sunk in when I was dwarfed by a group of young college or HS boys who were all larger soft than I was hard. They smirked as I walked by. My SPH actually began after I was in the hospital for a minor operation, and after discharge, one of the nurses who I knew socially said she saw me nude, and she smiled. A bit later, I was walking in an indoor mall, and a group of other nurses I knew looked at me in jeans, and said they could tell by looking at my “bulge” that I was small. I protested but they insisted and walked on. From that point on, I found that any references to my being small actually wa a huge turn on giving me a truly hard erection. Now, I find myself comparing to other guys and find myself aroused by other cocks, especially long thick ones, although I have no emotional feelings toward men at all, and love women, considering myself straight.

 

[sizedsmall]

I have a memory of being diapered by either a caretaker or my grandmother when I was 12 and being totally embarrassed and humiliated. I was a late bedwetter. That started my fetish for SPH.

 

[MTC3_9]

Interesting. How small are you soft and hard as an adult?

 

[Rickstrasser]

For me it was showering with a few friends on a camping trip. One of the guys was really hung. He was dating the girl that ended up being my wife. I know she had to have thought of him often. She’d also get really hot when I would tell her about fucking some guy with a big dick again. Now she’s a 100% hotwife and she tells me dirty things about my dick while I masturbate. It’s great.

Nice!

 

[WonderPonder]

I've seen this thread a few times but didn't really have an answer. In my younger days I was deathly afraid of being seen, so definitely not getting aroused by it at all.
Mine started in fantasizing about cuckolding. Outside of those fantasies in real life no arousal. I'd exaggerate my size by saying I was bigger than I am on here. A bit of shame and embarrassment but that has since changed.

Now that we've been in the cuckold lifestyle since new years I own my small size. I love the humiliation now even if it's pretty much limited to my handjob that my wife gives me. We enjoy hot talking during it and talking about a certain aspect of cuckolding or me asking her questions with the answers being humiliating towards me. The things that my wife says is extremely arousing.

 

[MeganFachs]

I've seen this thread a few times but didn't really have an answer. In my younger days I was deathly afraid of being seen, so definitely not getting aroused by it at all.
Mine started in fantasizing about cuckolding. Outside of those fantasies in real life no arousal. I'd exaggerate my size by saying I was bigger than I am on here. A bit of shame and embarrassment but that has since changed.

Now that we've been in the cuckold lifestyle since new years I own my small size. I love the humiliation now even if it's pretty much limited to my handjob that my wife gives me. We enjoy hot talking during it and talking about a certain aspect of cuckolding or me asking her questions with the answers being humiliating towards me. The things that my wife says is extremely arousing.

Like what kind of things? I’m always looking for better material to use with my cuck hubby.

 

[WonderPonder]

Like what kind of things? I’m always looking for better material to use with my cuck hubby

She'll call me her little hubby nubby outside the bedroom but mostly it's when she unlocks me and gives me a handjob. We've been using a cage since Feb 6th.
Comments like, I can't believe how small you are, Joe is so much bigger than you, he never falls out like you, you've never given me an orgasm with your little penis, It's to small to be called a cock, you cum once and he cums several times, you'll always come in second to Joe, my pussy and body belong to Joe, you don't get to fuck me as long as I'm seeing Joe and more along those lines.

We'll also role play scenarios. Lately we've been talking about her wedding dress. Last July she started exercising and losing weight. Her goal was to be able to fit into her wedding dress and be the same weight as on our wedding day 30 years ago. That weight is 135lbs.which she's 4lbs away from. A few weeks ago I said it would be hot if Joe had sex with her in her wedding dress. I love the idea, she loves the idea and Joe loves the idea so it's going to happen. During our play she'll say that after that happens she'll have 2 husbands.
We do this 3 times a week and honestly it's better than actual sex. So intense for 30 to 40 minutes. She uses lots of lube and backs off if I get close which I do several times before I actually do.
It's both arousing and humiliating when you know your wife is having the best sex of her life and it's with someone else who's bigger and better.

 

[nutoseen]

For the guys who have SPH fetish, how many humiliations did you suffer before developing this fetish?

My first time happened in my early 20's, it caught me completely by surprise. I was standing at a urinal in a restaurant bathroom and there was an older black man using the urinal to the right of me. I noticed he was making weird faces and he seemed to be staring at my penis. He got finished urinating before I did, and as he was walking toward the exit door, he stopped and turned around back in my direction. He started laughing loudly and he taunted me by chanting, "He got a little dick! He got a little dick!"

When I realized he was mocking my small penis size, my face turned red with embarrassment, but I didn't dare utter a word. In the heat of the moment, I was afraid he might hurt me if I said anything mean back to him or defended myself. I think that aspect was one of the triggers that eventually resulted in my SPH, that I hadn't defended myself to him, I just stayed silent and he got the feeling of a full ego victory over me.

For the next few months, I kept remembering that event and pondering if I was really small. I did some research and read that the average US male has a flaccid size of 3.6 inches. I found a cloth tape measure and measured my penis. I was shocked by how small I was when flaccid, just 2 inches. I was already naturally a very shy person so finding out I had a small penis made me feel even more submissive.

I soon stumbled into the online world of SPH and forced feminization. It began to make sense to me that small dicks like mine belonged in panties.

one of them was waking up naked outside of sleeping bag (imagine camping in cold weather) with a women i had just slept with dressed and holding my tinier than normal tiny dick with shrinkage due to extreme cold. ... it was extra small. i loved it and smiled and spread my legs open to be more exposed. her telling me as she held it, that i have smallest dick that that ever made her cum. i got hard.
she jerked it and while jerking me to full hardness she said things like, you like me jerking this little guy don't you; and me answering with yes, and moans, and thank you, and then by cumming on her hand and my belly.

 

[jlightfoot75]

You know, I don't have a small penis but I would actually like to play out a scene where a woman laughs at me for having a small penis. I have been craving a little humiliation lately.

 

[white65]

I'm 6.5 long by 6 around, so not really small. But she was with a black guy many years ago who was maybe 9 inches and thick. When we're fucking she tells me how much bigger and better he was.

While we're actually on the job it arouses me like crazy. But after I feel jealous and humiliated.

 

[policywank]

I have been surprised at how many guys want me to indulge SPH with them. It seems like it is quite a cross section of guys that:

• genuinely do have a little dick
• feel sexually inadequate in some way
• like the idea of being feminized/sissified
• think of it as a sort of psychological BDSM.

Sometimes it is the result of something that has been brought to their attention in a way that makes it undeniable, but other times it is just a man indulging some deep seated feelings. In any case, it does seem to be a means to come to grips with that aspect of themselves.

I can't necessarily relate to it, but there is a certain honesty to it compared to living in denial.

 

[whenagain]

I have been surprised at how many guys want me to indulge SPH with them. It seems like it is quite a cross section of guys that:

• genuinely do have a little dick
• feel sexually inadequate in some way
• like the idea of being feminized/sissified
• think of it as a sort of psychological BDSM.

Sometimes it is the result of something that has been brought to their attention in a way that makes it undeniable, but other times it is just a man indulging some deep seated feelings. In any case, it does seem to be a means to come to grips with that aspect of themselves.

I can't necessarily relate to it, but there is a certain honesty to it compared to living in denial.

Are there certain cases where it’s more appealing to you as the provider/truth teller?

 

[policywank]

Are there certain cases where it’s more appealing to you as the provider/truth teller?

Not really. I don't have any desire to tear anyone down. To me it is a bit like spanking a bottom in a BDSM scenario. I am doing it more for them than for me. What is most important is to ensure they are in a decent headspace and don't try to top from the bottom.

 

[whenagain]

Not really. I don't have any desire to tear anyone down. To me it is a bit like spanking a bottom in a BDSM scenario. I am doing it more for them than for me. What is most important is to ensure they are in a decent headspace and don't try to top from the bottom.

Interesting. . . I’ve definitely encountered those who were like “finally! I get to be mean!”. . . Which can be hot in the moment but doesn’t always translate to healthy boundaries.

 

[policywank]

Interesting. . . I’ve definitely encountered those who were like “finally! I get to be mean!”. . . Which can be hot in the moment but doesn’t always translate to healthy boundaries.

Well I think that when playing a dominant or top role there is some element of that. You don't want to get too deep into that mindset, but it helps your partner enjoy the experience if they know that you are enjoying it too. It is a matter of allowing myself that indulgence without losing sight of the well being of the man I am compelling to submit. I don't want to be a bitch or destructive, but sadistic is a bit of a different thing.

 

[whenagain]

Well I think that when playing a dominant or top role there is some element of that. You don't want to get too deep into that mindset, but it helps your partner enjoy the experience if they know that you are enjoying it too. It is a matter of allowing myself that indulgence without losing sight of the well being of the man I am compelling to submit. I don't want to be a bitch or destructive, but sadistic is a bit of a different thing.

Oh for sure. As the recipient of this play I want my partner to enjoy themselves as well, so a bit of sadism works wonders.

What I think some people don’t realize (but you clearly do) is that like most fetishes, there’s a lot of ways to do it. And one size (see what I did thee) doesn’t fit all.