What Goes Around, Comes Around, NOT

[Boinky_Oinky]

It seems like I do so much for every person in my life, and I am always there for them and helping them whenever they are in need. I go out of my way to be there for them and help them. I always put them before me.

Why is it that, when it's my turn to be in need of friendship or anything else like that, everyone, and I do mean everyone, in my life suddenly disappears or becomes unavailable?

I'm not kidding. Even my hoards of "online" friends and even just aquaintances are no where to be found tonight. This board is the ONLY place I have to turn, and I am just grateful there's something.

Even the one person in my life whom I thought I could believe in, even if just a little bit, disappointed me tonight.

It feels so lonely, almost unreal.

I just don't get it. I feel so.. used, albeit unintentionally used. I feel detached. Do I even exist?

Does anyone else seem to experience these kind of moments?

I think I'm searching for a sign of life, here... a sign that this existence I'm in is, indeed, real.

-Oinky

 

[mig]

Nobody loves me,everbody hates me,I think I'll go and eat worms.

Know the feeling.

 

[cybergirly]

That happens to me all the time.

A while back I had just broken up with someone, and after listening to a girlfriend go on and on about how bad her life was, I finally snapped and said something along the lines of, "Why in the hell do you think you're the only one with fucking problems. I've been trying to talk to you for days, and you don't care enough to listen."

Her response was: "What kind of problems could you have?"

grrrr... Sometimes I think cats really are the more intelligent animal.

 

[Boinky_Oinky]

Actually, I need to make a correction here...

I don't have hoards of online friends. But there's always at least one or two, maybe even 3 or 4 online around this time.

And Mig, LOL but that's not quite what I am feeling. I know people love me and don't hate me... they just disappear when I need them. Probably not even intentionally, it just happens that way. That's my luck.

-Oinky

 

[Boinky_Oinky]

That happens to me all the time.

A while back I had just broken up with someone, and after listening to a girlfriend go on and on about how bad her life was, I finally snapped and said something along the lines of, "Why in the hell do you think you're the only one with fucking problems. I've been trying to talk to you for days, and you don't care enough to listen."

Her response was: "What kind of problems could you have?"

grrrr... Sometimes I think cats really are the more intelligent animal.

Glad I'm not the only one.

I've also had experiences like you had with your girlfriend, yet I never seem to learn from them as I continue to ask stupid people stupid questions, so therefore I am one of the Stupid.

(Grin)

-Oinky

 

[Lost Cause]

It's how you approach life...

If you do things for people because it pleases you, that is good. If you do things for return favors, no good. I really like me, and I don't need others to satisfy me, I do it quite well.
When someone says something insulting or hurtful to me, that's their problem not mine. I don't exist for their approval, or them for my approval.
There's so much to do in this short dance on Earth, I can't waste the space! You might try thinking of the big picture, what else would YOU want to be doing? School? Driving a truck? Writing a book?

Maybe all this garbage you're going through is pointing you towards a new horizon in your life.

 

[Autumn1]

Nobody loves me,everbody hates me,I think I'll go and eat worms.

Know the feeling.

Poor Mig,I'll still love you when you're old and grey.

How do you like your worms?.


Runs off before he come back.

 

[mig]

Typical.

Turn my back for 5 minutes and I get hijacked.

 

[Boinky_Oinky]

Thanks to all you who replied / are going to reply. I feel much better now. Especially with the thoughtful replies.

I guess I should make a point clear:

I do all the things for people because I love them and making other people happy is what makes me happy.

It just kinda hurts when I end up being the one in need sometimes and there's no one there to dry MY tears, that's all.

Thanks for getting me back in touch with reality, guys.

Mwah!

-Oinky

P.S., Here's a "thank-you" for ya:

***Flashes her 12 beautiful little boobies***

Oink oink!