Well, I'm single again.

[Renegade]

And, I just need a place to vent for now. First off, I have nothing bad to say about the girl who broke up with me. We've been having some trouble for awhile now, and we talked over things and agreed to break up if she wanted. So, she wanted to and it's over. I still love her... which is why I'm in tears over this. But, I promised that we'd stay friends, and I don't want to cut her out of my life, so that's what I'm going to do.

It's just... I wish this didn't hurt so much. And what makes this worse, is that it's basicly my fault that we ended up this way. In that case, maybe I do deserve to end up feeling like this? My own stupid jealousy just cost me the most important relationship I've ever been apart of, and I don't know if I can forgive myself for that. Ironic, my jealousy was caused by my fear of loosing her, and it turned out to be the thing that caused it in the first place.

I know the board doesn't like for people to use it to vent on personal problems, so I'll try to not make a habit of it. Just that it's 4:30 in the morning with nobody around me to talk to about this and I feel like crap. *sighs* I'll just stop now...

 

[cheekyminx]

Gives you a hug.

 

[Countess DeWinter]

{{{{{{Ren}}}}}
a cup of hot cocoa and a shoulder

 

[Renegade]

Cheekyminx and Countess DeWinter

Thanks, I needed that. There's still a chance of us getting back together, but I'm tired of looking on the bright side. So far, it's only lead to disapointments. I'm just hoping things work out for the best for both of us in the end.

 

[Ambrosious]

Renegade...

It's okay, you still have me.


Shhhh... don't tell everyone!

 

[Renegade]

Ambrosious

And I love you too man.

 

[Ambrosious]

Renegade

Tease...

 

[Cheyenne]

I know the board doesn't like for people to use it to vent on personal problems, so I'll try to not make a habit of it. Just that it's 4:30 in the morning with nobody around me to talk to about this and I feel like crap. *sighs* I'll just stop now...

Where did you get the idea that the board doesn't want to hear you vent? Vent away! That's what we're here for!

Hope the hurt doesn't last too long for you. Sounds like you learned something from the experience though.

 

[R Nitelight]

Ambrosious

It's okay, you still have me.


Shhhh... don't tell everyone!

The Fantasy Goddess and I can't leave you alone for five minutes, can we?

 

[Renegade]

Hope the hurt doesn't last too long for you. Sounds like you learned something from the experience though.

That's very true. I've learned a lot about negative things that I tend to do when in a serious relationship. In the last few days, I've been able to deal with them in a better way then I used to. I think if we were to get back together down the road, things could be better for us both this time around. But only time will tell on that.

 

[willfulbrat]

{{{Renegade}}} XOXOXO

 

[Ambrosious]

LMNOP

 

[Lil-Brandi]

HUGE HUGS!!!

I like to think my hugs always tend to fix things...but I know a broken heart is hard to mend! I'm sorry!

I think the BB is a perfect place to vent. You have the opportunity to talk to plenty of friends, some that are still strangers, and some that are not. The best way to cure a problem or heartache is to talk about it! So I say "vent", get it off your chest, and tonight you will probably sleep better than you have for a while.

I had my heart broken..just once. I'm sure I will again one day, as I am still just 18, but that "once" really hurt, I cried for months. By my choice I am still single, well somewhat. I date regularly but have not been able to get into a serious commitment with any one guy since that break up! BUT I have so much fun now, without the pressures of being tied down or possessed by someone.

I'm sure a day will come again, where I will fall head over heals in love with someone and so will you. Until then, enjoy living...there is a lot to enjoy!!

 

[SweetCherry]

*slipping in to give Ren a teddy bear to cudle and her favorite snuggle blanket before slipping out quietly*

 

[livin_simple]

Renegade, I can definitely relate with your experience. I'm a very different person than I used to be as a result of an experience similar to yours.

My only advice, take it for what its worth, don't be in a hurry to get back together. Be consistent toward her, time is actually a friend at this moment.

 

[Renegade]

Before I leave to go back to bed, I wanted to say thanks to everyone that's responded. I guess I'll just have to wait and see how things between us turn out from here on. Livin_Simple, makes a good point about time being a friend at this moment. One way or another, time will help to show us both the best way to deal with this. Maybe we'll get together again in time, maybe we will just stay friends. Only time will tell...

 

[*bratcat*]

 

[LittleRedDevil]

This may not help, and it's probably overused, but I'm going to try anyway.


It is better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all.


I didn't believe it for the longest time and then I fell in love and lost him. I still haven't figured out what happened between us. I just know I still miss him, still love him, still think about him, and as much as I don't want to I still cry over him.

Here's a hug if you need it. Or chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream.

LRD

 

[Renegade]

LittleRedDevil and *bratcat*

Thanks.

 

[LAVA GODDESSS]

Renegadddddeeee........

Look.

To cheer you up, I decided to put on a lil somethin for ya.

Look to the left of this post. YOUR left.

I even put on the tail. Just for effects. GRRRRRRR....yeah baby.

I decided that .......well.....I tried to find one nekkie...but.....I couldn't find one. So you get to see me in my infamous devil costume. The red lace teddy! lol

well close enough

And now that your single........Let's snuggle.
Just for fun


I'm sorry you are in pain, I would lend you my heart to take away the hurt, but my heart isn't physically capable at the moment.

You are one of my good friends here, Life is ruf. Friends stay by you.

MUAH!

I know you will be fine.


Licks and Wiggles
The temptress herself
Monique

 

[Siren]

Venting is fine ...only problem was with constant ventors or questionable scenarios..

 

[Ravenloft]

Ren, you and I should talk. I have kinda missed you. I am sorry bout the love life. I think I know all too well...
I hope to catch you some time.

Now, for the ladies that are into M/M love...

*Giving Ren a nice sloppy kiss.*

Tee hee!

 

[Angel]

Can I have a pic of that kiss? PLEASE?!

 

[Naked Hunny]

oh my gosh me too i want a pic! Hell i want to be a witness!

 

[*Eve*]

((((((Renegade)))))) Hang in there.