Weird/disturbing fantasy

[TypicalDeviant]

So, the other night while lying in bed, my mind wandered to sex and I began to fantasize. For some reason or another, I ended up focusing on a scenario that I'd not thought of before.

It was pretty, scratch that, very erotic, and I got pretty turned on. I started masturbating. About 10/15 minutes in to it, I realized "well, holy shit, this disturbing and entirely inappropriate" and stopped. I cooled down after a bit and fell asleep.

Then last night, the fantasy came to me again, this time I said to myself "okay, I'll think about it tonight, jack off to it, and be done with it".

I'm not going to share the details of the fantasy, so please don't ask. I'm just going to drop it from my "menu" of masturbation material so to speak. It was also not so disturbing as to make me want to seek therapy or anything.

I guess what I'm asking is, has this ever happened to you guys? Have you ever had a fantasy that crossed your own line of acceptable? How did you handle it?

Thanks

 

[OzoneRed]

I say that there's no such thing as a line of acceptance IN FANTASY.

 

[TypicalDeviant]

Well, I know what you mean. It's just that, while going at it that first night, it just struck me as bad and I lost my erection/motivation... So while keeping it a fantasy IS okay, I guess I'm just curious if anyone else has ever been in a situation like mine.

 

[coastal-boy]

there are many levels of fantasy and understanding that may be of issue here. If, for example, you find yourself fantasing about it in the supermarket or driving, then I would say that it is more than just mastubation material.

 

[katy21]

Sometimes i watch my older brother taking bath but he can't see me. Sometimes i imagine going there and softly hold his dick which i saw one day and it was really big if you follow me. I fantasize doing him a handjob and suck his cock a bit. I don't think that it is wrong.

 

[littlebabyclit]

I have fantasized about completely inappropriate people for me to fantasize about. But I don't beat myself up about it. I let the thoughts play out and they usually go away eventually or resurface only if I'm bored.

 

[silverwhisper]

TD: yep, i've been there, but i icked myself out enough that i couldn't finish. to be honest, i'm glad you got to that point. to me, that's a good sign.

ed

 

[TypicalDeviant]

I've had fantasies ranging from "girl next door" to "40 gallons of crisco, the Dallas Cowboy cheerleaders (half with straps-on), a Steven Speilberg directed film crew, and 3 chickens" but finally, after years of arousing myself with these thoughts and ideas and being fortunate enough to enact a few, I was kind of freaked out when I felt like I had crossed a line.

So, whew, so I'm NOT the only one. Good.

Thanks HT, you're the best.

 

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[Samantha_Carter]

I think it's typical for people to think of things they shouldn't. I've had a few fantasies that were a huge turn on then, but now they just make me sick.

The human mind is a very strange place.

 

[TypicalDeviant]

You are certainly not alone, Typical Deviant.

That said, I'm a little disappointed in the thread... I mean with a username like yours and a thread title like this, I was hoping for details. Kidding...

With a username like mine and a thread title like this, you can do better imagining the details than if I just told them to you.

 

[human_male]

Yes. I just went with it and felt all dirty afterward.

I like it like that.

 

[BertrandRussell]

I say that there's no such thing as a line of acceptance IN FANTASY.

QFT. Actions may be wrong or right, appropriate or inappropriate. Thoughts are different. Anything is ok.
You are letting misplaced guilt get the better of you. Go ahead, enjoy the fantasy. Save the guilt for your actions.

 

[BertrandRussell]

BTW, you should feel guilty for not telling us the details.

 

[katy21]

Ok. i have another one. I fantasize sometimes that i am just riding a subway where a lot of people and i start to do a handjob to some really handsome man. I come close to him then touch his dick softly.

 

[Reba67]

Unless you feel that it's going to lead you to act out the "disturbing" fantasy, then I don't see a problem. It was just your imagination and it got you turned on.

 

[Hiliburn]

the glitch is of course that everyone has different limitations on what is wrong/dirty/bad/ whatever. And everyone has certainly thought of or wandered down a thought path on something they think they shouldn't. So you are hardly alone. I think as other posters said- if it is kept in the context of the fantasy- fine. When it crosses over, then ya got trouble. For me one time was something as simple as infidlilty- perfectly acceptable to some, against all right for others. Others times things much more perverse....:0 but I know that I am not the first to think of such things, or the last. And it that, lol, I take comfort

 

[jrlphoto]

Masturbation fantasy

There are no rules in fantasy that is why it is fantasy enjoy the fantasy.

 

[JollyMeatMan]

All's fair in fantasy.

 

[banes27]

I do occassionally have a few images pop into my head that are completely and utterly wrong during a quick masturbation session, but, to be fair, the mind does tend to wander a bit. I mean, you could be thinking about something, a fantasy, you really want to enact, or a memory of a fantasy you have enacted, and then an image of something pornographic that was too extreme for your personal tastes which you accidentally saw online might pop into your head or a scene from a horror movie might turn up as well. Granted, those things are likely to just make you stop until you get the images out of your mind more than they are to turn you on a bit more but the point really is that the mind wanders. I've had a few of these experiences before and some of them scared the living shit out of me.

On the note of disturbing fantasies, I kind of know what you mean... I think... I have had a few fantasies that I'm not exactly happy about having despite the fact they turn me on a hell of a lot while I have had a few which I would never think of again. I think the limit to fantasies is down to the individual. One person might say that light bondage is too much while others will go as far as scat or bestiality. Even then it could be down to the individual's frame of mind at a given time. They may have once had rape fantasies but now views them as sick and wrong, never thinking about it again. I used to think that sharing your partner with another person in a threesome/foursome was completely wrong, but over time it became a reality while other former fantasies have passed into nothingness.

A fantasy's a fantasy though, so generally, whatever turns you on in your head is just fine.

 

[subish2009]

Yeah, I almost think the mind can wander during fantasy the way it does during dreams. There's a lot of weird shit in everyone's subconsciouses and I think it doesn't all need to be overanalyzed, you know? I can't recall ever having a fantasy that disturbed me, but I can think of lots of instances where whatever I was fantasizing about drifted into kinks that don't normally turn me on, that I have zero interest in doing in real life, but those were the thoughts/images that pushed me over the edge, so to speak. In short, I agree with others...if it makes you uncomfortable, try to avoid it in the future, but don't judge yourself too harshly. You know right from wrong and as long as it remains only fantasy, you've done no wrong in my book.