warning ranting enclosed....

[Silverluna]

he ran away...been gone since about saturday night....had to go think about some things....i have no clue when he'll be back....he just hopped in his car...and drove off...Please excuse my ranting...
Gods..you have no idea how much you love someone until they walk out of your life....maybe he'll come back....?

 

[Allexus_TN]

Silver if you want him back, then I hope he returns. I hope he comes back ready to make you happy hon. Keep us posted. I'm thinking about you.

 

[Silverluna]

Thanks...its just he fucking does stupid shit.....cuts himself...starves himself...(he's down to a size 4 in womens' clothing) .....i love him....he loves me...least he tells me....says he's not worth living....i deserve better he says....i shouldn't love him.....


*cries*

 

[metal_minx]

Thanks...its just he fucking does stupid shit.....cuts himself...doesn't eat...ect...

be careful..i know you care and love him but dont let him drag you down too...i've made that mistake and will probably make it again

 

[Allexus_TN]

It sounds very stressful for you hon.

 

[Wiggles]

Your boyfriend needs to get some help. I don't know that much about this, but I found this link. Hope it's helpful for you or you SO.

http://secretpain.netfirms.com/

Hopefully he'll come back soon and you guys can work on this together. Nobody should have to live with that.

 

[rider]

Sending good thoughts your way.

I hope this all works out for you. But as Minx said, be careful. I, too have been in a position where I ended up bringing myself down for a relationship gone wrong. We are here for you, and will listen. If he isn't already, it sounds like he needs some professional help. If he is starving himself, and cutting himself, you may need to force the issue by calling the police and having him put into protective custody. This will be very hard, I know, but it will be the best for him in the long run. You might save his life. Make the call and at least talk to someone about it, even if it is just a suicide hotline. They should be able to give you some more experienced guidance on this. Good luck, Luna. {{HUG}}

 

[Silverluna]

thank ye

thanks for the well wishes and tibits of advice....and I guess you others too....

He's not back yet....*rocks back and forth*
I've posted a few times bout his cutting and such....not eating....even disapearing...but ultimatly its up to him to stop this madness...I can only bitch and whine and rant soooo much.
It's just not in my nature to be a perminate whinner!!

I asked him nicely...be safe ...don't do anything stupid....send me a postcard? (he said maybe...and he loved me ...)

Ugh....a normal mate would sooo be appreciated....but no. The gods had to give me my soulmate....who behaves like this....

God help me.

 

[Siren]

 

[Silverluna]

......

yes yes yes fuck he is killing himself...i've told him this...begged...pleaded with him...stop you're dying....he's been in the hospital before....
Goddam i am so pissed ....why why why did this have to happen to me!?!
as some know...he's transsexual...he's started estrogen...goodby sperm...lol *sick mental anguish laughter*

 

[Siren]

 

[Silverluna]

...you sure your pity is well spent? i mean this is a nightmare...but surely there are worse ones