In looking at your posts, I think you did find the personals section. That being said, be careful what you wish for. Online can be a fun place to explore this.
At one point I wanted someone to control and take care of me, too. I was seen through pretty quickly... I really just didn't want to take responsibility for my fuck ups.
I *said* I wanted to give up control because it sounded really hot. Oh, but wait, you want to dye my hair black? You won't let me eat this ice cream cone? I can't chew gum anymore? You want me to read this self help book that's like, 700 pages long?