Valentine's day

[DarkestNyte]

The most erotic thing I ever did for Valentine's day was back with the first Dom I served. It was towards the end of our relationship when I was trying to draw his attention back to me after a new girl who had caught it. This bumped her right out of the running too....at least until I left...

He had been in the lifestyle for a long time and knew a lot of people whom, in my time with him, he'd introduced me to. One of them was a Bondage Master, and when I say Master I mean he was a Master Artist with rope. My Master had a collection of probably a hundred pictures he'd bought of this man's work. Each time he practiced his art, he worked with a different material (twine, silk, hemp, satin, etc) in a different color. When he was done binding a man or a woman it would look as if the subject was dressed in their bonds and beautifully, elegantly so.

I called him and arranged a session. I had to make some promises to get in last minute but that's a different story....

Well, I meet up with a friend who brought along her digital video camera and we went to meet this Bondage Master. It took three hours but he bound me from head to toe with my friend recording every minute. It's hard to describe because it was so intricate....I was bound with a thin, deep red rope that to this day I'm not sure what it was made of. It was strong but soft. It started as a gag in my mouth and wrapped down my back and around my arms which were pulled in front of me. It went down my arms, wrapped and knotted over and over again to my wrists. The rope then went from my wrists between my legs where he took great care in tying several knots which he fitted loosely around my pussy. It then went between my ass where it was again knotted this time large enough to block access while at the same time pressing against that hole hard enough to make the knots around my pussy damp. It was then wrapped and knotted intricately up and down my back and some how worked it's way back down my legs, knotting them tight together to the ankles.

When it was all done he helped me to a mirror (I cold barely move). I'm not doing the work justice in words, I'm not sure how anyone could really. All I can tell you is that it was one of the most erotic 3 hours of my life and while he obviously touched me, he never actually touched me but I was soaking wet. I looked like I was wearing a macrame red dress that simply accentuated every part of me. My arms were bound together but were flexible enough in their binding the they could be raised above my head if the cord running between my legs was cut. Now however, if my wrists were pulled forward it caused the cord between my legs to move; the knots he'd tied over my clit and the one at my ass to tighten and push in slightly (feeling like the head of a cock just beginning to press in). He showed me how, if I was bent over which the rope barely allowed, there was enough give for my Master to take my pussy, but he'd have to cut the rope to get to my ass (which I'd told him was my Master's favorite part of me).

While I was being shown the intricate nature of my bonds my friend was sending the video to my Master. I knew watching me being Bound would do a few things. It would set his jealous nature to work (the idea of someone else touching me without his permission) which would make him want to assert his Dominance. And two, it would fascinate him simply because he'd never expected this person to work with one of his slaves without being paid a huge fee (His frustration with me when he found out what payment I'd agreed to was...intense...but again that's another story).

I knew when my friend rang his doorbell, after he'd watched about an hour of the video, and said I was still bound and in the car if he wanted me....he wouldn't be thinking about the girl he was supposed to fuck in a few hours. I was right...her "date" that night was canceled and if I was punished by him for it, it was done well.

 

[asteele1390]

how romantic!

 

[JMohegan]

Christ almighty. That would be grounds for dismissal, in my book.

 

[DarkestNyte]

it nearly was. I maintain that I had competition too strong to stand by on the sidelines. It's part of my nature which was fully realized because of Him.

I argued that I am only what he made me and why should I be punished that severely for it.

 

[DarkestNyte]

Well, there's a good question to put forth to any Dom who cares to answer....

Does a good slave always equal a well behaved slave? I am certainly not always well behaved.

I've never gotten the hang of sharing. Being shared is a whole different thing.

 

[DarkestNyte]

welll you certainly seem to be a hand full ----- I do love your sense of humor, intelingence and of course you are easy on the eyes you certainly have caught My attention. The valentine story was quite interesting, and you seem to have enjoyed the experience, yet did you learn anything from the repercussions?

Thank you very much for the compliment.

I thoroughly enjoyed the experience, every aspect of it. I knew He was not going to be entirely happy, and I was excited by it. He'd been distracted with someone else and I don't share well. I also knew that as frustrated as He might be with me...maybe even angry....He was going to always, always remember this gift.

I think at this point of our relationship we were so attracted to and by each other that it caused issues with our nature which wasn't to be monogamous. Looking back I like to think we taught each other a few things.

There were repercussions, most certainly when I told him what I'd promised in payment. He couldn't refuse to make payment as a matter of honor and he...made me pay for it. However, the bitch who meant to replace me went to the back of line which was what I'd intended.

So, I'm not sure....did I learn my lesson? I guess it depends on which lesson you're referring to.

I mean I look around these forums and there are way more slaves than Masters or Mistresses. And even fewer Doms who truly understand a real submissive who has respect for themselves. I mean, I respond to all kinds of Dominance but the kind I crave is more than violence or humiliation. It's emotional and unreasonable and natural.....a Master or Mistress who is good need never physically touch my body to make me quiver for them.....

I can't ever promise to be well behaved all the time though. It's simply not in my nature.

 

[DarkestNyte]

you truely seem like a treasure I must run but look forward to tomorrow when I should be able to attend to you properly

well behavior is subjective- is your behavior willful at times to get attention or to require action such that you are charting the course of action ----hummmm it is your gift after all -- are the Doms in charge or are you in charge????

Well, certainly I did not believe I'd be dropped. I knew I was taking a big chance, I knew I could have it backfire and be handing over what I felt was my position to the person who wanted it.

I also knew though that He and I had a bond. I knew that if He did dismiss me, I wouldn't be hurting alone. I knew that in the end my motives were pure and out of loyalty for Him.

Of course my actions were mainly to get His attention and to show her who I was. They were also motivated by the fact that I was going to be alone on this holiday because she'd simply caught His eye while I was away on business. It wasn't fair or how He normally did things...

When my friend rang the doorbell and told him I was in the car if He wanted me, He could have turned me away. He could have brought me in, used me and sent me away. For a good portion of the night I believed He would leave me bound, forced to watch His evening with her....

He paid the price to the other Master and I paid the price to Him for sometime after....

If He were here now, and He very well could be...I still maintain that I did what was needed and therefore did not deserve to be dismissed.

And I wasn't dismissed in the end. I was with Him for nearly another year before He and I parted.

 

[MisterSir]

Does a good slave always equal a well behaved slave? I am certainly not always well behaved.

I think there's a significant difference between "normal" bad behaviour and what you did. I don't think that a good slave should always be well-behaved, in fact I'd be a little disappointed if she were as I rather enjoy the idea of punishing a recalcitrant or unwilling sub, but there's being bratty and there's going above and beyond.

 

[DarkestNyte]

I'm truly sorry you feel that way.

 

[MisterSir]

Don't be. You're not my sub, it's only my opinion and these really are just words on the Internet.

 

[DarkestNyte]

Thank you.

Still, it's too bad. I still feel justified though.

 

[zoe8]

I think there's a significant difference between "normal" bad behaviour and what you did. I don't think that a good slave should always be well-behaved, in fact I'd be a little disappointed if she were as I rather enjoy the idea of punishing a recalcitrant or unwilling sub, but there's being bratty and there's going above and beyond.

And your sub would probably be aware of your hard limits, as this sub was aware of her Master's limits and edges.

 

[DarkestNyte]

And your sub would probably be aware of your hard limits, as this sub was aware of her Master's limits and edges.

Thank you for understanding. As I said, I knew I was pushing the limits but I also knew that in the end He'd understand and even appreciate why. And I knew there would be punishment but sometimes it's worth it.

 

[Homburg]

Christ almighty. That would be grounds for dismissal, in my book.

Yep. Not something that I would tolerate in any way, shape, or form.

That said, it obviously worked for the OP. At that point, more power to you. Of course, that is the problem here. Power, to the slave. *shrug* To each their own.

 

[DarkestNyte]

Again, I'm sorry to hear another Dom say so.

The relationship between Him and I was, admittedly, not your average relationship. I admit that it was deeply confusing for both of us, even star crossed in the end.

One thing I guess I should make clear is that my Master did not discourage us from displays of affection for Him. He also had a reward system which made it clear to everyone who was in favor at any given time. I spent four years at the top of that list and I worked hard to stay there. I admit that being in a position of favor with Him was.....very comfortable and had benefits that had nothing to do with sex. Once my training began though, it was never about His money, home, clothes, trips, jewelry...it was about Him. Under His guidance I learned things about myself that most people don't figure out in a lifetime. I took care of His every need and He taught me more. I would have been His if He'd lost every dime and we were kicked into the street the next day.

And while I admit I almost pushed Him too far (looking back I think that this was the beginning of the end) I maintain that it was all a tribute to Him. I was fighting for Him and my desire to be at His side, something he worked to cultivate. I used my body to please Him because it was what I was meant to do, she used hers because she wanted Him financially. she did not deserve Him...still does not...

Another thing I should make clear is that He was very angry. He made me pay for that transgression for nearly a year. The night He made payment to His friend was a particularly hard night...

I know it was extreme, I know that not everyone can understand but I dare say that there are subs out there that completely understand even if they wouldn't admit it here.....

I have my faults, I'm not always obedient, I will always test the waters...again, it's simply in my nature.

 

[the captians wench]

I remember the need to stay on top. To out do all of the other hens to remain top bitch and stay in the "master's" good favor. I remember the desperate drive that ment I would do anything...well almost anyway, to remain in the coveted #1 spot.

I didn't care for that feeling. That relationship was very short lived. A don't think I could live in that situation again.

But I do understand the desperate desire to stay center of his universe. So I can sympathise.

Personally, it's one of the reasons I'm very happy to be back in a mono relationship.

 

[Homburg]

I'm not saying that what you did was somehow hideously evil. Obviously it worked for you. Just not my cup of tea.

 

[Essene]

Well, I enjoyed your story. Cleary you're very creative, intelligent and quite a minx. You had a particular kind of relationship, you knew what the various boundaries were, etc etc.

Personally, I'm amused at the situation you created, and I appreciate the passion, intensity, drive and creativity used to get you where you wanted to be.

So yes, to each their own.

 

[mylaceratedheart]

Does a good slave always equal a well behaved slave? I am certainly not always well behaved.

I am utterly ambivalent about this whole issue but crucially, I haven't actually tried submitting to anyone yet.

At the risk of hijacking a little...

I think MisterSir has a point in that having a sub that is totally obedient at all times must get a little... dull. It would suggest to me that the sub wasn't being pushed or challenged, which should all be part of the fun. Most people get into BDSM specifically because they want to leave their personal comfort zone. I know that I want to discover what I can endure, just as much as what I can enjoy.

I would need to have respect for a dom and that would include a healthy fear of seriously pissing him off. I don't really get the whole roleplay punishment thing, it would feel false and silly to me. I like the idea that a dom can be arbitrary, capricious and unjust if it amuses him.

I also think that the term 'obedience' is subjective anyway. Dom A wants his sub to suffer in absolute silence and remain completely still. Dom B relishes watching her squeal and squirm. Dom A does not tolerate teasing and backchat. Dom B likes playful banter. Obedience is therefore pretty much whatever the Dom decides it is.

So that's why I found your story a little odd. If you are the slave of a jealous guy who does not want you shared or exposed to other men, how was the video a gift to him? Arousing jealousy like that could have seriously backfired and if there were issues in your relationship that prompted you to chuck this particular hand grenade into your dynamic, surely they could have been addressed in a less rebellious and combative way?

We do not know you and our opinions are irrelevant. If this tactic worked for you then all's fair in love and bondage. I can see why JMohegan posted as he did though.

 

[satindesire]

I think a good sit down with some honest and open communication rather than that 'two wrongs make a right' kind of revenge situation would have been better for the both of you.

I guess it's hard to learn how to talk to your partner sometimes. Personally, I wouldn't sit back and allow any partner of mine to sleep with someone else without okaying it with me first, Dom/me or not. I'm a sub, not a doormat, and I don't think it's okay to go behind someone's back and do something wrong for the sake of getting even.

I'm sorry you had to go through that. But I don't think what you did was okay either.

 

[DarkestNyte]

So that's why I found your story a little odd. If you are the slave of a jealous guy who does not want you shared or exposed to other men, how was the video a gift to him? Arousing jealousy like that could have seriously backfired and if there were issues in your relationship that prompted you to chuck this particular hand grenade into your dynamic, surely they could have been addressed in a less rebellious and combative way?

We do not know you and our opinions are irrelevant. If this tactic worked for you then all's fair in love and bondage. I can see why JMohegan posted as he did though.

I never said that He was jealous or that He did not share me. Quite the opposite. The standard "practice" was that I needed His permission to be with another outside of our little "family". And other's who wanted me would make the request to Him directly. I think that is a fairly standard arrangement. Maybe I'm wrong? I should have explained that better.

The video was a gift to Him in that He regularly attended this Bondage Master's showings and enjoyed watching Him work. He just never thought this person would work on anyone without an exorbitant fee which I assume He never choose to spend on one of His slaves. He did however have a extensive collection (I think I mentioned that) of photographs of this person's work.

The video was also proof that there was nothing....improper going on. Although I made a promise for payment I knew He would love to hate...which was essentially to be one of his next showings. Again, I was punished for taking it upon myself to agree to a cost...not because of the cost.

And the "hand grenade" in our relationship was the bitch, not this. It's not as if every time He fucked someone else I threw a fit. He encouraged us to show displays of affection for Him and this was simply that. She didn't want Him that night as much as she wanted His gifts. I wanted Him...and in the end I believe He knew that. She wanted my place at His side but not for the right reasons.

This is the only time I can think of, in slightly over 4 years that I did anything that I believed could push him over the edge. I knew when I wasn't turned away at the door that he would forgive me if I worked for it....and I did....and it was absolutely worth it.

 

[DarkestNyte]

I think a good sit down with some honest and open communication rather than that 'two wrongs make a right' kind of revenge situation would have been better for the both of you.

I guess it's hard to learn how to talk to your partner sometimes. Personally, I wouldn't sit back and allow any partner of mine to sleep with someone else without okaying it with me first, Dom/me or not. I'm a sub, not a doormat, and I don't think it's okay to go behind someone's back and do something wrong for the sake of getting even.

I'm sorry you had to go through that. But I don't think what you did was okay either.

First, he committed no "wrongs", so I don't think it's that situation at all. Yes, I felt he made an unfair choice. I simply sought to remind him of his other choices....albeit in an extreme way. Extreme is the way I was trained.


Um....I didn't sleep with the Bondage Master Ever......so I'm not sure where you got that idea. He had to have been at least 60 years old.

And He can sleep with anyone he wants nor did he ever treat me as a doormat. I think that you may simply be putting your own hang ups on my story and situation. You're completely misreading most of what I said. May be it's my fault.....

 

[CutieMouse]

First, he committed no "wrongs", so I don't think it's that situation at all. Yes, I felt he made an unfair choice. I simply sought to remind him of his other choices....albeit in an extreme way. Extreme is the way I was trained.


Um....I didn't sleep with the Bondage Master Ever......so I'm not sure where you got that idea. He had to have been at least 60 years old.

And He can sleep with anyone he wants nor did he ever treat me as a doormat. I think that you may simply be putting your own hang ups on my story and situation. You're completely misreading most of what I said. May be it's my fault.....

You started a thread with a story in which you used manipulation to get what you wanted, and played coy regarding "payment" and "punishments", and you're accusing people of putting their "own hang ups" on your story?

From your OP/following posts:

I called him and arranged a session. I had to make some promises to get in last minute but that's a different story....

<snip>

All I can tell you is that it was one of the most erotic 3 hours of my life

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It would set his jealous nature to work (the idea of someone else touching me without his permission) which would make him want to assert his Dominance. And two, it would fascinate him simply because he'd never expected this person to work with one of his slaves without being paid a huge fee (His frustration with me when he found out what payment I'd agreed to was...intense...but again that's another story).

<snip>

I knew He was not going to be entirely happy, and I was excited by it. He'd been distracted with someone else and I don't share well. I also knew that as frustrated as He might be with me...maybe even angry....He was going to always, always remember this gift.

<snip>

There were repercussions, most certainly when I told him what I'd promised in payment. He couldn't refuse to make payment as a matter of honor and he...made me pay for it. However, the bitch who meant to replace me went to the back of line which was what I'd intended.

 

[sinnocence]

I don't understand this thread.

 

[MisterSir]

First, he committed no "wrongs", so I don't think it's that situation at all. Yes, I felt he made an unfair choice. I simply sought to remind him of his other choices....albeit in an extreme way. Extreme is the way I was trained.

So you felt he was wrong in his choice.

And to fix it, you did something that he did not seem to be too pleased with, which just might qualify as wrong from his point of view.

Now I'm no high-faluting big-city maths guy (I'm a high-faluting big-city economics guy in training), but wrong + wrong, as people have said, =/= right. Sorry dear, but that's just not the way it works.