madetotakeit
WARNING: I Bite Back
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- Nov 29, 2007
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A funny thing happened at work last night...not so much funny, but took me by surprise. We are enjoying a nice cool front and with the wind it was a bit chilly out. On my break, I zipped up the neck of my sweatshirt. I'm not sure if I have just never zipped it before or it shrank in the wash. At any rate, it was very constricting around my throat and the zipper was putting constant pressure up the center of my neck.
Without warning I was thrown back into a past experience. My eyes closed and it was as if I was lying on the bed and looking up at him and feeling the pressure of his hand against my neck..keeping me in place, controlling. I could even smell the faint scent of his cologne and feel the warmth of him inside me. My breathing deepened. That familiar wetness he never fails to cause returned. I felt the flush of arousal from looking into his eyes as the burned into mine, not letting my mind stray from where I was. Unable to break eye contact until a sensation he supplied caused a short circuit in my senses.
It took me off guard. Something so simple and innocent spontaneously triggering something so wonderfully primal. For all intent and purpose I was only physically standing outside my work. Mentally I was 100% back to that moment. Needless to say I took a few extra moments on my break savoring what I was feeling. I felt oddly calm and quite content despite the way my body was reacting. When I went back inside, let's just say it is a good thing my desk afforded some privacy. Nothing like a wonderfully vivid memory combined with a bit of very inappropriate behavior that was my little secret.
I can honestly say nothing like this has ever happened before. Sure a stimulus has conjured a memory, but it felt like something deeper than a memory. I wonder how common this is. Is this typical of something that is experienced so intensely or is it just my mind running rampant for a few moments? The psyche is an interesting thing. I wonder what other things are dormant waiting for an unintentional trigger. Or, what things are yet to be implanted-maybe it's better not to think about that.
Without warning I was thrown back into a past experience. My eyes closed and it was as if I was lying on the bed and looking up at him and feeling the pressure of his hand against my neck..keeping me in place, controlling. I could even smell the faint scent of his cologne and feel the warmth of him inside me. My breathing deepened. That familiar wetness he never fails to cause returned. I felt the flush of arousal from looking into his eyes as the burned into mine, not letting my mind stray from where I was. Unable to break eye contact until a sensation he supplied caused a short circuit in my senses.
It took me off guard. Something so simple and innocent spontaneously triggering something so wonderfully primal. For all intent and purpose I was only physically standing outside my work. Mentally I was 100% back to that moment. Needless to say I took a few extra moments on my break savoring what I was feeling. I felt oddly calm and quite content despite the way my body was reacting. When I went back inside, let's just say it is a good thing my desk afforded some privacy. Nothing like a wonderfully vivid memory combined with a bit of very inappropriate behavior that was my little secret.
I can honestly say nothing like this has ever happened before. Sure a stimulus has conjured a memory, but it felt like something deeper than a memory. I wonder how common this is. Is this typical of something that is experienced so intensely or is it just my mind running rampant for a few moments? The psyche is an interesting thing. I wonder what other things are dormant waiting for an unintentional trigger. Or, what things are yet to be implanted-maybe it's better not to think about that.
