Turning Point

[Bigtitsbitch1000x]

I am, after so much fear, pain, disappointment, frustration, and deception, what I always knew i was: a beautiful female.

I am a transwoman.

I am a creation of the Goddess.

I follow pagan authorities: Changó, Maximón, Kwanyin.

I create poetry and art.

I am an unapologetic girly girl.

I love clothes and bling and makeup and bags and shoes.

I love bras and panties and strutting nude in high heels.

I love my boobies, my booty, my legs, and my long hair.

I will get no surgeries except, perhaps, top surgery. I do not need to go under the knife.

The classical Greeks knew we are all born with a pussy, and some of us with two; and we are all born with two cocks. Lacan explained it.

I don't need to have a vagina to be a pussy. It's more important to be a pussy than to possess one. (Discuss.)

I am vulnerable and emotional. Weakened by society, without upper body strength.

I am a ho, sitting in the sunlight, a skinny, dirty blonde with big tits, waiting for men too stupid to graze on my soft, sweet body.

My body. My truth. My future. My universe. Reality.

I am a slut, eager to widen my booty crack to accommodate more men.

I am the goddess to who religious bigots pray when they are fearful, on their way to kill me.

I am a transgender revolutionary, feminist, antifascist.

I am inescapable.

I am mystery.

I am Queen of the Streets, the Love Goddess, Slave to the Phallocracy, and Queen of the Night.

I am your future, world. Get used to it.

San Francisco STREET SHEET. Sex Workers Issue, June 1, 2019. Revised. In Memoriam Lisseth Rivas Sánchez, 1977-2023.

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[Ambient4190]

^^^above posted by you on a day when I am with a loved one whose level of gender dysphoria is high.

I am an Ally.

There is only one sentence in your post that speaks to the pain. Only one. There should be more. Could be so many more. Perhaps then more cisgender people would understand???

The pain. The anxiety. Depression. The why me? Why doesn't it go away? The confusion similar to when as a child could not understand why breasts weren't developing. Or why breasts were developing?

I thought when Caitlin Jenner arrived understanding by cisgender people would grow? I don't believe it has.

So many in the US remain stealth. Try to live quiet lives. Managing the ebb and flow of gender dysphoria. Hiding. Hiding from co-workers, family....survival.

How to ask US cisgender people to try to understand the individual? Each person is different. Some at one time may have had a parent or family member that accepted them. Others did not. Some may have been treated with care and concern. Others were not.

Each transgender person is different. Some are Republican, some are Democrats, some are Libertarian. Some are black, some are white, some are brown. Some are rich. Some are poor. Some are old, some are young, some are middle-aged. Some pass. Some don't pass. Some transition. Some never transition. They each have their own story. United by gender dysphoria.

No offense is intended to anyone and if I have offended, forgive me.

 

[Bigtitsbitch1000x]

^^^above posted by you on a day when I am with a loved one whose level of gender dysphoria is high.

I am an Ally.

There is only one sentence in your post that speaks to the pain. Only one. There should be more. Could be so many more. Perhaps then more cisgender people would understand???

The pain. The anxiety. Depression. The why me? Why doesn't it go away? The confusion similar to when as a child could not understand why breasts weren't developing. Or why breasts were developing?

I thought when Caitlin Jenner arrived understanding by cisgender people would grow? I don't believe it has.

So many in the US remain stealth. Try to live quiet lives. Managing the ebb and flow of gender dysphoria. Hiding. Hiding from co-workers, family....survival.

How to ask US cisgender people to try to understand the individual? Each person is different. Some at one time may have had a parent or family member that accepted them. Others did not. Some may have been treated with care and concern. Others were not.

Each transgender person is different. Some are Republican, some are Democrats, some are Libertarian. Some are black, some are white, some are brown. Some are rich. Some are poor. Some are old, some are young, some are middle-aged. Some pass. Some don't pass. Some transition. Some never transition. They each have their own story. United by gender dysphoria.

No offense is intended to anyone and if I have offended, forgive me.

Thank you very much for this wonderful comment.

Yes, we are each unique. But we have much in common.

I experienced everything you describe. I edged away from suicide more than once.

Few cis people will understand the pain and even fewer will express solidarity with us. The widow of the man who recruited me to CIA told me today I should go back to male. I told her I suffered 60 years of dysphoria. She got angry and bitchy about it.

We are on our own. Ourselves Alone -- the great Irish revolutionary slogan.

Jenner and other such cannot be good comrades. Jenner is rich and can live however. Bill Burroughs, similarly, was rich and could afford heroin addiction. Jenner has nothing in common with the trans in the street. Burroughs at least had to know junkies to cop.

I have no reason to interact with Jenner unless, frankly, it is to help Jenner to the guillotine.

I was a neoconservative but all neocons are ex-leftists. The stealth I practiced as a trans helped me function as an anarchist communist working for CIA. Which was extremely common in the past. I took CIA's money and handed it to Spanish anarchists. And I did the same with Mossad -- used their resources to support the Muslim Brotherhood.

When CIA asked for a recommendation of an intello we could dialogue with I proposed Chomsky. And it happened.

When DJT was elected I cast aside my gender ID and my political costume. I came out as trans and @ntifa.

I have cred as an author and am writing a book on the trans phenomenon. But it will not focus on the pain.

My relatives included martyrs in the Holocaust. And terrorists who fought the pogromists with gun in hand.

But I'm not a trans Woody Guthrie. I speak for those who are proud of being trans. I speak to those who hide in their SRO rooms in fear they will be misgendered. I exhort them to dress up, put on makeup, go out boldly, and answer the haters with the excellent educational tool known as MACE. When necessary and justified. I teach them to deal with police in a manner that will bring some, at least, to our side.

This is my song:

I was introduced to The Imperial Court, the drag institution. Fine, I said. But I represent the Transgender Revolutionary Committee, now the Sex Workers Union.

I cannot sell a lachrymose book as an author. I stress the glory of being trans. The beauty. The love. The courage. I live it. I believe in it. I am a happy woman warrior.

We will prevail. Orlando said so.

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[Wat_Tyler]

I've had some trials coming along in Life. Some were, shall we say, socially unacceptable. Sexual identification and/or orientation were not among them, but you do have my empathy. I say empathy apurpose because as was pointed out to me, sympathy comes between shit and syphilis in the dictionary.


Fuck Everything And Run


or


Face Everything And Regenerate.


I think that the healthier - those attempting to heal - among us need to offer our hands to those who are attempting to heal.