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BeautifulBlueSky218
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I put my trust out there and I got deeply hurt in the end. I'm not pointing fingers or putting the blame out there. However I'm still a human being. I'm not a robot. Know that in BDSM everyone has their limits. It takes a lot for anyone to give complete trust to anyone. I've never be the kind of person to just randomly meet up with someone and let them tie me up, do whatever they want to me. Smarter than that because I know there's a lot of crazies out there.
I've always known I was a Sub since I was 26 years old and I loved pleasing my boyfriend. He was my boyfriend at the time. First guy who ever called me a "Good Girl" and I felt excited by it. He kept pushing things and I loved it. He's not the one who hurt me in the end however.
In the end I've ran into a lot of Dom's who have deeply hurt me and pushed things way too quickly on me without even getting to know me. I only know of one who actually took the time to get to know me after my boyfriend and I broke up. The others wanted to have play time almost immediately. When I get involved with something, I want the whole package. Now that I'm deeply hurt by the Dom's that I did meet, it's very hard for me to trust again and I'm trying to learn how to trust again. It's just all very hard when I ended up getting betrayed over and over again. I've had some disappear on me or others who hardly talk to me or Dom's who demand things of me the minute they spoke to me.
Having a connection with a Dom makes it fun. Getting to know one another is a lot more exciting to me than just getting right into play time. This is just the way I think however. I'm a beginner to all of this and I'm learning little by little. Believe this had to happen so I could learn from it. I'm sure anyone would hate to being taken for granted or manipulated. I don't want all these experiences ruining it for the future Dom's and I believe the trust thing for me has been really hard to do since I got hurt. I ended up backing down to some or scared because of what happened. Believe now I should actually take the time to chatting for a bit before I start anything with anyone again or taking a break for a bit to concentrate on myself.
I've always known I was a Sub since I was 26 years old and I loved pleasing my boyfriend. He was my boyfriend at the time. First guy who ever called me a "Good Girl" and I felt excited by it. He kept pushing things and I loved it. He's not the one who hurt me in the end however.
In the end I've ran into a lot of Dom's who have deeply hurt me and pushed things way too quickly on me without even getting to know me. I only know of one who actually took the time to get to know me after my boyfriend and I broke up. The others wanted to have play time almost immediately. When I get involved with something, I want the whole package. Now that I'm deeply hurt by the Dom's that I did meet, it's very hard for me to trust again and I'm trying to learn how to trust again. It's just all very hard when I ended up getting betrayed over and over again. I've had some disappear on me or others who hardly talk to me or Dom's who demand things of me the minute they spoke to me.
Having a connection with a Dom makes it fun. Getting to know one another is a lot more exciting to me than just getting right into play time. This is just the way I think however. I'm a beginner to all of this and I'm learning little by little. Believe this had to happen so I could learn from it. I'm sure anyone would hate to being taken for granted or manipulated. I don't want all these experiences ruining it for the future Dom's and I believe the trust thing for me has been really hard to do since I got hurt. I ended up backing down to some or scared because of what happened. Believe now I should actually take the time to chatting for a bit before I start anything with anyone again or taking a break for a bit to concentrate on myself.