Tymeless
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I stood at my locker after a rough practice. I am 20 years old. My name is Sean Tyler and last year I got an academic and football scholarship to go to Ohio State University. It had always been my dream to go there. Today though I was getting tired of it all. The practice was hard and I really didn't have it in me to compete at this level. You see I've always gotten by with natural talent but at this level everyone has natural talent. I am a sophomore. I just turned 20 about 2 weeks ago. I'm the starting tight end and the 2nd string middle linebacker. I'll probably be starting next year there to.
I just can't take it anymore. I enjoy sports and thats the only reason I've not gone and done something about whats wrong with me. You see I'm not happy being a man. I don't enjoy anything about my body except the advantages it gives me in sports. All my other true interests are typically considered feminine and I have to hide them from the entire world. As a result I come off as some ultra macho guy trying to make myself fit into the role i've been given in society.
The last few years have been tough on me. My friends growing up were all girls and I enjoyed playing with them until I was about 8 years old. My father then refused to let me play with the girls. I was devastated but he made me start playing sports. It was fun and I had natural talent that made me the star on any team. I got over my depression for the most part due to sports but it was only a band aid over the wounds caused.
I grew up quickly and soon puberty hit. That just reopened the wound and made everything worse. Girls started growing breast and learning about make up and their curves began to fill out just right. I on the other hand began to get taller and stronger and it drove me mad with self hatred. I became a problem child by drinking and fighting and doing anything I could to get in trouble. The only things that didn't suffer were my grades and sports. I wouldn't do anything that would jeopardize my future in sports.
I turned and went to the showers to clean up. I had made the decision that I was finally going to do something about it all. I had heard through the grapevine that there was a wizard just outside of town that could solve any problem. I had considered all options and while I didn't believe in magic really this seemed like the only real option to me. So I got in the shower and began to quickly clean myself. I wasn't going to show up smelling foul and have that ruin my chances of him helping me.
I just can't take it anymore. I enjoy sports and thats the only reason I've not gone and done something about whats wrong with me. You see I'm not happy being a man. I don't enjoy anything about my body except the advantages it gives me in sports. All my other true interests are typically considered feminine and I have to hide them from the entire world. As a result I come off as some ultra macho guy trying to make myself fit into the role i've been given in society.
The last few years have been tough on me. My friends growing up were all girls and I enjoyed playing with them until I was about 8 years old. My father then refused to let me play with the girls. I was devastated but he made me start playing sports. It was fun and I had natural talent that made me the star on any team. I got over my depression for the most part due to sports but it was only a band aid over the wounds caused.
I grew up quickly and soon puberty hit. That just reopened the wound and made everything worse. Girls started growing breast and learning about make up and their curves began to fill out just right. I on the other hand began to get taller and stronger and it drove me mad with self hatred. I became a problem child by drinking and fighting and doing anything I could to get in trouble. The only things that didn't suffer were my grades and sports. I wouldn't do anything that would jeopardize my future in sports.
I turned and went to the showers to clean up. I had made the decision that I was finally going to do something about it all. I had heard through the grapevine that there was a wizard just outside of town that could solve any problem. I had considered all options and while I didn't believe in magic really this seemed like the only real option to me. So I got in the shower and began to quickly clean myself. I wasn't going to show up smelling foul and have that ruin my chances of him helping me.