To My Friends-

[aussiegeekygal]

Hey everyone,

So some of you already know this, but I've been going through some pretty shitty health problems of late. A few months back, an emergency room visit unravelled my entire life, after a mass was found on my ovary. Since then I've seen 8 doctors, had two surgeries (and will need a few more, apparently) and with each attempt to medicate me, a new side effect is introduced, which is more miserable than the last.
Today, for reasons unknown to me, it finally hit. I'm utterly devastated right now and I am at a loss as to what I can do for myself. I know that it is normal to grieve after a medical diagnosis, however that doesn't make it any easier.

I also know that a few of you have been through something similar and have gotten out the other side with your health and sanity. You're an inspiration, and I thank you for being there for me and acting normal, even when it's really not. You guys have really given me an outlet to escape for a while, and it's awesome. I really debated if I wanted to bring this on to the boards, as this is the one place in my life right now where I don't get the pity stares, the prayer affirmations, or the anecdotes. Thing is, I've gotten to the point where I just feel fake. Yes, I can joke around and be silly, but underneath it all, I'm fucking miserable. It'll pass, and I'll still be the firey Aussie you're used to. But for now, I just can't even...

Fuck being brave. I'm gonna go cry in the corner for a while.

I really do love you guys.

Aussie

 

[moocha01]

Sorry to hear this hunny, I wish you well and send my best wishes but if you want to scream, shout, go mad horse riding through the woods or just get totally out of the planet drunk on cocktails, take one day at a time and do whatever works for you on that day and you will get through it, many things in life are total shite and I never will understand why bad things happen to good people but I have survived alot of shit and my only way is. .....do what works to carry on for another day xxx best wishes hunny x

 

[aussiegeekygal]

Thanks, Mooch.
You know, writing it down really helped.
I promised Pmann that I'd do an AmPics thread if I had to get chemo (not thinking it was that serious). I swear that bastard paid my doctors to reconsider and want to start it

 

[NC_OBX80]

Thoughts are with you Aussie. I hate hearing about anyone suffering but hopefully by sharing, this can continue to be a positive place of support for your wonderful self. You're strong and that strength will help you through. A hug from the other side of the globe, it's not much, but it's yours when you need it.

 

[zydrate]

hugs

Sometimes it just helps to write things out. I'm here, as I'm sure are a lot of others, in case you need someone to talk to.

Working in the medical field, I come across a lot of diagnoses like yours and all I can do is hope things turn out for the better (I would say pray but I'm not a religious person). Medical science is advancing everyday....you know, medical science=nerds

I have no idea where I'm going with this but I'm here for ya...

fist bump

 

[moocha01]

Thanks, Mooch.
You know, writing it down really helped.
I promised Pmann that I'd do an AmPics thread if I had to get chemo (not thinking it was that serious). I swear that bastard paid my doctors to reconsider and want to start it

Hahaha wonder how much he paid them to get his beady eyes on your body Lol. Tell the git to give you the money and stop messing about with all this Chemo xx Stay strong darling x

 

[37_ttej]

You hang around here, Sis, OK?
They say that laughter is the best medicine and there's plenty of that here for sure.
Don't use this place as an escape, just as a distraction.
It lifts my spirits.

Well, it lifts other things on occasion too.

You hang in there. PM if you need me.

 

[aussiegeekygal]

hugs

Sometimes it just helps to write things out. I'm here, as I'm sure are a lot of others, in case you need someone to talk to.

Working in the medical field, I come across a lot of diagnoses like yours and all I can do is hope things turn out for the better (I would say pray but I'm not a religious person). Medical science is advancing everyday....you know, medical science=nerds

I have no idea where I'm going with this but I'm here for ya...

fist bump

I treat cancer for a living. Well, I did. Until I didn't... I never really considered the possibility that I could be in my patient's shoes. Partly (well, mostly) because I treated prostate cancer.
I also just dropped out of medical school, which was devastating all on its' own. I'm sure I'll make it back, but for now, I need to focus on my health.

I'm also not religious, and although I appreciate the sentiment, I feel odd when people offer to pray for me. If that makes them feel better and in control, I'm all for it, but I'm not getting anything out of it.

Bumps back at fist

 

[Bitesback]

You are obviously a woman of extraordinary inner strength to have been on the boards with such an engagingly positive attitude and yet you had so much with which to contend. May that strength remain and sustain you through the many trails ahead. If there's one thing I have learnt from family and friends who have received serious medical diagnoses is that what ever is your reaction it is the right one for you, on any day. I was glad to see your begrudging joke about PM above, so I'll add one I read recently...maybe you'll strike it lucky one day and get medication where the side effects are multiple orgasms.
All the best for your medical care and recovery

 

[aussiegeekygal]

Well, it lifts other things on occasion too.

http://41.media.tumblr.com/747ac2314c859d5a5410e2cd81852b72/tumblr_mrskzzNrt01rypfgko1_400.jpg

You're right- this place is one hell of a distraction.

 

[37_ttej]

http://41.media.tumblr.com/747ac2314c859d5a5410e2cd81852b72/tumblr_mrskzzNrt01rypfgko1_400.jpg

You're right- this place is one hell of a distraction.

Shit, he's buff!

 

[aussiegeekygal]

Shit, he's buff!

He's my kinda guy.

Right after, I found this. This holds a very special place in my heart.

http://41.media.tumblr.com/d48bbc26f88dc9cfb1748b2f60e1cdf9/tumblr_n1f04uG8vp1ts2zbwo1_500.jpg

 

[aussiegeekygal]

Thoughts are with you Aussie. I hate hearing about anyone suffering but hopefully by sharing, this can continue to be a positive place of support for your wonderful self. You're strong and that strength will help you through. A hug from the other side of the globe, it's not much, but it's yours when you need it.

You are obviously a woman of extraordinary inner strength to have been on the boards with such an engagingly positive attitude and yet you had so much with which to contend. May that strength remain and sustain you through the many trails ahead. If there's one thing I have learnt from family and friends who have received serious medical diagnoses is that what ever is your reaction it is the right one for you, on any day. I was glad to see your begrudging joke about PM above, so I'll add one I read recently...maybe you'll strike it lucky one day and get medication where the side effects are multiple orgasms.
All the best for your medical care and recovery

Thanks, you two. It means a lot to have you stop in with your well wishes.

As we all know, I'll be OK. I was having a less than OK moment, but I really appreciate my lit friends. I'm also glad to be making new ones.

Oh- and the meds with multiple orgasms will be nice. Hell, I'll take the meds that let me feel even a little of the horny. It feels like I'm back on Basic Training Gatorade.

 

[DoRaMe]

Shit, he's buff!

Ewww....I don't want to even touch a man who probably weighs less than I did at birth.

You do what you need to. Nobody knows what you need but you...announce it, cry, swear, etc. This is the time to take care of you and let other to help you. I know we haven't chatted much, but know I am here for you...
You will kick this in the ass, just like you do the guys on here! lol

 

[WolfsButterfly]

HUGS My inbox is always open if you should ever need to vent. Or smile. Or just say fuck you.

 

[gypsyTX]

http://gigieatscelebrities.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/04/my-cancer-L-XsFs0g.jpeg?03a0f1

Also, for giggles:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tGiKYlN0pDM

 

[zydrate]

The generate lift one made me giggle...

kinda like this one my brother sent me
http://i.imgur.com/LjNYM2B.jpg

 

[PrissOff]

You don't know me from Adam, but I just wanted to say that I admire your courage and bravery to endure all that you have and still remain upbeat and positive all the while. My thoughts and prayers are with you and I wish for nothing more than for you to be restored to full health. Keep on keeping on, dahling. Hugs x x

 

[aussiegeekygal]

You ladies just made my night.
That video, Gypsy!!! Funniest thing I've seen in a while.
Zydrate- I agree completely with your pic

 

[1sickbastard]

Lucky you (yes, I said lucky), you have the big C in a time when the odds of you surviving and having a long, happy and healthy life afterwards is pretty damn high.
You just go on being you, the good, the bad, the crazy, the whatever.
I think it's pretty clear you got loads mad love here. I'd bet cash you got loads of mad love in your real life as well.

After all is said and done, whatever may come, you're still the same awesome person you've always have been, and nothing's gonna change that.

So just keep on keepin' on. Stay positive. Educate yourself on your particular medical condition, live as long and as well as you can.

Then remember that Jim Fixx, the author of the "The Complete Guide to Running" died while running, and appreciate the irony.

 

[zydrate]

Lucky you (yes, I said lucky), you have the big C in a time when the odds of you surviving and having a long, happy and healthy life afterwards is pretty damn high.
You just go on being you, to good, the bad, the crazy, the whatever.
I think it's pretty clear you got loads mad love here. I'd bet cash you got loads of mad love in your real life as well.

After all is said and done, whatever may come, you're still the same awesome person you've always have been, and nothing's gonna change that.

So just keep on keepin' on. Stay positive. Educate yourself on your particular medical condition, live as long and as well as you can.

Then remember that Jim Fixx, the author of the "The Complete Guide to Running" died while running, and appreciate the irony.

you said loads....

http://data.whicdn.com/images/55420723/large.gif

 

[SwtLilWickedOne]

Oh sweet gal,
I need to get you out here to have some animal therapy. The mini donkeys and the horse, cows, baby calves, the chickens,potbellied pigs and lil peeps would lift your mood. And if that didn't work, we'd haul your ass to the beach!
I know how it feels to not have control over your own body. I had an accident almost 2 years ago that left me with spinal injuries that caused 3 strokes andeven after surgery, I'm still not even 70% of who i am used to being. Its a maddening, depressing,infuriating journey and sometimes you have to just grieve and breathe through it. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this. Please know, even though my situation is different, i still have 2 good ears and some decent shoulders to cry on. And of course, the farm is still here with new life daily to perk ya up.
Hugs and positive vibes to you my friend

 

[Deleted member 1306910]

*wraps arms around aussie and cuddles her close* If you promise to not stop fighting, I will send you a naked pic. *nods*

If you promise to WIN, I promise to send you a clothed pic.

 

[lakesailer_mi]

Hey Gal,

Big hug for you.

Lakey

 

[GiggLeGasm]

well doesn't that all kind of suck
I've been through a few traumas as well with my family and, I have to throw out there, it is the worst time to be a health care professional. I know you're dissecting every piece of lab work, remembering patients, it's such a flood

I am so sorry that this is something you need to endure.

It hurts my heart because I know that, when you're used to being the one who helps and fixes, it's hard being the one who waits.. and hopes.. and prays. The thoughts flash through your head during normal pedestrian things and .. it's really one of the few unkind things life can throw at us that we can't prepare for.

I can't even give you advice. I'm not the best warrior unless it comes to someone else's health. But I can say, I so admire that you're wise enough to reach out. I can say that your willingness to select vulnerability as a way to gather courage is, by far, the best thing you could do.

You hang in there.