"Tis the season to be.....

[Dragonette]

Ode to a friend

So now my friend, that’s it for me,
You asked, I did, was meant kindly.

So go you now, leave me alone,
For parting time, I’m hurt, go roam!

I wish you well, once dear to me,
But we should part, for now I see,

You know me not, your words speak clear!
Enough I cry, I cared my dear.

But times do change, we grow apart,
So now I go, to soothe my heart.

Your words did hurt, I did’st but try
So now no more, 'tis now goodbye.

Forgive me please, ‘tis time I know
This time of year, I go alone!

Its better now to leave me lone,
My words do tend to be forlorn.

Who cares, do I? I did one time,
and now my words do barely rhyme.

So thank you for the time we had
Maybe, one day, when mood not bad

I’ll talk again, and we will chat
As friends, one day, ‘bout this and that.

Till then be well, be happy friend
A merry one to you, I send.

 

[JennyOmanHill]

Ode to a friend ...
So now my friend, that’s it for me,
You asked, I did, was meant kindly.
So go you now, leave me alone,
For parting time, I’m hurt, go roam!
...
Forgive me please, ‘tis time I know
This time of year, I go alone!
Its better now to leave me lone,
My words do tend to be forlorn.
Who cares, do I? I did one time,
and now my words do barely rhyme.

Your words have again surged through my heart. 'Tis indeed the season where lights and joy are stirringly mixed with pain and lonliness. Letting go is so necessary, but so hard, and it hurts like hell.

You are not alone with these feelings this holiday.

 

[Dragonette]

Thank you dear friend

But, I did ask that my friends did not follow my misery!

So forget these dismal words of mine and go and give others your cheer!

It was a mad and sad moment, I really should not have posted it!
Tis the season to be jolly!

Etc etc.......

Smiles!

 

[LukkyKnight]

should not have posted?

It's a place for expression, do not regret the sharing.

I think, however, you'd have found a more interested audience over in GENERAL than you might here.

 

[midas2001]

Hey there Dragonette...

Never be afraid to let your feelings show. I have found that whether it's poetry or the lyrics of a song... only someone that has "FELT" deep feelings can really put on paper something that has the potential to be wonderful.

Thankyou for sharing.

Midas2001

 

[on_the_verge]

Oddly

I had to tell a friend, about the same tonality as you wrote, the same whispers. I think it may be a good thing, but I will let it sit on the pot for a few days. Perhaps, when we give a period to reflect and begin to see it all perspectively anew, we may find that it breaths new fire and vigor where it was lost?

 

[midas2001]

Almost forgot.....

Merry Christmas To One And All

Stay cool

Midas2001

 

[Dragonette]

More of my miseries, I am on a roll!

Well Christmas is almost here again, the season to be joyous, happy and thankful for what we have. So, with tears streaming down my face, my stomach hurting from just throwing up, my throat sore from coughing and my head pounding from all the previous, I am battling to find something to be happy about, all I can managed is a sarcastic laugh, the big joke is my life!

I even tried to submit this story and I get: Not ever approved.
Which says it all at this moment!
Here is part of it!

About a month ago I met a man who seemed nice, we met a few times, got along well. It was never going to be anything permanent as he is newly separated and has two young boys living him, the oldest being eleven. Not something I want to become involved in again, but that suited me, the occasional get together, a friend, and good company.

Well he rang me on Thursday and said the boys were going to his mothers for the night as she was taking them Christmas shopping the next day, he said he would really like to see me again, so how about we watch a video or something and have a quiet evening together. It sounded nice, so I said yes, why not.

He arrived about nine thirty we had a few glasses of wine and put on a video. A couple of kisses cuddles and quiet talking as we watched the movie. It was pleasant even though there were some things that I found a bit strange, nothing big, but…

So drinking and cuddling led to a bit more, a few more drinks, and by the second half of the movie we are both naked and not watching it any more. Again a few things that were slightly odd, but I just thought it was most probably me, I know what I like and as this was the first time, well, we had to get to know each other and maybe I was just being a bit critical and expecting things.

It was a very hot day and night, the air conditioner was on so the house was pleasantly cool. I have just had a birthday, which depressed me a bit as I turned forty nine and for the last three years I have had the fun of ‘hot flushes’ which, lucky me, I have had exceptionally badly, and I had a few ‘hot flushes’ that evening. So we went and had a shower (my third for the day) then moved to the bedroom.

I surprised myself as I had hurt my back again that day and it was really sore, but I managed many positions and we ‘played’ for quite a few hours. He fell asleep at four am and I went and had another shower and tidied up. (I have insomnia, so I was tired but not sleepy.) I crawled into bed at five thirty and managed to snooze a bit. He woke up at six thirty and went for a shower, then hopped back into bed. We played some more, and then finished our play in the shower, or maybe I should say he finished in the shower. (I was starting to feel a bit water logged by this time, I don’t ever remember ever having so many showers in one day!)

He dried himself then went to get dressed, after I dried I went into the bedroom to put some clothes on, he grabbed his socks and shoes and went to the kitchen to put them on. This must have been around nine, I had asked him if we wanted coffee or anything but he said he had to get to work. He had told me, that as he is basically his own boss, he could get to work when he gets there, but now suddenly he seemed in a big rush to get to work. When I combed my hair and went to the kitchen, he’s asking which door to leave by, so I showed him out through the garage, standing in the driveway he says “Goodbye” jumps in his car and drives off.

I stood there in a bit of a bemused daze thinking, “What happened?”

There were no words of ‘Thanks’, ‘It was nice’, ‘I’ll call you later’, not even a quick kiss goodbye.

I went back inside shaking my head, suddenly feeling that I had just had a “Wham, bam, thank you mam!”

He had known I just had a birthday, he hadn’t brought any flowers, not even a bottle of wine, didn’t even wish me a Happy Birthday. Other little things, we had a cask of wine and had taken it into the lounge room with us, but when he refilled his own glass, mine standing next to it empty, he never filled it. It was obvious he thought he was a terrific lover, but I never achieved an orgasm, even his kisses seemed to stop half way. I can’t even say he left me feeling frustrated, it had just been ‘nice.’

I have not received a phone call, not even a text message on my mobile. Later when I went online, no email and nothing in ICQ, he is always on ICQ Friday night.

So now I am here, writing this, it’s not that I am hurt in the sense that I cared about him, I was only just getting to know him, but the whole scenario, it was like a bad comedy movie.

Now, two days later, I get 2 ICQ messages, then an SMS

ICQ first one = I enjoyed friday morning, I hope you did. Have to stop sleeping with yr dog. I think I got fleas!!! Lol

This is now Monday morning! So I am not impressed and my dog does not have fleas!

ICQ second one = Hi <my name>, are u there? = It's at 10.29 pm

11.45pm I get an SMS message = <My name> are you awake

Needless to say, I have not answered mister sensitive and caring!!

 

[JennyOmanHill]

Hugggs Dragonette

What an asshole (excuse my language, but I could't think of a nicer term to use!)!!

It certainly is a horrible feeling! I felt your misery through your story, and I don't think I'd reply back to him myself! (What could he possibly say anyway??) My birthday was blessed with friends who really care for me, and my darling Oman surprised me with a wonderful gift package! Not to even get a "happy birthday" out of this guy is appalling to me!

Any friend would refill your wine glass!

You certainly deserve a lot better!! Thanks for sharing this story, and know that you have real friends here who care for you. I know... it's not a physical comfort, but it certainly helps me to be able to log on and write things out of my system.

This is a lonely Xmas for me too, but we'll get through it. Best wishes for much better things in the new year!

 

[midas2001]

awwwwwwwwwwww

dragonette...

What can we say, It seems sometimes as though the whole world against us huh?

Sounds like you picked the wrong guy... or perhaps he is thinking about this relationship in totally different terms?

Try to keep your chin up though babe... in some ways you and I will both have a X-mas without someone close to us. As jenny said though - we will pull through it !

Midas2001

 

[fantac64]

That's what this site is all about, Dragonette. Lay your soul and heart open and we will wrap you in love and understanding. Our hugs and our prayers will give you strength and show you that where one love goes astray, or when one loved one leaves us, We all share in the sorrow and the hurt. Thank you for allowing us to be your family. We're all here for you and you never have to doubt that. I offer you my hugs, my prayers and my friendship. God bless you and may your holiday be made joyous by the ones that you can reach out to.

 

[Dragonette]

Thank you all!

Thank you Jenny dear, I hope you and Oman will be togethere soon.

Thank you midas2001, I'll pull through
Last few years I have worked over Christmas, so I didn't have the time for miseries, but this year, oh well!
Next year better be better!

Thank you fantac64, I'll take those hugs, thats what I need!

It is lovely to have a family here that send such lovely words to cheer me.

Thank you all and may you all get something lovely for Christmas and may next year be better for us all!

Smiles

 

[Zidane]

Well if there was anything I could give you at this moment, it'd be a sincere hug.

 

[Dragonette]

Moi?

A hug?

Now that is something I could really do with!

And I see that this is your 100, so congrats from losing your virgin status!

Come visit me in my Virtual Literotica Bar, have a drink and say Hi, but it seems very quiet tonight!
But you can pop in and leave a message to me and our friends that are visiting.

Oh, hello LTD, yes, do join in, grab a drink or few!

Grab some more, whatever, for us all!

<chuckles, now there is a thought!>

I'll stick with my poison, already a touch on tiddled, but hey why not! but must have a bit of whatever sense for later!

 

[Dragonette]

Doh

I mixed my messages!

But still means the same!

Come visit me and my friends in the Literotica Bar!
Some friends I know, now a few new ones, come, get a drink, say hello and get comfortable and friendly!

Bring your friends with you!
The more the merrier!

http://www.literotica.com/forum/showthread.php?s=&postid=984039#post984039

 

[Ladybird]

weeps...

dragonette...
Try to keep your chin up though babe... in some ways you and I will both have a X-mas without someone close to us. As jenny said though - we will pull through it !

Lets make that a threesome then Midas. My lover of a few weeks is away, and my family spread around the world this year.

Who will join me for Christmas Dinner?.... no one.

This is my first Christmas without the love of my partner and family around me.

I feel your pain Dragonette... and share it honey. It's a tough time of the year when you're alone, isn't it.

 

[JennyOmanHill]

Counting my blessings

Lets make that a threesome then Midas. My lover of a few weeks is away, and my family spread around the world this year.
Who will join me for Christmas Dinner?.... no one.
This is my first Christmas without the love of my partner and family around me.
I feel your pain Dragonette... and share it honey. It's a tough time of the year when you're alone, isn't it.

Still trying hard not to wish any more of my life away! Thought a bit earlier that my holiday would soon be over if I really were in Oz!! Instead it is just beginning.

But I'm in touch with darling Oman. Even though he'll be heading to his family tomorrow, we have each other's hearts and we still feel "connected" even though we're apart.

Called my Mom already. I was with her this time last year, and really thought I'd have my life more together by now.

Being alone isn't really that bad, but it can be very frightening. We're all "linked" through Lit now; not at all the same comfort of having someone to hold, but an important one just the same. Thank you all for helping me have a much happier and heart-warming holiday than I ever expected.

 

[Absoluthoyt]

have a happy holidays everyone there are nice guys/girls out there still

 

[Ladybird]

Well... Christmas Day has been and gone. A day I've been dreading for weeks.. and guess what...

It was ok!!

None of the pain or misery that I expected hit me.

It was just another day. No different from the one before.

What a relief.

So now.. I wish lots of love and hugs to all for a really really good 2002. A year that will be full of love..happiness..hope..good health..and prosperity.