Nobody Special's wife
Just Peeking
- Joined
- Nov 3, 2000
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"HOW COULD YOU?"
> When I was a puppy I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh.
> You called me your child and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple
> of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend. Whenever I was "bad,"
> you'd shake your finger at me and ask "How could you?" -- but then you'd
> relent and roll me over for a bellyrub.
>
> My housetraining took a little longer than expected, because you were
> terribly busy, but we worked on that together. I remember those nights of
> nuzzling you in bed, listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I
> believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walks
> and runs in the park, car rides, stops for ice cream (I only got the cone
> because "ice cream is bad for dogs," you said), and I took long naps in the
> sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day.
>
> Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career, and
> more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently, comforted
> you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you about bad
> decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in
> love.
>
> She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" -- still I welcomed her into our
> home, tried to show her affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because you
> were happy.
>
> Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I was
> fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to mother
> them, too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I spent
> most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate. Oh, how I
> wanted to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love." As they began to
> grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up
> on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears and gave me
> kisses on my nose. I loved everything about them and their touch -- because
> your touch was now so infrequent -- and I would have defended them with my
> life if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries
> and secret dreams. Together we waited for the sound of your car in the
> driveway.
>
> There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog, that you
> produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories about me.
> These past few years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I
> had gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog," and you resented every
> expenditure on my behalf.
>
> Now you have a new career opportunity in another city, and you and they
> will be moving to an apartment that does not allow pets. You've made the
> right decision for your "family," but there was a time when I was your only
> family. I was excited about the car ride until we arrived at the animal
> shelter. It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness. You filled
> out the paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for her." They
> shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understand the realities facing a
> middle-aged dog or cat, even one with "papers."
>
> You had to pry your son's fingers loose from my collar as he screamed "No,
> Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried for him, and what
> lessons you had just taught him about friendship and loyalty, about love
> and responsibility, and about respect for all life. You gave me a goodbye
> pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and politely refused to take my collar
> and leash with you. You had a deadline to meet and now I have one, too.
>
> After you left, the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your
> upcoming move months ago and made no attempt to find me another good home.
> They shook their heads and asked, "How could you?" They are as attentive to
> us here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow. They feed us, of
> course, but I lost my appetite days ago. At first, whenever anyone passed
> my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it was you -- that you had changed
> your mind -- that this was all a bad dream... or I hoped it would at least
> be someone who cared, anyone who might save me. When I realized I could not
> compete with the frolicking for attention of happy puppies, oblivious to
> their own fate, I retreated to a far corner and waited.
>
> I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day and I padded
> along the aisle after her to a separate room. A blissfully quiet room. She
> placed me on the table, rubbed my ears and told me not to worry. My heart
> pounded in anticipation of what was to come, but there was also a sense of
> relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days. As is my nature, I was
> more concerned about her. The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her
> and I know that, the same way I knew your every mood.
>
> She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her
> cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many
> years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein. As I felt
> the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay down
> sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured, "How could you?" Perhaps
> because she understood my dogspeak, she said, "I'm so sorry." She hugged me
> and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I went to a better
> place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend
> for myself -- a place of love and light so very different from this earthly
> place.
>
> With my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my
> tail that my "How could you?" was not meant for her. It was you, My Beloved
> Master, I was thinking of. I will think of you and wait for you forever.
> May everyone in your life continue to show you so much loyalty. -- Jim
> Willis
>
> When I was a puppy I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh.
> You called me your child and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple
> of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend. Whenever I was "bad,"
> you'd shake your finger at me and ask "How could you?" -- but then you'd
> relent and roll me over for a bellyrub.
>
> My housetraining took a little longer than expected, because you were
> terribly busy, but we worked on that together. I remember those nights of
> nuzzling you in bed, listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I
> believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walks
> and runs in the park, car rides, stops for ice cream (I only got the cone
> because "ice cream is bad for dogs," you said), and I took long naps in the
> sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day.
>
> Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career, and
> more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently, comforted
> you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you about bad
> decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in
> love.
>
> She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" -- still I welcomed her into our
> home, tried to show her affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because you
> were happy.
>
> Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I was
> fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to mother
> them, too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I spent
> most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate. Oh, how I
> wanted to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love." As they began to
> grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up
> on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears and gave me
> kisses on my nose. I loved everything about them and their touch -- because
> your touch was now so infrequent -- and I would have defended them with my
> life if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries
> and secret dreams. Together we waited for the sound of your car in the
> driveway.
>
> There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog, that you
> produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories about me.
> These past few years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I
> had gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog," and you resented every
> expenditure on my behalf.
>
> Now you have a new career opportunity in another city, and you and they
> will be moving to an apartment that does not allow pets. You've made the
> right decision for your "family," but there was a time when I was your only
> family. I was excited about the car ride until we arrived at the animal
> shelter. It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness. You filled
> out the paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for her." They
> shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understand the realities facing a
> middle-aged dog or cat, even one with "papers."
>
> You had to pry your son's fingers loose from my collar as he screamed "No,
> Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried for him, and what
> lessons you had just taught him about friendship and loyalty, about love
> and responsibility, and about respect for all life. You gave me a goodbye
> pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and politely refused to take my collar
> and leash with you. You had a deadline to meet and now I have one, too.
>
> After you left, the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your
> upcoming move months ago and made no attempt to find me another good home.
> They shook their heads and asked, "How could you?" They are as attentive to
> us here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow. They feed us, of
> course, but I lost my appetite days ago. At first, whenever anyone passed
> my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it was you -- that you had changed
> your mind -- that this was all a bad dream... or I hoped it would at least
> be someone who cared, anyone who might save me. When I realized I could not
> compete with the frolicking for attention of happy puppies, oblivious to
> their own fate, I retreated to a far corner and waited.
>
> I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day and I padded
> along the aisle after her to a separate room. A blissfully quiet room. She
> placed me on the table, rubbed my ears and told me not to worry. My heart
> pounded in anticipation of what was to come, but there was also a sense of
> relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days. As is my nature, I was
> more concerned about her. The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her
> and I know that, the same way I knew your every mood.
>
> She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her
> cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many
> years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein. As I felt
> the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay down
> sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured, "How could you?" Perhaps
> because she understood my dogspeak, she said, "I'm so sorry." She hugged me
> and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I went to a better
> place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend
> for myself -- a place of love and light so very different from this earthly
> place.
>
> With my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my
> tail that my "How could you?" was not meant for her. It was you, My Beloved
> Master, I was thinking of. I will think of you and wait for you forever.
> May everyone in your life continue to show you so much loyalty. -- Jim
> Willis
>