The tide changes

[Marquis]

Law school orientation begins this week, and a summer of fun and frolick is quickly coming to an end.

This year has been quite intense, as all my years seem to be. I have learned a lot, and hopefully taught a thing or two. I have laughed hard, and cried quietly. I have made and lost friends. I have fallen in love, and broken my own heart. I have taken some steps backwards and hopefully a few more steps forward.

If I have any sense, I won't be posting as much as I used to, but good sense has always taken a backseat to impulse and desire in my life.

Nevertheless, something is changing in me and I can feel it. It makes me very sad. With every breath I feel like I am exhaling some part of me that I once loved and will soon be gone forever. Is it youth I'm losing? Innocence?

I try to hold my breath long enough to enjoy one last joint, one last drink, one last meaningless sexual conquest. Eventually the discomfort of stagnation is louder than the soft comforting murmurs of drugs caressing my diseased brain. The tips of the models' fingers start to feel like icicles running up and down my spine.

It seems to be the neverending paradox of my life that the more I have access to, the less my conscience will allow me to indulge in.

I have conquered the world I once wanted a part of, and all its inhabitants. The shadowy corners I once tip-toed into excitedly hold no mystery for me now. Despite this, I haven't felt this much like a child in years. I am at the beginning of a new journey now, and barely looking into the doorway. I am small again, and ignorant. I am back at the bottom of a new pyramid, the lowest link on a new food chain.

But I grow quickly, and I adapt well. I sacrifice mercilessly and I fight with ferocity.

Bring it on.

 

[rosco rathbone]

The tips of the models' fingers start to feel like icicles running up and down my spine.

Poor baby.

We'll be expecting top marks out of you, and Dean's List. So sharpen those No.2 pencils and get the argyle sweatervest out of the mothballs.

 

[Killishandra]

Good luck to you as you start school again, Marquis... Despite being a lowly 1st year, I cannot see you as a bottom-feeder for long. I'm sure your leadership potential and intelligence will be recognized and appreciated in that environment.

I start school in one week, I hope you can wish a little luck this way. I'm no longer doing any work except real estate appraisals, so I will (hopefully) be able to start bringing my GPA up significantly.

As for you... Kick-butt in school! Show them nerdy wanna-be lawyers who's going to be their boss in 10 years! LOL











I believe in you all the way, ku'u ipo.

 

[Sir_Winston54]

I'm quite sure you'll both (Marq & Killi) do very well in school. We'll be looking forward to your first-term grade reports around Christmas time... they could determine what you get, yanno!

 

[Netzach]

I want my MFA. Damn.

 

[Red Sonja]

Law school

As a grad of law school myself... if there is anything I can do (besides pictures) like old outlines or explaining the power and beauty of Gilberts, let me know.

Relax, Marquis... all you need is about 8 good days. These good days should be during finals as nothing else counts, really.

Seriously, as long as you don't need someone to explain the rule against perpetuities...

 

[babiesmiles]

Good luck Marquis . Enjoy it ! b.

 

[graceanne]

I just so can't imagine deliberately going to school gain. *shudders*

On the other hand, I'm positive you'll do fine. And killi. Nothing wrong with either of your abilities to learn.

 

[Marquis]

Poor baby.

We'll be expecting top marks out of you, and Dean's List. So sharpen those No.2 pencils and get the argyle sweatervest out of the mothballs.

It's pink polos and palm pilots these days, but thanks anyway. I'll try not to dissapoint.

 

[canadiancutie]

I think it would be kinda funny if you dropped out of law school...but I have an odd sense of humour

 

[Xelebes]

There's too many lawyers anyways.

But... I'm still trying to save up for school myself. Argh... it's taking too long!

 

[Marquis]

Good luck to you as you start school again, Marquis... Despite being a lowly 1st year, I cannot see you as a bottom-feeder for long. I'm sure your leadership potential and intelligence will be recognized and appreciated in that environment.

I start school in one week, I hope you can wish a little luck this way. I'm no longer doing any work except real estate appraisals, so I will (hopefully) be able to start bringing my GPA up significantly.

As for you... Kick-butt in school! Show them nerdy wanna-be lawyers who's going to be their boss in 10 years! LOL


I believe in you all the way, ku'u ipo.

Thanks for the vote of confidence babe.

I'm going to project mad luck your way, via the astral, Monday morning as you are starting classes. Hopefully I'll get the time difference thing right.


If you have a reeeeeaaaaalllly good dream, I guess I fucked up.

 

[Marquis]

I'm quite sure you'll both (Marq & Killi) do very well in school. We'll be looking forward to your first-term grade reports around Christmas time... they could determine what you get, yanno!

I promise I will probably show my report card if my grades are good, maybe.

 

[Guest]

 

[Marquis]

As a grad of law school myself... if there is anything I can do (besides pictures) like old outlines or explaining the power and beauty of Gilberts, let me know.

Relax, Marquis... all you need is about 8 good days. These good days should be during finals as nothing else counts, really.

Seriously, as long as you don't need someone to explain the rule against perpetuities...

Good to know I have a resource around just in case. 8 whole days huh?

 

[Marquis]

Good luck Marquis . Enjoy it ! b.

Thanks.

 

[Marquis]

I think it would be kinda funny if you dropped out of law school...but I have an odd sense of humour

If other opportunities knock loud enough....

Or if I just fuck up.

 

[Guest]

 

[canadiancutie]

If other opportunities knock loud enough....

Or if I just fuck up.

I'm gonna vote on the latter...but hey! I'm a jerk.

 

[jasonlf]

I'm a jerk.

Guys can be jerks, women can be bitches.

You aren't a jerk.

 

[canadiancutie]

Guys can be jerks, women can be bitches.

You aren't a jerk.

sexist pig.

 

[Technodivinitas]

...With every breath I feel like I am exhaling some part of me that I once loved and will soon be gone forever. Is it youth I'm losing? Innocence?

Hopefully it's not Dominance... You as a sub? NZ'd be thrilled I imagine, but the rest of us would probably be crying over it!

You'll be missed when you're away, and I know for certain, very happily recieved when you remember to visit. It's been good getting to know you.


He'll be back. You know he will.

 

[Marquis]

Do you guys have any fucking idea how early this is?

Torturous!

 

[chris9]

Do you guys have any fucking idea how early this is?

Torturous!

Are you telling me that law school starts early? That, indeed, is torturous!!! My earliest lectures started at nine, and in first semester, while living with my parents, that meant getting up at 6. I managed for a month... Good things we didn't have to attend those lectures!
Honestly, for every student except those at med school, starting earlier than 11 is barbaric.
And med students are insane, or they would be studying something else.
Anyway, good luck to you!

 

[foxinsox]

<snip> Nevertheless, something is changing in me and I can feel it. It makes me very sad. With every breath I feel like I am exhaling some part of me that I once loved and will soon be gone forever. Is it youth I'm losing? Innocence?

Your entire post resonated, but these words most of all, mostly cos my year has been a bit intense as well.

Someone a lot more insightful than I once said that the only constant is change, and it's true.

And I guess change combined with growth means that some bits of us have to be left behind to make space for the new -- it's always a wrench. Sometimes the hardest thing of all is not holding on, but letting go.

You're an intelligent and engaging man and I'm sure you'll be successful at whatever intellectual pursuit you turn your mind to. But importantly, you seem to able to recognize and learn the lessons the universe throws your way. That sort of insight is just as valuable as any college education, if not moreso.

Be well