The second time around (closed for McKenna and myself)

prometheus 2

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Dear Emma,

Was as far as he could get and his mind went
blank. It wasn't usually this way with him. He enjoyed writing letters short stories,articles, editorials, most of all poetry, that was his real love and he'd written several very good poems in the last two weeks. Somehow he felt Emma had inspired him. The two day he had spent with her at the writers retreat had left him with an unbelievable amount of creative energy and it was Emma who had helped him bring it out.

Why then was it so hard for him to write this simple letter to her. Well there were several, he surmised but the main one was, he never did really tell her how he felt even after making love with her, even after sharing his innermost feelings with her, he couldn't bring himself to say three simple words, He had felt it, he had sensed that she felt it too. They had shared it with their bodies and their minds, even their spirits but neither one of them had said the words. She was waiting for him no doubt, had he been waiting for her? Whatever the reason the words were never spoken.

" He thought back on those two days. There seemed to be a need to fulfill even from the begining, from their first conversation. A need to make haste as if they only had two days to make the magic happen. The magic that started right at the beginging. And it did happen. The first afternoon in the bright sunlight of a beautiuful fall day it couldn't have been more perfect this coming together, this magic, as if it was meant to be.

After that first time it was easier. They seemed to have more time to share the magic and time for reflecting and writing and sharing the other kinds of exctiement that two people destined to be together share. Holding hands, walking, sharing ideas, feelings, reading each others wwriting writing for each other. He grinned thinking about that night together.They had made a simple meal in their room. tea and sandwiches a salad from greans they had picked from the garden. They had washed up the few dishes thye had dirtied in a small basin their bodies touching off and on as their hands were busy tiding up. He remembered he'd grown impatinet feeling so close to her knowing that when they finished they would make love once more. At her instruction he took the scraps and peelings to the compost pile outside and hurried back missing her for just the few minutes he was gone.

He lauged outloud to himself as he remembered her suddenly getting shy and slipping quickly into her flannel nightgown and crawling between the covers.

He sat on his bunk to undress himself leaning back to kick off his boots. "Crash!" the bed fell apart under his weight. she looked out from beneath the covers and giggled. Then her face got serious and she beckoned him to join her in her little bunk. He crawled in trying not to bump or jostle her too much and she turned her back to him so he could get settled. "There isn't much room Hank, just put your arms around me and hold me for a while till I warm up. He had to admit it was quite cold and so he snuggled up behind her and pulled the covers over their heads.


The sound of the teakettle singing interupted his thoughts and as he poured his tea and stirred it with a spoon it came to him. " A poem! I'll write a poem, if I can't write a letter I'll write a poem"

Dear Emma he began again

Spoons

The small talk over
we busied ourselves tying up loose ends
You because that’s the way you wanted it
me because I knew you needed it that way

“Take out the garbage”
your voice was authoritative but your smile
softened the request
it always will

together we finished the dishes
by then I’d grown impatient
sensing this you
encouraged me with a look, a touch

Your eyes said it won’t be long now
and suddenly
The silverware I was putting away
became erotic

forks with tangled tines
knives face to face
spoons concave to convex
clinging tenaciously

Later, before the warm blankets
lulled us into sleep
I found the hollow of your back
pulling you into one more embrace
I thought of spoons

Hank
 
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Come'er Shep, Hank hollered. "Ttime to get the mail. The big dog her tail wagging anxiously appeared around the corner of the house and skidded to a stop at Hanks, feet looking up at him with expectant eyes." Heel Shep." Hank said and started off for the mailbox at the end of his driveway a quarter mile away. The dog walked by his side. he smiled down at her.

"Why in tarnation would anyone name this dog Shep to begin with he thought remembering the day he'd picked her out of the lineup at the dog pound a year ago. she was a female dog to begin with and she sure didn’t look much like a sheep dog, skinny dull coat looked like she'd been homeless for some time Sort of a Heinz 55 dog. lots of different flavors in her, big dog though and that’s what Hank had wanted. He didn't care much if she was a watch dog he lived so far out in the sticks no one came around for her to bark at anyway. Turned out she wasn't. She didn't even bark at the mailman when he delivered an oversized package to Hanks door if the weather was bad. Oh, she watched all right she just didn't bark. That was all right by Hank he liked it quiet. he tried to rename her after they told him she had a collar that said Shep on it and she answered to that name but to no avail Lady or Lassie, Goldy or Missy, just wouldn't work it had to be Shep before she'd come running. Hank got used to the idea and they were inseparable from that day on. Well, most of the time, sometimes when he was on tour if the accommodations weren't right she stayed home. He made sure she had plenty of fresh water and food and her warm house to bed down in and she'd be waiting for him when he returned. Or a writers retreat like a month ago. "I wonder if there’s a letter today from Emma he said halfheartedly. Shep looked at him with big sorrowful eyes as if she knew all about Emma. She did of course. Hank had shared every detail of that weekend retreat with Emma and she had been there when Hank wrote that letter to her a month ago. She had wagged her tail encouragingly as they made their way to the mailbox to post it. I wonder if she'll ever write back. He patted Sheps head as they watched a deer cross their path a hundred yards ahead. "Good girl." He was lucky to have her for company, sometimes it got mighty lonely out here by himself and after that weekend retreat a month ago seemed even more so. One thing his writing was going well and he had a chance to spend the holidays with friends in California while he signed books and did a few readings up and down the coast.

If only she had written. Maybe they could have figured out some way for her to be there too. It would be fun to have her with, "Sorry Shep you'll have to stay in town at the kennel. It'll be too cold in December and January for you here alone."

It was already after thanksgiving and the tour started in two week maybe, just maybe, if there was a letter today he could write back in time to let her know of his plans. Not having a phone made it hard for him to keep in contact with people and he wished he had one now. He'd call her. "That's a damn lame excuse." he said. "Hhe could get in his pickup and go to town and call. Trouble was he was scared to. Things change. What if she answered and asked, “ Hank who?” or worse yet what if a man answered. A letter was better she could do what she wanted with it.”Oh shit! quit fooling yourself Hank, if she hasn't written by now she's never going to, got better things to do than hang around with a cowboy poet.”

A cold wind came up and he walked faster finally reaching the mailbox and opening it up to look inside. He pulled out a pile, the usual junk mail a letter from his cousin in Seattle, the usual bills. No letter from Emma. Shep whined feeling Hanks sadness. Then she put her nose to the ground and started pushing the dried leaves around. "What is it Shep what'ca got down there he bent down and retrieved a small handwritten envelope from Sheps mouth it was weathered form being in the weather and muddied by the fall rain but he knew right away who it was from. He looked at the postmark October 27th Oh Lord he shouted she did write a month ago? Oh shit. It must have slipped out and fell without me noticing “Damn it Hank Ya really screwed up this time. He stuffed the mail in side his coat and hurried to the house.

He tried to read her poem four times before he could see through his mist filled eyes enough to finish. She had poured out her heart to him in the most touching way and now she had waited a whole month. He sighed a long drawn out sigh. "What was he to do? She'd written him right back. What could she be thinking? Should he run into town and call. Use the computer at the library and e-mail her? No it had been a month another day or two wouldn’t' matter what mattered is that he write. He opened the cover on his electric typewriter and began with a poem. After that he'd decide if he should tell her about the tour and about misplacing her letter.

Dear Emma,


"Damn it!" He shouted, causing Shep to jump up from her blanket on the floor. He crumpled up the letter he couldn’t write and tossed it in the waste basket. The pen went next, but instead of in the wastebasket it sailed across the room and rolled under the bookcase. Shep followed its flight and then walked slowly over and dug the pen out with her front paws. she picked it up carefully with her mouth and trotted over to Hank “yeah Shep I know I gotta do this, maybe in the morning you know I’m more creative in the morning. Shep seemed to know as she moved back to her blanket and settled in for the evening. Hank got ready for bed and settled in with a good book until he got tired enough to sleep.

The next morning Shep was at his bedside waiting for their walk and Hank let her out telling her he was finally ready to write that letter they would walk later. He made coffee and got to right to it.
he tought of that last time he saw her looked in her eyes he wanted now to so badly go back to that time and place and say those three words "I love you!" he said them now. Shep perked up her ears at the sudden sound and then looked at the pen in Hanks raised hand waiting for him to put those words on the paper. But Hank knew he couldn't. She had to be there when he said them. He had to be looking in her eyes as he told her his feelings. he just couldn't write them. Instead he penned a poem for her again hoping she'd at least know he was thinking of her.

Dear Emma


I have to go, you said, you went
and for a while, my time was spent
remembering our last embrace
your eyes, the look on your sad face

the silent question on your lips
the tension in your fingertips
my questions as I pulled away
not knowing quite what I should say

would promises, commitments, bring
us back together in the spring?
and if they did, would we then see
ourselves,each other, differently

then in your eyes I saw a spark
that I was sure came from your heart
and in my heart there was a glow
that strong and sure began to grow.

Though bitter winter blows about
and time and distance causes doubt
The glow that lies beneath the cold
will keep alive the seed we sowed

gentle winds, forgiving rain
will bring us back once more, again
to till the soil around the glow
to give it life and make it grow


Hank

Ps I'm sorry about the late response. Emma, you wouldn't believe what happened. I'll explain later the important thing now is to get this letter off to you and tell you how very much I miss you and I want to see you again, but I'm going to be going on tour to California in two weeks, and well if you could join me but then ...well let me know oh hell heres a hug. ((((Hug))))), again ,please forgive me for the late reply. Emma..... I....sure do miss you, write back we could spend January in southern California it would be just like spring....,gotta get this in the mail ....

He wrote this all in one long thought, anxious to get it out, afraid he'd clam up and not ask her for fear of being ..... Hell he didnt't know what he was afraid of. He practically ran to the mailbox, afraid again of what....?
 
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In the next few days there was a sense of urgency in the air as Hank moved about the house doing the usual tasks that prepared him for the change of seasons. He grinned knowing it wasn’t the usual changing of seasons that brought this flurry of activity to the surface.

He had gotten Emma’s letter On Monday, elated that she was able and willing to spend some time with him while he was on tour in Southern California. It was already Friday, there was so much to do, so many plans to make. He hadn’t written her back yet . He needed to find out from his agent what his itinerary would be before he made arrangements to meet her. He needed to make sure every thing was in order.

He chuckled thinking about his first poem to her. Men and women weren't so different they just had different priorities, sometimes. They both had the same needs; sex, love, security. And they both needed to get their houses in order, the dishes done, before they were ready to fulfill those needs.

When he finally did get the information he needed he wrote the letter.


Dear Emma,

We’ll go then
to California, because
I don’t want to wait
for winters chill to temper me
until the rush of passion
in the spring

I’m ready
to bring the flower of love
to blossom
ignoring the season of dormancy.
wanting it all today

Together
we’ll find the nourishment
we need
to bring to maturity
the seed
cast hastily our way last fall


Hank scratched his head. Why was it that he could speak his heart in a poem but yet not be able to share his feelings in ordinary words? He’d made love to this woman, he should know his feelings and be able to share them verbally. What was he afraid of? Rejection? She had accepted his body his passion, why wouldn’t she accept his words? She’d shared her passion, her body with him. Didn’t that mean she felt the same. Maybe they both needed more time, but not apart, they needed to be together, the short weekend they had was not enough. He needed to be with her, to look in her eyes and to hold her hands in his when he told her. For now he just had to make it happen. He continued the letter.

I’m leaving for San Diego by plane on Monday the 19 th. Two days there, signing books. I’ll call you when I get there.

Hank



Shep followed him to the mail box her nose close to the ground as if to make sure he didn’t drop the letter.
 
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