DreamingOfMyEx
Really Really Experienced
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- Feb 20, 2019
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Well dammit, I’m starting this journal again. I’m not sure why. The last time I tried documenting everything, thinking it would help to express my feelings to “someone” (even if that someone was a spiral notebook) it would help. Like a pressure release valve. It didn’t help, it only made me feel worse – like I was reliving it all over again. So why am I doing this now? I’m not sure – though I’m telling myself that it might someday help to have a record of dates and events. I keep telling myself (or is it just a fantasy?) that eventually justice will prevail.
I saw her again yesterday, from a distance, in the grocery store parking lot. I know it was her, I recognized the car – the new car we bought just before she divorced me. The car I’m still making the payments on (in addition to the alimony). Meanwhile, I’ve had to start parking on an incline wherever I go because the starter is shot and the battery is almost as bad. At least it’s got a standard transmission, so I can roll it downhill and pop the clutch to get it started.
Fuck! My life sucks.
To top it off, she’sfucking lost weight and … fuck. Fuck fuck fuck fuck. Heads were turning as she strutted to her car. I could see her boobs jiggling as she walked. She was even in high heels. What woman wears high heels to go grocery shopping? Or a dress that hugs her ass? She never made an effort to look that good for me. Well, not in the later years anyway. She only started paying attention to diet and exercise about the same time she brought up getting divorced – like she was preparing herself to be single again. I did everything I could to make the marriage wo… well shit, no sense reliving that again.
I’m pretty sure she didn’t see me, even though the car is hard to miss, with the large rust spots and half a fender missing. That’s probably because she’s a self-absorbed narcissistic bitch. I remember that look she gave me, that smug little smirk last time she saw me in thatpiece of shit car. No don’t, don’t relive shit like that.
So anyway, I dreamed about her again last night.Shit! Don’t write about that either.
Okay, well, I started the journal. It’s time to get ready for work and I’m going to show up an hour early in the hope of getting in a few more hours this week.
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After crossing out the "inappropriate language" contained in Entry #1, Daniel Morris closed his new journal and prepared to take a shower before work. Just before stepping into the tiny tub his phone dinged to notify him of an incoming text. That sound always made him nervous. It wasn’t as if he had a lot of friends texting him – so the big fear was it might be work related, like a message telling him not to bother coming in that evening. Something like that could be devastating, given his financial situation. When he checked the screen, he found it was something far more sinister. The ID read “Bitch”.
Strange, his ex wife hasn’t communicated with him in months.
I saw her again yesterday, from a distance, in the grocery store parking lot. I know it was her, I recognized the car – the new car we bought just before she divorced me. The car I’m still making the payments on (in addition to the alimony). Meanwhile, I’ve had to start parking on an incline wherever I go because the starter is shot and the battery is almost as bad. At least it’s got a standard transmission, so I can roll it downhill and pop the clutch to get it started.
To top it off, she’s
I’m pretty sure she didn’t see me, even though the car is hard to miss, with the large rust spots and half a fender missing. That’s probably because she’s a self-absorbed narcissistic bitch. I remember that look she gave me, that smug little smirk last time she saw me in that
So anyway, I dreamed about her again last night.
Okay, well, I started the journal. It’s time to get ready for work and I’m going to show up an hour early in the hope of getting in a few more hours this week.
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After crossing out the "inappropriate language" contained in Entry #1, Daniel Morris closed his new journal and prepared to take a shower before work. Just before stepping into the tiny tub his phone dinged to notify him of an incoming text. That sound always made him nervous. It wasn’t as if he had a lot of friends texting him – so the big fear was it might be work related, like a message telling him not to bother coming in that evening. Something like that could be devastating, given his financial situation. When he checked the screen, he found it was something far more sinister. The ID read “Bitch”.
Strange, his ex wife hasn’t communicated with him in months.