"The Dangling Conversation" (a story)

bluemouse

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When i reached my 500th post, and became a ~guru~ i was so sweetly invited to share a thread with a dangerously talented writer, Swashbuckler...i wanted to write something epic, something moving and powerful and beautiful...

so, my mind turned to music.

What follows are the lyrics to my favorite Simon and Garfunkel song ~ (thanks to Soron for providing all the words, too!)


"It's a still life water color
of a now late afternoon
As the sun shines through the curtain lace
and shadows wash the room
And we sit and drink our coffee
couched in our indifference,
like shells upon the shore
You can hear the ocean roar
In the dangling conversation
and the superficial sighs
The borders of our lives.

And you read your Emily Dickinson
and I my Robert Frost
And we note our place with bookmarkers
that measure what we've lost
Like a poem poorly written, we are
verses out of rhythm, couples out of rhyme,
In syncopated time
And the dangling conversation
and the superficial sighs
Are the borders of our lives.

Yes, we speak of things that matter
with words that must be said
Can analysis be worthwhile?
Is the theater really dead?
Now the room is softly faded and I
only kiss your shadow
I cannot feel your hand, you're a
stranger now unto me
Lost in the dangling conversation
And the superficial sighs
In the borders of our lives."

This sweet and hauntingly beautiful song by Paul Simon has inspired me to want to know more, to understand the history behind the song, to know how these two people of which it speaks got to where they are in the song.......and since that history is not provided, we have decided to invent it for ourselves.

what will follow is the story of these lovers, i writing the female, Swashbuckler writing the male ~ please feel free to comment and read along the way, but please leave the story to us ~

if we need to reply to a comment, we will title that post as a reply to distinguish it from the story, as it all plays out...

other than that, i hope you all enjoy...
 
Chapter one ~ her's....

Somewhere in the laziness of twilight, as we sat together, yet apart, reading as had become our habit, I felt his eyes linger upon me for a long moment. This was odd indeed. I half wondered what he was thinking, and I wanted badly to look up from my poetry to meet his gaze, I did not know if I could manage it. There had been so many nights, just like this one, with this unnamed, unspoken distance between us.

I think I was afraid of what I would see there, if I would find him longing, as I had been.
A strange fear enveloped me, and I was overwhelmed, in that moment, with the need to toss both of our books aside, to wrap him in my arms, and look deeply into those eyes. I thought, if i did this, I would destroy, once and for all, the silence that had slowly wrapped its tendrils around us over the years.

Yet, I held back. I did not know if that solitary look meant he too was feeling that pull of longing for things as they were so many years ago, or if it was just a moment of boredom that caused his eyes to rove my form. I did not want to take that chance. I returned to my reading, stopping occasionally to speak idly with him about nothing in particular.

But as I went alone to my bed that night, something was changed. Some realization had struck me, some new feeling had awakened. Had I really been asleep so long? Had I really become so numb to our mutual silence, our avoidance, that I could not bear to meet his gaze for fear I would see something in it? Or, was I afraid that I would see nothing at all.

I lay in my bed, wrapped in a soft down comforter, wondering how we had gotten so lost to each other. It hadn't always been this way, I knew that. As I listened to a soft rain begin to fall outside, my thoughts drifted back to our first meeting, nearly 30 years ago...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I was innocent, then, eighteen, and filled with the ideals and dreams that consume a girl so young. I thought then that I would change the world. I spent my days in art school, and my nights at the local coffee shop writing horrible romantic poetry. In the little world of the coffee shop, all of us regulars had our own routines, and our own tables that we would claim each night. One Sunday, I came in at my usual time, and was deeply annoyed to find a stranger sitting at what I considered MY table. I was a bit of a loner, and did not easily join random conversation, and did not quite know how to ask him to move. I must have stared at him for some time, not knowing how to approach him. Finally he looked up at me, and the intensity in his eyes made my breath catch in my throat. He was darkly handsome, and dressed in the style of a poet ~ planned carelessness, I would have named it. He stared at me openly for what must have been only a brief moment, but seemed like so much more. All around me, it was suddenly silent, as if the clatter and conversation had halted and all were witnessing this moment between us. He stood, then, breaking his gaze and the silence.

"I am sorry" He spoke in a deep, slightly rough voice that was oddly filled with tenderness. "Have I taken your table? I am new in town, and don't know the rules yet." With this he gave a disarming smile, and all my annoyance fell away.

"Its...its fine..." I stammered. "I can sit anywhere..."
Regaining my composure, I smiled at him. "Welcome to town."

"Why don't you join me." He said then, with such utter confidence, that I simply nodded, and dropped my backpack next to the table and slid into the chair.

"I see you haven't gotten your coffee yet, and I need a refill...what do you like?" He said.

"Ah...just black...thank you." I replied.

He soon returned with the steaming mugs, and we began to slipped into conversation as though we were best of friends. Hours passed, and it seemed like minutes. We drank cup after cup of coffee, and talked until everyone had left, completely unnoticed, while we sat, rapt in our discovery of each other. We left only when the shop closed, promising to meet the next day, and I walked to my campus apartment with my eyes shining and my head spinning.
 
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REPLY ~

thank you for reading, Mac....it may be a bit between story posts, as Swash is a busy pirate...

thank you for your support, darlin' and yet another place to see that av!!!
 
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NOT THE STORY....

meanwhile, i struggle to figure out how to link this to other places so i can show people where this is?? the cut and paste thing doen't work...any help???
 
sending a *soft,sweet,smile and my love

and support for your thread dear MO,Sis:heart: :rose:
 
reply....

my deepest thanks, dream sis...i've got a Guinness for you ANYTIME!!!
 
Morning

mo ~ Great thread I will be back. Not sure yet why the link didn't work. We'll get it sorted out. Have a great time writing this. :)
 
Great story so far Mouse!

Reposted that link on the Midwest thread for you!
 
Re: REPLY ~

bluemouse said:
thank you for reading, Mac....it may be a bit between story posts, as Swash is a busy pirate...

thank you for your support, darlin' and yet another place to see that av!!!

LOL Mo...someday I will tell you the story behind this av...is a true one too. :D :kiss:
 
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kayte, Lee ~ thanks darlins' you know i love you!!! soooo glad you came by to read!! im terrible with links, so double thanks, Lee

kk ~ thanks!! im glad you enjoyed it!

Mac ~ i can't wait!! "someday??"
 
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bluemouse said:
kayte, Lee ~ thanks darlins' you know i love you!!! soooo glad you came by to read!! im terrible with links, so double thanks, Lee

kk ~ thanks!! im glad you enjoyed it!

Mac ~ i can't wait!! "someday??"

if you are around now...will pm it to ya.....
 
adding my smiling face

and dripping........... *giggle*

:rose: for the writer
 
mayi ~ thanks, dear ~ always a joy to see your smiling face

Mac ~ im here now, ill be here for 30 minutes or so...
 
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mayi said:
and dripping........... *giggle*

:rose: for the writer

yor smiling face is always welcome...and appreciated mayi :kiss: :kiss:
 
bluemouse said:
mayi ~ thanks, dear ~ always a joy to see your smiling face

Mac ~ im here now, ill be here for 30 minutes or so...

check your pms......
 
Chapter one ~ his

I watched as she left her book in her usual place and silently climbed the stairs for bed. The contrasts of light and shadow fluttering over the draped curves of her body nearly filled me with rage. I sat in the opressive and echoing silence that I had somehow became quagmired in routine.

'How long? I mean, when did it start?' I asked myself in the dim silence of my mind. After several minutes of... nothing, I shook my head. I did not really know, perhaps that is the saddest part. Shrugging I rose from the leather confines of my chair and crosed the room. Finally shattering the perfectly maddening calm with the shrill crackle of ice dropping into the glass. I thought with a latent remorse of a memory, as I lifted the glass. How the smoky gold of the scotch still looked like sunset in her eyes. I closed my eyes as The firery liquid washed my lips with its warming glow...

...The sun was setting behind us when she looked over at me. God it was a beautiful end to a beautiful day. The sun looked so warm reflected in her eyes, perfectly paired to the warmth of my soul that day as we sped off for our honeymoon. I grinned beneathe my sunglasses as she smiled so open leaning in closer, closer...nearly driving us off the road as she threw her arms around my neck and crushed her lips to mine. The sound of rushing wind, her sweet laughter, and the clatter of cans on the rocks of the shoulder as I carreened us off the road to a stop...

I set the emptied glass down with a hard hollow clink on the bar. A shaking hand running through my hair. 'What the hell was wrong with me? What happened to drive her in flight, night after night after night? Was she bored with me? I still remember how she used to pursue me, insatable. I remember those nights after returning late from the clubs, my throat charred with cigarettes and strained with the underground screams into microphone for four sets; only four hours away from my first final, ears ringing from non-state of the art, but afordable amps, body so drained I could only think of landing on the mattress and passing out. But there she would be. Opening the door to our ridiculously small apartment with horrid green carpet, dressed only in a transluscent lace gauze, if anything at all. Jumping around me with her legs and arms, just to give the figetty old woman down the hall something to gossip about. I wonder, after all these years how many nights I got no sleep?

Almost laughing to the darkness as I light a smoke, "Almost every night then, for passion..., every night now for lack of..," I cut myself off at this painful sentence as I pulled hard on the butt of the cigarette, its carcenogenic end flaring into a hot red, burning away into the night, silencing my frustration. "I should of never grown up," I rasped with a cloud to the picture of the young woman who used to love me on the wall. "You were so entranced back then, I had you, luv, I had you...then..."

Inhaling to conjure another flaring of the cigarette, shading my face with crimson light in the dark of the room, "I should have never grown old. I was such a fool. I had horrid green carpet, a sweet young nymph, and a motorcycle, and that was about all I had." Rapping the grey, dead tip of the cigarette on the rim of the glass tray; it so like my middle of nowhere life, disintegrated in silence. "But now, I have grown up, go to work, own a home, and have nothing," I said softly adn flatly as I crush out the cigarette, staring at that smile that I so longed to see, just once more.

"You, know, I saw you look up at me once tonight, but you found nothing in the lenses of your wire frames that was more intereswting than those perfectly formulated words in your latest book. I on the other hand," I said with a slightly dismissive wave, "have not been able to read in weeks. I never had so much time to read before, you never let me have it before..." My voice trailed off and I sank like a stone into my hated favorite chair, staring into the nothing that was the lifetime decorated room. The only sound was a lone sigh of frustrated regret.
 
Ditto what Mac said and by the way *Bump*

to the top hehe for 2 of my *fav* people..
Kisses to the ever so sexy Swash for a post very well written ahhhh.Loved it babe!!:kiss: :kiss:
 
Re: Ditto what Mac said and by the way *Bump*

Artful's dream said:
to the top hehe for 2 of my *fav* people..
Kisses to the ever so sexy Swash for a post very well written ahhhh.Loved it babe!!:kiss: :kiss:

what dream said...........
 
WOW

This is way much better than a Stephen King book....

{anxiously waiting her response to his stare........}
 
Wow

Uh, gang, there are only tow posts to this thread and you guys are raving about it. Mo's post was so cool, but really your enthusiasm is overwhelming to me. Thank You all, but still I have only made oen post, its not like I completed Das Capital or something. You are all far too kind, thanks

~Swash~
 
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