The Dance

[poppy1963]

hi poppy

hello va...lol

 

[poppy1963]

some of these responses have touched on what is kind of a problem for me.... or not, but they've made me think about this thing you call "the dance" and why I may or may not do it, beyond the reasons I already stated. I realize that if I talk about it, it may end any hope I ever have of "dancing".

not even sure I can put it into words.......

I understand that flirting is fun. I understand that for most people it's just a harmless diversion that doesn't mean anything. but I think that's also part of why I'm sometimes reluctant to try to get too involved in that sort of thing.

some nights I can be just as harmless and meaningless and fun as anyone else. the problem is that if I'm feeling especially lonely or hurting for some other reason I have to be very careful about things I'll let myself say or feel..... because it's very easy for me to start feeling like it actually means something. like I actually mean something.... know what I mean?

I am the same as you...mrmoon...I fill those spaces with a porn site. But I look for more sometimes.

*shrugs*

I am a REAL person...with needs and wants and limits. I love the sensations and the friendships and the safety. Get it?