BadForm
Bad attitude in any Form
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- Feb 26, 2001
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I draw.
I guess it's because I'm kind of shy that I put my energy into drawing instead of going out and doing things. I don't really have many friends - a few, such as Tommy who sometimes sells my work to galleries for me. I've certainly never had a girlfriend.
Never had one.
Always wanted one.
It wasn't that I was ugly - I was almost six foot tall and liked to keep myself fit and toned. My black hair was short and smooth, my skin lightly bronzed with the sun through the big window of my house.
I guess thats why what I mostly draw is fantasies. Women in sexually enticing poses. The buxom amazon with a giant sword held pointing down between her legs. The river maiden washing herself, the water cascading discretely over her breasts.
Last night I fell asleep working on a new piece. A beautiful maiden, slumped with her head on her knees. A torn shift covered her body but hung down off her shoulder. A manacle with a broken chain captured her ankle. She wept. Perhaps, on some level, she represented me. On the other hand, that was the kind of nonsensical pop-psych you heard on Oprah.
I dreamed that a beautiful voice, more music than words, spoke to me. It said I had been alone too long but would never have the courage to ask a girl out. It said, what you draw will be real.
I woke and shook the sleep from my eyes. Yeah, right. I must have eaten some kind of bad cheese or something to have a dream like that.
I turned back to my picture of the captive and finished shading in her flesh.
Suddenly, from upstairs, I heard a woman sob. Confused, I stood and headed for the hallway.
"Hello?" I said, as I mounted the steps. "Is someone there?"
When I reached the upper landing I blinked in surprise. The woman I had just drawn was sitting by my bedroom door, weeping against her knees.
I guess it's because I'm kind of shy that I put my energy into drawing instead of going out and doing things. I don't really have many friends - a few, such as Tommy who sometimes sells my work to galleries for me. I've certainly never had a girlfriend.
Never had one.
Always wanted one.
It wasn't that I was ugly - I was almost six foot tall and liked to keep myself fit and toned. My black hair was short and smooth, my skin lightly bronzed with the sun through the big window of my house.
I guess thats why what I mostly draw is fantasies. Women in sexually enticing poses. The buxom amazon with a giant sword held pointing down between her legs. The river maiden washing herself, the water cascading discretely over her breasts.
Last night I fell asleep working on a new piece. A beautiful maiden, slumped with her head on her knees. A torn shift covered her body but hung down off her shoulder. A manacle with a broken chain captured her ankle. She wept. Perhaps, on some level, she represented me. On the other hand, that was the kind of nonsensical pop-psych you heard on Oprah.
I dreamed that a beautiful voice, more music than words, spoke to me. It said I had been alone too long but would never have the courage to ask a girl out. It said, what you draw will be real.
I woke and shook the sleep from my eyes. Yeah, right. I must have eaten some kind of bad cheese or something to have a dream like that.
I turned back to my picture of the captive and finished shading in her flesh.
Suddenly, from upstairs, I heard a woman sob. Confused, I stood and headed for the hallway.
"Hello?" I said, as I mounted the steps. "Is someone there?"
When I reached the upper landing I blinked in surprise. The woman I had just drawn was sitting by my bedroom door, weeping against her knees.