That nagging shred of doubt...

[temp256]

I desperately want to become a girl, and hope to finally start hormones in November, but there's still that tiny bit of doubt...

I can't think of anything I actually like about being male, even when given hundreds of suggestions. But still...

Most of my concern is whether I really want to cause so much trouble in my life, if I can deal with all the tortures of transition.

My current thoughts are the hormones will remove my doubt once I see how my change in mood improves my life, and if not I can stop before any permanent changes.

It's only the tiniest bit of doubt, but still...

Any thoughts?

 

[Night_Jasmine]

You're taking a step that is a life altering change. of course there's going to be a shred of doubt. I think I'd be worried if you didn't.

It's human nature to doubt and have fear of change, but you have to do what will make you happy. And if going through this transition is what you truly want - mind, heart, and soul - then go for it and hang on to that happiness with every ounce of strength you have.

Good luck to you - you're gonna need it!

 

[Gi_Venus]

I desperately want to become a girl, and hope to finally start hormones in November, but there's still that tiny bit of doubt...

I can't think of anything I actually like about being male, even when given hundreds of suggestions. But still...

Most of my concern is whether I really want to cause so much trouble in my life, if I can deal with all the tortures of transition.

My current thoughts are the hormones will remove my doubt once I see how my change in mood improves my life, and if not I can stop before any permanent changes.

It's only the tiniest bit of doubt, but still...

Any thoughts?

Hi temp256((((Hug)))) A very real concern, I have read horror stories of transgendered transformation, not all of them are bad. Allowing the people around you to accept your transformation takes time, the best results will be from a gradual shift so that a lot has occured before they realize and by then they may have already accepted much of who you are. Your best bet is to move to an area where you will have support, a viable transgender community, and where you will be accepted best.
I do not have an easy time ahead, I can still pass as male and I do because of my hostile environment. I have elected to transition slowly in appearance and behavior to allow those in my environment to get used to changes....I cannot move because I have a child I am helping to raise, other wise it would be zoom! To a place where things would be easier.
I have been gradually coming out to people, but only those that can be trusted.
I think you need to act, because you have no doubts and to deny yourself the opportunity to be yourself is a shame. I tried to live a lie for much of my life and be a male...it did not work. It sounds like you have already made up your mind.

The hormones will make a difference in your perception, your libido will not be a part of your decisions. Also if you are prone to depression be prepared to face additonal depression.


Gianna

 

[Tymeless]

doubt i have it daily but none of its about being the girl i want to be. most of it is what affect it will have on everyone else around me the people i don't wanna hurt. the things that i'll leave behind once i'm down that path of female. there are certain dreams i have that i can kiss goodbye but at the same time fulfilling other dreams i have!