becca_59
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- Joined
- Jan 8, 2003
- Posts
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What an awesome forum this is. I love the diversity.
I'm not sure if I fit in here or not, but I wanted to test the waters. I make get a few judgement calls about my post, but here goes.
My story--in brief so I won't send anyone reading this to sleep too quickly--My first sexual contact was with a woman. It was a long time ago when I was in high school. I loved it..everything about it. But for whatever reason, I passed it off as curiosity and then began dating guys exclusively. That lasted a couple of years until I was in college. I again found the most incredible sex to be with another woman. I was torn and felt like I needed to choose between men and women. I didn't see being bi as an option then. Giving in to peer pressure, family pressure and countless other pressures, I chose men. I lived the life of a married, heterosexual, "well-adjusted" woman for years. My fantasies always took me back to the women I had made love to though. I didn't act on any of these feelings until many years went by. But, a few years ago, the situation was there, it was all so natural and I began a loving, sexual relationship with another woman,while at the same time, I was married. Sadly, it has ended and I've since moved from the area that she lived in, and so our relationship is now one of dear friends. I'm married and I love sex with my husband, but it's been over three years since I've been with a woman and I miss it.
Over the years, I came to understand that loving both men and women can be wonderful. I know that I miss not having both in my life now.
Ok, so it wasn't as brief as I intended it to be.
I hope to join in here and just have a place to connect.
I'm not sure if I fit in here or not, but I wanted to test the waters. I make get a few judgement calls about my post, but here goes.
My story--in brief so I won't send anyone reading this to sleep too quickly--My first sexual contact was with a woman. It was a long time ago when I was in high school. I loved it..everything about it. But for whatever reason, I passed it off as curiosity and then began dating guys exclusively. That lasted a couple of years until I was in college. I again found the most incredible sex to be with another woman. I was torn and felt like I needed to choose between men and women. I didn't see being bi as an option then. Giving in to peer pressure, family pressure and countless other pressures, I chose men. I lived the life of a married, heterosexual, "well-adjusted" woman for years. My fantasies always took me back to the women I had made love to though. I didn't act on any of these feelings until many years went by. But, a few years ago, the situation was there, it was all so natural and I began a loving, sexual relationship with another woman,while at the same time, I was married. Sadly, it has ended and I've since moved from the area that she lived in, and so our relationship is now one of dear friends. I'm married and I love sex with my husband, but it's been over three years since I've been with a woman and I miss it.
Over the years, I came to understand that loving both men and women can be wonderful. I know that I miss not having both in my life now.
Ok, so it wasn't as brief as I intended it to be.
I hope to join in here and just have a place to connect.