in-between
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- Sep 14, 2003
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It doesn't feel right to label myself a female, but I mostly do irl, so for the sake of honesty I'll do that here too. Online I mostly label myself male, although that's not true either.
What I want to discuss here is my attraction to gay men, especially one, but it's a general thing. For me, this is breaking a taboo. I feel ashamed, because my feelings are making it difficult for a friend of mine (and of course me). I'm not sure if it could be comared to the feeling of a gay man falling in love with a straight man. I ask myself: Who am I to fall in love with someone who has enough trouble with this already? And the terrible word faghag comes to mind...
My last boyfriend and I broke up recently after 6 years. One of the reasons were my attempt to introduce him to assplay. I didn't want to be the girl in the relationship. I won't go in detail, but the discussions were painful for both of us.
I won't say I'm a TS, because I don't think I'm actually a man. I would never (I think) get an operation and I love my breasts.
My friend, who I've just told that I'm in love with, don't know any of this. One night he said he probably would hav fallen in love with me if I were a man and I started to cry. He's also read many of my erotic stories, mostly on gay sex or including a confused woman.
Should I tell him? Should I go kill myself for being a bitch? (Probably wouldn't do that, though...) Or just keep pretending I'm a pseudo-normal girl?
What I want to discuss here is my attraction to gay men, especially one, but it's a general thing. For me, this is breaking a taboo. I feel ashamed, because my feelings are making it difficult for a friend of mine (and of course me). I'm not sure if it could be comared to the feeling of a gay man falling in love with a straight man. I ask myself: Who am I to fall in love with someone who has enough trouble with this already? And the terrible word faghag comes to mind...
My last boyfriend and I broke up recently after 6 years. One of the reasons were my attempt to introduce him to assplay. I didn't want to be the girl in the relationship. I won't go in detail, but the discussions were painful for both of us.
I won't say I'm a TS, because I don't think I'm actually a man. I would never (I think) get an operation and I love my breasts.
My friend, who I've just told that I'm in love with, don't know any of this. One night he said he probably would hav fallen in love with me if I were a man and I started to cry. He's also read many of my erotic stories, mostly on gay sex or including a confused woman.
Should I tell him? Should I go kill myself for being a bitch? (Probably wouldn't do that, though...) Or just keep pretending I'm a pseudo-normal girl?