StacyCD39
Sweet little cum princess
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- Jan 24, 2011
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I need to share this, and Lit has been the most wonderful and supportive place, I thought there's really no better place to share it.
I have finally accepted I'm a woman. Finally. I'm done trying to reconcile what's inside. In my heart and soul, I know I'm all woman, but my body isn't-and that's okay, because I believe that like Yoda says in Empire Strikes Back, "Luminous beings are we, not this crude matter."
This realization came last night, and it was simply the most wonderful, euphoric experience I've ever felt.
I'd edged for hours, yesterday, at work, and coming home to my apartment, I started reading on Lit. I was ultra-horny, so I poured a glass of wine, ran a bubble bath, and just sat there and soaked, letting all my stresses just melt away. I started rubbing my clit (from now on, I'm not calling it a 'sissyclit/cockclit/boiclit' or any other derivative. I'm a woman. It's a clit. It's just shaped different than other girls and works a bit differently!
Anyway, I started rubbing my clit. You may or may not know, that I'm so attuned to my body that I'm able to differentiate when I'm going to have an orgasm and when I'm physically going to ejaculate fluid. I'm able to bring myself multiple orgasms this way in a long period, and when I do finally allow myself to squirt, the sensation is purely overwhelming.
After two orgasms in the bathtub, I shaved my pussy smooth. I love the feeling of being smooth and sexy! I put on my sexiest outfit, my black teddy and thong set from Victoria's Secret and my black spike heels. I then returned to Lit for some 'me time'. I sat at my desk the entire time, like the woman I am, legs crossed, my hand frequently finding its way into my panties to give my clit a quick rub, making sure I stayed on edge.
But then, something remarkable happened. I was posting on the "Currently Masturbating" thread, and watching this video (I have it as my signature, which by the way, is the most romantic, erotic, beautiful thing I've ever seen), I started having another orgasm. Except this time, I was not touching myself.
It just started happening, it simply washed over me. My clit started violently twitching, my heart began racing, like it was going to pound right out of my chest, my cheeks felt flushed, I felt weak in the knees, and my head was spinning. It was like I was lost in the clouds, deprived of oxygen...euphoric.
This went on for what was easily five minutes.
When I finally came down, I started crying. Literally. Not tears of sadness, but tears of joy. Imagine someone walking in on me! They would see a grown man, dressed in lingerie and high heels weeping. I really didn't care if anyone would have, because I have finally accepted the fact that I am, a woman. My body, which I have been cursing for having been given, finally accepted what's going on internally, and began manifesting itself physically, externally. It's like, my physical body finally accepted that I'm a woman internally, and reacted accordingly, and the combination of the two working in concert was a dramatic paradigm shift. An awakening, if you will.
I turned the computer off, and took off my teddy and thong, and went to lay on my bed. I began imagining that I was with my boyfriend/lover, and he gently spread my soft, silky legs open and began fondling me. I started rubbing my clit, with two fingers, just under the tip, and the sensation was more than I could bear. Only this time, I didn't deny myself, I let my clit experience it all, orgasm, and ejaculation. At the climax of my passion, I couldn't contain myself any longer, I began moaning, softly at first, then rising as the sensations on my clit grew. I began repeating, almost like a mantra, over and over, "I'm a girl. I'm a girl." Only when my clit erupted in both orgasm and fluid did I realize I was literally screaming, probably so loudly that everyone in my apartment building could hear, "I'M A GIRL! I'M A GIRL!"
So massive were the explosions of fluid from my clit, that it sprayed all over my chest, all the way to my neck. I just imagined that it wasn't me exploding fluid, but rather my lover, the man of my dreams, spraying his love all over my body. The body of the woman he loves. My sexy, gorgeous, body. My womanly body.
Finally. Completely. I am a woman.
I apologize for the length of this post, and a heartfelt thank you goes out to everyone who stuck it out until the end. This was something that was very beautiful and profound for me, and I felt compelled to share it with you.
I have finally accepted I'm a woman. Finally. I'm done trying to reconcile what's inside. In my heart and soul, I know I'm all woman, but my body isn't-and that's okay, because I believe that like Yoda says in Empire Strikes Back, "Luminous beings are we, not this crude matter."
This realization came last night, and it was simply the most wonderful, euphoric experience I've ever felt.
I'd edged for hours, yesterday, at work, and coming home to my apartment, I started reading on Lit. I was ultra-horny, so I poured a glass of wine, ran a bubble bath, and just sat there and soaked, letting all my stresses just melt away. I started rubbing my clit (from now on, I'm not calling it a 'sissyclit/cockclit/boiclit' or any other derivative. I'm a woman. It's a clit. It's just shaped different than other girls and works a bit differently!
Anyway, I started rubbing my clit. You may or may not know, that I'm so attuned to my body that I'm able to differentiate when I'm going to have an orgasm and when I'm physically going to ejaculate fluid. I'm able to bring myself multiple orgasms this way in a long period, and when I do finally allow myself to squirt, the sensation is purely overwhelming.
After two orgasms in the bathtub, I shaved my pussy smooth. I love the feeling of being smooth and sexy! I put on my sexiest outfit, my black teddy and thong set from Victoria's Secret and my black spike heels. I then returned to Lit for some 'me time'. I sat at my desk the entire time, like the woman I am, legs crossed, my hand frequently finding its way into my panties to give my clit a quick rub, making sure I stayed on edge.
But then, something remarkable happened. I was posting on the "Currently Masturbating" thread, and watching this video (I have it as my signature, which by the way, is the most romantic, erotic, beautiful thing I've ever seen), I started having another orgasm. Except this time, I was not touching myself.
It just started happening, it simply washed over me. My clit started violently twitching, my heart began racing, like it was going to pound right out of my chest, my cheeks felt flushed, I felt weak in the knees, and my head was spinning. It was like I was lost in the clouds, deprived of oxygen...euphoric.
This went on for what was easily five minutes.
When I finally came down, I started crying. Literally. Not tears of sadness, but tears of joy. Imagine someone walking in on me! They would see a grown man, dressed in lingerie and high heels weeping. I really didn't care if anyone would have, because I have finally accepted the fact that I am, a woman. My body, which I have been cursing for having been given, finally accepted what's going on internally, and began manifesting itself physically, externally. It's like, my physical body finally accepted that I'm a woman internally, and reacted accordingly, and the combination of the two working in concert was a dramatic paradigm shift. An awakening, if you will.
I turned the computer off, and took off my teddy and thong, and went to lay on my bed. I began imagining that I was with my boyfriend/lover, and he gently spread my soft, silky legs open and began fondling me. I started rubbing my clit, with two fingers, just under the tip, and the sensation was more than I could bear. Only this time, I didn't deny myself, I let my clit experience it all, orgasm, and ejaculation. At the climax of my passion, I couldn't contain myself any longer, I began moaning, softly at first, then rising as the sensations on my clit grew. I began repeating, almost like a mantra, over and over, "I'm a girl. I'm a girl." Only when my clit erupted in both orgasm and fluid did I realize I was literally screaming, probably so loudly that everyone in my apartment building could hear, "I'M A GIRL! I'M A GIRL!"
So massive were the explosions of fluid from my clit, that it sprayed all over my chest, all the way to my neck. I just imagined that it wasn't me exploding fluid, but rather my lover, the man of my dreams, spraying his love all over my body. The body of the woman he loves. My sexy, gorgeous, body. My womanly body.
Finally. Completely. I am a woman.
I apologize for the length of this post, and a heartfelt thank you goes out to everyone who stuck it out until the end. This was something that was very beautiful and profound for me, and I felt compelled to share it with you.
very happy for you sexy!
