Some thoughts about whats going on upstairs.....

[Svejk]

I recently started practising yoga on a regular basis, not classes or anything but home alone via youtube. I've been doing so for about 3 weeks now and I already feel much better about myself, mainly because I'm combating the largely sedentiary lifestyle I lived before with a method of exercise that is not a dully repetative as a sit-ups push-ups and jogging routine would be.

Now your probably wondering why I'm sharing this with you on a GLBT board and my reasons are twofold. Firstly, I've posted here a number of times before and having not told anyone in real life I feel I need to vocalise somewhere that I DO YOGA AND LIKE IT.

Secondly my begining of practise has effectively put an end to my occaisional crossdressing. I no longer feel the need to put on women's clothes. I'm still aroused by the sight of other men in women's clothes, but don't want to wear them myself anymore.

Now why is this? I have a theory. I never really felt that I connected with my 'feminine side' crossdressed, indeed I'm still not entirely sure I have one, but I guess because yoga is so heavily female in the west I am engaging the same part of my mind by watching female yoga teachers through youtube and copying (or attempting to copy) their movements that I was by putting on knickers only I guess I feel better about doing yoga because instead of crossing a major societal boundry (imbued into my subconscious) by crossdressing, I am conforming to the societal value of the notion of getting fit. Also I guess I always felt some guilt at some level because I did literally (literally) no excercise before.

I'd never have written this a month ago. I dont want to sound like a yoga luvvie but I feel grrrrrrrrrrreat both mentally and physically for the first time in my life.

I guess the crux of the matter on my mind is this; Where is a good place to get a yoga mat?

Seriously though, thoughts?

 

[Mr. Briggs]

Congrats on feeling better. You sound really happy and in a really good place. That's awesome

 

[CJontherocks]

No advice here, bro. Sounds like you've got a healthy outlet and it's making you feel really good. That's a beautiful thing.

Wanna talk about this "aroused by the sight of other men in women's clothes" comment? I'm curious about that... not in a "ooh, talk dirty to me" way, but interested in how that relates to your wearing women's clothing in the first place. Did you try on a pair of silky knickers because you found it aroused you when you saw other men?

I'm just thinking, I'm totally attracted to some men... not all, but some... and I've tried on some girly panties and a bra before but didn't really get into it. Although some guys look absolutely hot wearing women's clothes, others not so much. It depends, I guess, and maybe it's more the attraction to the man than to what he's wearing. But in your case, you're attracted to men wearing women's clothes?

 

[Svejk]

Yeah, I've often wondered about why I'm aroused by the sight of men in women's clothes. I suppose looking back on it cronologically i started out on the usuals, straight and lesbian porn, before moving onto shemale porn and then finally crossdressers.

Strangely though I've never been able to get into gay or even bi porn, it just doesn't do anything for me. I mean I have male-on-male fantasies all the time and do very occaisionally find men attractive but the sight of tow men having sex does nothing for me, slap a bit of lipstick on one of them, however, and I'm all over it.

That said, the fantasy of doing it myself, the thought of being close to a man, our lips all over each others bodies and, yes, even kissing a man, arouses me to no end. So I guess I want to have sex with a man myself, but don't want to watch someone else do it.

But yeah, you pretty much summed up why I started crossdressing, I saw some CD porn and read CD forums where they talked in language that suggested that it filled a hole in their lives and figured I'd give it a go myself. But like I said, I never really connected with my 'feminine side' like alot a crossdressers seem to suggest they do.

So I don't know, what would you call someone who finds some men attractive, wants too have sex with men but doesn't watch gay porn (unless one of the very few men I'm attracted to was in it I guess) unless at least one of the participants is in stockings and is outwardly as hetero as they come? Human?

 

[CJontherocks]

Yeah, I would definitely call that human. We're all turned on by different things, and not-so-turned-on by other things.

The beautiful thing is, we get to decide what we want to experience, what we want to experience again and again , and ultimately how we want to live our lives (no matter how constrained we might perceive our environment).

I'd love to be openly bisexual, but I keep making choices in the other direction. If I were more like the man I want to be, I'd go for it. But I'm not there yet. Someday...