some reflection and remembering

[daddysbaby150]

Nevermind

 

[Noor]

Brooke had a beautiful smile.
I am so sorry for your losses.

The last few years were like that for me, and I lost several people in 2014 so I can relate a little.

People react strangely to death, some put it out of their minds, some live with it intensely. It's not really a choice, grief does what it wants.

Sometimes your mind just needs a break from it, I hope you can get some sleep.

 

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going to post this, just needing to get it out. Not sure if its the right spot or not, not that I really care, so no hate ok. 2 days from now it will be 10 pages back and I am totally good with that. I wont ever read it again. Dont even know if it will make sense, it does to me so I guess thats all that matters. Lots of reflections tonight. Thanksgiving 2012 was total shit for me with my parents shocking the hell out of me, the fallout still showing itself today. We didnt get together for Christmas that year and I was still reeling this time 2 years ago when the calls started coming in. Its been 2 years, but I still remember everything about that night. Missing a smiling Brookie tonight. So much. She was the first of 5 people I lost in 2013. Even with all the loss, I kept my family shut out because I had shut down. It wasnt until Nate passed in August of 2014 that I couldnt keep it all locked away. I even tried holidays again last year, with a very special person helping more than he ever realized even if he never really knew why. He taught me to acknowledge feelings. But they hurt really bad tonight, and I cant stop crying. I know I wont sleep because everytime I close my eyes I hear the calls, and remember the feelings that consumed me. It hurts to miss those that are taken from us. And Nate dying last year nearly killed me. But I am alive and I have to keep going for me and my kiddos. Came home tonight expecting my family to remember and then was mad when they didnt and there was a crazy mess. Now all is quiet and I am trying to remember the good. And trying to be thankful for today and tomorrow. Brookie was killed by a driver who was both high and drunk. I hope your toes are in the sand tonight Brookie. I attached a link in case anyone cares to see her beautiful smile. You can google on your own for the follow up stories. I dont care to see all that again. It was hard enough to watch this link, yet I cant stop watching either.
http://www.ksdk.com/story/news/2013/10/20/3100661/

It's not too many times such a sad tale tugs at my black heartstrings...

...but yours is one, I'm sure, every GB will shed a tear or two for.

I truly wish I could help ease your pain in some way...





...I know:

Would you be interested in a 2-hour session with the GB's best shrink, JAMESBJOHNSON?

My treat, of course.

 

[SolarHomo]

After losing my place twice in that wall of text, I couldn't remember why I ever started reading in the first place.

 

[parodyluvr75]

I'm very sorry for your losses, these kind of things seem to come in a cluster. It's a lot to go through and no easy way to do it. You can only carry on best you can. They are never completely gone as long as you remember. Some people deal with grief different, maybe they didn't forget, maybe it hurt them too much to remember. Hang in there.

 

[eyer]

I'm very sorry for your losses, these kind of things seem to come in a cluster. It's a lot to go through and no easy way to do it. You can only carry on best you can. They are never completely gone as long as you remember. Some people deal with grief different, maybe they didn't forget, maybe it hurt them too much to remember. Hang in there.

Why don't you cite the Bazooka bubble gum wrapper you swiped that from?