SoCal sexually confused

[MadGreenfly]

First let me say I dont consider myself gay or bi not sure what I am really I am a very dominant man in RL former military so in the world I grew upon a man must be a man and not think the way I think. I am happily married but my wife is very vanilla not into trying anything adventurous the couple times I have brought up the subject of trying new things it hasn't gone over to good. For a long time I have had a desire to be dominated by a woman or a couple. I have wanted to be forced bi lately have wondered what it would be like to be forced to suck a cock what it would be like to be fucked by a guy and a woman with a strap on. Other things I fantasize about are being tied up and spanked but goes back to the being dominated. I am not attracted to guys but being forced by a woman to be with a guy is a big turn on. The other thing that is a big turn on is transgender women not sure why but it is. Just feel so sexually awkward at times and wish someday I get the courage to actually experience some of my desires. Would like to here people thoughts.