So, umm... I missed y'all - a LOT

[Sir_Winston54]

Looking back over old posts, I see I advised a number of people to not deny themselves the truth of their personae {"To thine own self be true"}... but then, from physical loneliness and a great deal of mental foolishness, I determined to deny myself the truth of my own persona, one I had known for some forty years. "Physician, heal thyself," and all that... and that's why the sig line reads what it does.

When I left here a year and a half ago, I did so in a way that was extremely hurtful to one person, who has the grace and dignity to have recently informed me that I am forgiven for my stupidity. How she has that much in her, despite the pains of her life, I don't know, but I am grateful. I'm sure the manner of my departure also hurt others to a lesser degree, and I hope that they will try to understand that it was never my intent to hurt anyone {that way}, but that at the time, I couldn't think of another solution to my issues. I should have known better, and I should have behaved better.

I am who I am, and I shall always be. To try to pretend otherwise, to others or myself, is simply foolish, and I hope I have left that foolishness behind.

 

[catalina_francisco]

Welcome back....and if you are talking about who I think you are, she is indeed a special lady many of us here admire, as you well know. As for behaving better...we all do what we feel we have to in the moment....looking back in hindsight is a luxury and often offers a different option to the one we were presented with at the time...you did what was right for you at the time, and I am sure many of us will be happy you have returned to our crazy corner of the world.

http://farm1.static.flickr.com/134/376824463_35ca304946_s.jpg Catalina

 

[Kierae]

Wow what a sweet surprise to see your post - welcome back!

~kierae

 

[Sir_Winston54]

Cat and Kierae, thank you. I feel like I've come home...

“Yes, what else but home?
It all depends on what you mean by home.
Of course he’s nothing to us, any more
Than was the hound that came a stranger to us
Out of the woods, worn out upon the trail.”

“Home is the place where, when you have to go there,
They have to take you in.”

Robert Frost, 1915: "The Death of the Hired Man" l. 117-123

 

[WriterDom]

Nice to see you. Stick around and we'll do a NFL pick em again in a few months.

 

[Sir_Winston54]

Nice to see you. Stick around and we'll do a NFL pick em again in a few months.

Thanks for the wb, WD. Oh, Gawd/ess - it IS almost that time, isn't it?!

 

[brioche]

Welcome back. I remember feeling awful for various reasons when you left, and am glad you are back.

We do what we can, and we royally fuck up from time to time, and hopefully we either realize it or have it shoved in our face in time to try to make amends.

(I'm not dealing with my own personal issues, oh no. )

I guess what I'm trying to say, really really badly, is that you're not alone, and that it's good that you came back. And that it's nice to see you.

 

[Kajira Callista]

Hello there.

 

[Sir_Winston54]

Welcome back. I remember feeling awful for various reasons when you left, and am glad you are back.

We do what we can, and we royally fuck up from time to time, and hopefully we either realize it or have it shoved in our face in time to try to make amends.

(I'm not dealing with my own personal issues, oh no. )

I guess what I'm trying to say, really really badly, is that you're not alone, and that it's good that you came back. And that it's nice to see you.

Thank you, brioche. I appreciate the kind words... and you didn't say them badly.

 

[Sir_Winston54]

Hello there.

Hi, there.
I think I'm going to nominate you for the Lit/BDSM poster child of marvelous.

 

[CutieMouse]

Hi, there.
I think I'm going to nominate you for the Lit/BDSM poster child of marvelous.

Seconded.



So which thing does that title come with- a tiara, fabulous shoes, or an all expense paid vacation to someplace wonderful?

 

[Sir_Winston54]

Seconded.



So which thing does that title come with- a tiara, fabulous shoes, or an all expense paid vacation to someplace wonderful?

Umm... I think she already has the tiara (from a child's Halloween costume) and the fabulous shoes (in her closet)... so I guess we'll have to start another paypal account (like someone else's trip to somewhere or other)...

 

[Kajira Callista]

Hi, there.
I think I'm going to nominate you for the Lit/BDSM poster child of marvelous.

Not marvelous...far from it....but i would like a diamond tiara *bats lashes*

 

[Sir_Winston54]

Not marvelous...far from it....but i would like a diamond tiara *bats lashes*

Yes, you are. Okay... we'll change the paypal account from a travel account to a diamond tiara account. I hope it gets filled up before 2107.

 

[Kajira Callista]

Yes, you are. Okay... we'll change the paypal account from a travel account to a diamond tiara account. I hope it gets filled up before 2107.

hmmmm ya think its gonna look nice on my headstone?

 

[Sir_Winston54]

hmmmm ya think its gonna look nice on my headstone?

I think you have a gloriously glowing diamond tiara in the hearts of all who know you. Why would your headstone need one?

 

[Kajira Callista]

I think you have a gloriously glowing diamond tiara in the hearts of all who know you. Why would your headstone need one?

you just dont wanna buy me a tiara *cries* i can tell *stomps foot and cries more*

 

[Sir_Winston54]

you just dont wanna buy me a tiara *cries* i can tell *stomps foot and cries more*

I'd buy ya a dozen if I could. Unfortunately, my evil twin (hmm... how does a confirmed sadist have an evil twin?) took all my money and sent it to Jerry Falwell just before the bottom fell out of that market.

Edited to note that this whole tiara thing is CM's fault, so she has to chip in!

 

[graceanne]

Welcome.

 

[Sir_Winston54]

Welcome.

Thank you. When nominations come open for Lit/BDSM cookie mother, I'm pretty sure your name will pop right up there... it's good to be home.

 

[Kajira Callista]

can i have a tiara made of cookies?

 

[Sir_Winston54]

can i have a tiara made of cookies?

Now, *that* I might be able to afford - next payday.

 

[Kajira Callista]

Now, *that* I might be able to afford - next payday.

*bats lashes*