Well, my Girlfriend and submissive will be here in a few short days. I'm excited but tired. Working 10 days straight in order to get days off to be with her while she's here is beating me down.
(and it's only half over)
I'm stressed to all hell. We're planning on getting married, so ring shopping is on the TO DO list while she's here. Lotta cash to plunk down in my tedious cash flow situation.
I'm going to be going to japan when we do get married, planning for that trip is on the TO DO list as well. Yet more cash.
Debt is kicking my arse. I'd be SOOO fine if I didn't have these damn credit cards to pay off. More cash down the tubes. what the hell did i buy anyway???
What this all boils down to is a simple question that i doubt has a simple answer.
Do any other Doms here sometimes just feel too tired (mentally) to actually dominate?
She's not here yet, so my view might change once she is actually here, but right now, I just don't think I'd have the energy to actively dominate her. I'm tired, worn out, beat down and i can't freaking sleep.
How many of you dominate in part to relieve stress as apposed to it stopping you from wanting to?
I dunno what the hell i'm writing, i'm half asleep, but just can't get the rest of the way there.
On to happier subjects in my rant.
After she left last time, she expressed disapointment that we didn't scene more while she was here.
Subs expressed desires....
1) More rope bondage
2) More photo shoots
3) more shopping
4) more modeling in above shopped clothes
5) Public/risky sex
Subs expressed (ermm) anti-desires (desired to avoid)
1) spankings
2) Posting of above photo shoots
3) Public humiliation
4) anal of any kind
My desires (expressed or not)
1) More spankings
2) Public humiliation
3) Practicing my Shibari rope bondage
4) Posting of shibari photos
5) Anal of some kind
I notice a patern in this. I've always been reblelious and I think that it even carries over into D/s. I want to do the things that she doesn't want, more, JUST because she doesn't want to do them. Not really sure what that means, if anything, just an observation.
OK, gonna try to sleep again thanks for letting me rant
(and it's only half over)
I'm stressed to all hell. We're planning on getting married, so ring shopping is on the TO DO list while she's here. Lotta cash to plunk down in my tedious cash flow situation.
I'm going to be going to japan when we do get married, planning for that trip is on the TO DO list as well. Yet more cash.
Debt is kicking my arse. I'd be SOOO fine if I didn't have these damn credit cards to pay off. More cash down the tubes. what the hell did i buy anyway???
What this all boils down to is a simple question that i doubt has a simple answer.
Do any other Doms here sometimes just feel too tired (mentally) to actually dominate?
She's not here yet, so my view might change once she is actually here, but right now, I just don't think I'd have the energy to actively dominate her. I'm tired, worn out, beat down and i can't freaking sleep.
How many of you dominate in part to relieve stress as apposed to it stopping you from wanting to?
I dunno what the hell i'm writing, i'm half asleep, but just can't get the rest of the way there.
On to happier subjects in my rant.
After she left last time, she expressed disapointment that we didn't scene more while she was here.
Subs expressed desires....
1) More rope bondage
2) More photo shoots
3) more shopping
4) more modeling in above shopped clothes
5) Public/risky sex
Subs expressed (ermm) anti-desires (desired to avoid)
1) spankings
2) Posting of above photo shoots
3) Public humiliation
4) anal of any kind
My desires (expressed or not)
1) More spankings
2) Public humiliation
3) Practicing my Shibari rope bondage
4) Posting of shibari photos
5) Anal of some kind
I notice a patern in this. I've always been reblelious and I think that it even carries over into D/s. I want to do the things that she doesn't want, more, JUST because she doesn't want to do them. Not really sure what that means, if anything, just an observation.
OK, gonna try to sleep again thanks for letting me rant
