so i admit it... i am going to kill myself, but (if u giv a shit) don't panic.

[paganangel]

it wont be for a good long while. i'm thinking at least about 7 years.


and fuck you if you have something smart to say.

 

[Byron In Exile]

How?.

 

[Debbie]

Don't do it.

 

[Byron In Exile]

Don't do it.

Maybe he needs to do it for some reason.

How can you make a recommendation like that when you don't know his circumstances?

 

[Debbie]

Knee jerk reaction. I don't know the circumstances. If it's for medical reasons I could be understanding but if it's because life is a bit shite or your depressed - please don't do it.
Trust me your famliy and friends may never get over your death.

 

[Sean]

Are you going to do it live on the web?

 

[paganangel]

please. they'll get over it. peope are resilliant.

and just for you sean, sure. actually i have another idea for you.

 

[raindancer]

As a kid I always thought I'd die by age 35 so I had to hurry up and climb every tree I could find. I honestly thought it and not because 35 seemed so distant. I'm turning 36 in Feb. weird.

 

[vrosej10]

it wont be for a good long while. i'm thinking at least about 7 years.


and fuck you if you have something smart to say.

I have some experience with this. I have live through three suicide attempts by some huge fluke (all of them should have resulted in death. I was luck or unlucky depending on your prespective). The last one left me in a coma and blind for a while. I am not going to try and talk you out of it, because that won't work if you are serious but what I am going to tell you is, shit changes. It does. When I tried the last time, I never thought I would be happy again, I could not see there was a light at the end of the tunnel. And there was. But I had to decide whether the shit in my life was worth my life, whether I was going to let the situation kill me. You can change things. If this is a medical issue, there is good medication available. I've been in treatment for years and I can honestly say that I am happier than I have ever been. Suicide is a long term solution to a short term problem.

 

[paganangel]

I have some experience with this. I have live through three suicide attempts by some huge fluke (all of them should have resulted in death. I was luck or unlucky depending on your prespective). The last one left me in a coma and blind for a while. I am not going to try and talk you out of it, because that won't work if you are serious but what I am going to tell you is, shit changes. It does. When I tried the last time, I never thought I would be happy again, I could not see there was a light at the end of the tunnel. And there was. But I had to decide whether the shit in my life was worth my life, whether I was going to let the situation kill me. You can change things. If this is a medical issue, there is good medication available. I've been in treatment for years and I can honestly say that I am happier than I have ever been. Suicide is a long term solution to a short term problem.

3 times and you still think shit changes?

 

[blunt_trauma]

seems a pity...someone semi-cool stepping out while people like drivel persist in existing.

but you're sounding like a man who has his reasons. and you're giving yourself plenty of time to think about it. you know what's best for you.

are you going to one of those swiss clinics? ...i think it's called dignitas. it's one way to minimise mess and trauma for others.

i hope you have the means to fit some experiences in before you go.

 

[Ishmael]

Is it going to be on Youtube?

Ishmael

 

[vrosej10]

3 times and you still think shit changes?

The last time was twenty years ago. Shit changes. I was sure I'd never have a child. I have an 11 year old. I was sure I'd never get over my ex. I am married to a wonderful man. I was too scaried to finish my education. I went back to school and did yrs 9-12 and I am in my second years of uni. Shit changes and so often it's the only thing you can rely on.

 

[Sean]

seems a pity...someone semi-cool stepping out while people like drivel persist in existing.

I wonder if his disability is progressive?

 

[Beco]

As a kid I always thought I'd die by age 35 so I had to hurry up and climb every tree I could find. I honestly thought it and not because 35 seemed so distant. I'm turning 36 in Feb. weird.

good strategy to get stuff done!

 

[reannerose]

it wont be for a good long while. i'm thinking at least about 7 years.


and fuck you if you have something smart to say.

like vrosej10 said, a lot changes over time, a lot can change in 7 years...

im curious to how you would do it, there are many options, some not as good as others, and heck, in 7 years, they might come up with a new one.

ive never tried killing myself, dont think i could go through with it even tho the after-life seem more appealing than life sometimes.

 

[raindancer]

it wont be for a good long while. i'm thinking at least about 7 years.


and fuck you if you have something smart to say.

7 years will fly by so people who give a shit will panic, of course.
I hope you don't, though I know how it feels to want it.

 

[LadyFunkenstein]

I intened to kill myself, most likely in my 70s when my body starts to break down. Later if I'm lucky, earlier if not.

Since I don't have any children, I can see the way this is going to end if I don't: I'll be in a shitty home some place, where orderlies will turn me over and fuck me in the ass anytime they want. And they will steal my jewelry to add insult to injury.

No thanks, the day I need help taking the pills out of the bottle is the day I check out permanently. Probably at sea.

7 years? Come on, too soon.

 

[Beco]

I intened to kill myself, most likely in my 70s when my body starts to break down. Later if I'm lucky, earlier if not.

Since I don't have any children, I can see the way this is going to end if I don't: I'll be in a shitty home some place, where orderlies will turn me over and fuck me in the ass anytime they want. And they will steal my jewelry to add insult to injury.

No thanks, the day I need help taking the pills out of the bottle is the day I check out permanently. Probably at sea.

7 years? Come on, too soon.

Please let me know which old age home you end up in.... sounds like a cool place to work!

 

[paganangel]

The last time was twenty years ago. Shit changes. I was sure I'd never have a child. I have an 11 year old. I was sure I'd never get over my ex. I am married to a wonderful man. I was too scaried to finish my education. I went back to school and did yrs 9-12 and I am in my second years of uni. Shit changes and so often it's the only thing you can rely on.

that would actually be inspring, seriously. i am happy for you and wish i could hold you're optimism, but i've held this feeling for quite a while. and i can't say it's been 20 years since my last attempt, though almost 20 since my closest call. but i can tell you it's been over 30 since my first, such as it was.
some of us are just born wrong.

 

[paganangel]

like vrosej10 said, a lot changes over time, a lot can change in 7 years...

im curious to how you would do it, there are many options, some not as good as others, and heck, in 7 years, they might come up with a new one.

ive never tried killing myself, dont think i could go through with it even tho the after-life seem more appealing than life sometimes.

here's hoping. i'll check out the swiss clinic thing.

 

[paganangel]

I intened to kill myself, most likely in my 70s when my body starts to break down. Later if I'm lucky, earlier if not.

Since I don't have any children, I can see the way this is going to end if I don't: I'll be in a shitty home some place, where orderlies will turn me over and fuck me in the ass anytime they want. And they will steal my jewelry to add insult to injury.

No thanks, the day I need help taking the pills out of the bottle is the day I check out permanently. Probably at sea.

7 years? Come on, too soon.

mental note: sometime in the next 7 years, take a job as an orderly.

 

[Wife of Bath]

I've never even interacted with you, and yet I am sorry to hear of your decision. Enjoy the next seven years, and maybe try to let your friends and family know ahead of time. I can appreciate that some people have excellent reasons to end their lives, but it would be considerate of you to be aware of the impact you will have on the people who love you, and to prepare them as best you can.

 

[Sean]

I've never even interacted with you, and yet I am sorry to hear of your decision. Enjoy the next seven years, and maybe try to let your friends and family know ahead of time. I can appreciate that some people have excellent reasons to end their lives, but it would be considerate of you to be aware of the impact you will have on the people who love you, and to prepare them as best you can.

Can we persuade you to make the great leap into the unknown too?

 

[Colonel Hogan]

I'll be in a shitty home some place, where orderlies will turn me over and fuck me in the ass anytime they want. And they will steal my jewelry to add insult to injury.

I would think if you smoked enough weed beforehand, you would typically call this a "party."