So.... are you thinking.. "What am I doing here?c

[CreativeSpirit0163]

Yeah... bored, horney... or is it just lonely? I love my wife... I do. But we are no longer on the same wavelength. She just no longer seems to be interested in sex, any sex (except backrubs) these days. Could be me. Me... my libido is pretty high but that sucks too. Not sure if it is mental or physical but haven't cum in years though I get hard just being around her. I mean for the most part if we have sex it's because I just keep going with the foreplay until she let's me go down on her. (Love going down on her)

She's never reciprocated. Something about RNs and oral sex? She's promised over the years (for my birthday or anniversary... ) Shit... I've jerked off fantasizing about my own wife giving me a blowjob in our car and swallowing it all. She wont even taste my pre-cum and I can hardly lay next to her without getting a hard on with salty clear pre-cum drenching the front of my boxers...

Anyway... I have a auto-immune illness that keeps me in pain most days... the drugs suck. They could be my not being able to cum issue...don't know. So fucking depressing. She blames herself for not being able to get me off but then she has almost no libido after her 12 hr shifts.

So... now I am trolling this site. I would never cheat on her physically but fuck i just want to get my rocks off for once.