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Modern Mephisto
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First off, I honestly wouldn't expect to meet the woman of my dreams on Literotica - a site that's dedicated more to a parade of flesh down Smut Street than any meaningful connection of a mental, emotional, or spiritual level - but, at the same time, I can say that there are some truly amazing people that frequent this site. I've had the pleasure of getting acquainted with a few of them. Unfortunately for me, they've all been married or otherwise spoken for. Furthermore, the fact that they frequent this site is in no way a detriment to their person. (After all, I'm here.) Instead, their interest in this site tells me that they are most likely possessed of a healthy libido, an open mind, and a sexually liberated spirit. And since all those things appeal to me, I figured, "Why not?"
So, I thought I'd place an actual personal ad, not just looking for some casual sexual romp, online or off, but an honest attempt to meet and get to know some women that might be compatible with me in the context of a real relationship. (Not that there's anything wrong with the occasional strings-free sexual romp. But I just feel like I'm searching for something more substantial right now.) At worst I've wasted a little time writing all this up. At best, I may find the sort of woman I've long been searching for, finding her in the most unlikely of places. Here goes nothing...
I don't want to be too specific about the sort of woman I'm looking for because I don't want to limit myself or possibly turn away anyone that I might have real chemistry with. So, I'll try to leave this as open as possible and just lay down some general preferences rather than strict requirements.
Okay, I will list one requirement: You must be single. This means no husband, fiancé, or boyfriend. No separations. Likewise, if you're "sorta" seeing someone, then I'm not interested. If you're hung up on some other guy that doesn't seem to know you exist or you just haven't approached but continue to hope something will happen with him, then don't waste my time. I'm not here to stroke your ego or play at being an online boyfriend until someone else, someone in "real life" comes along.
Similarly, and I know this sounds harsh but, I'm not interested in being "just friends." If I seem like a cool guy, someone you could really connect with but you're taken and all you can offer is friendship, then I'm really not interested. And spare me any of the "Let's be friends and see where it goes" tripe. Obviously I want my significant other to also be my best friend, and I wholeheartedly agree that we should establish a strong friendship - as we build the relationship - but I'm not interested in connecting with someone only to be strung along and kept at arm's length as a mere friend. Perhaps I'm too judgmental or entirely too hasty, but I nonetheless believe that we all know relatively early on the potential for a relationship. We know within a short time whether there's a proper romantic chemistry and sexual attraction to warrant a romantic relationship or if there's no spark and the best we can hope for or offer is a friendship. In those instances, where there's a mutual agreement that while we click, we're not romantically/sexually attracted to each other, I'm perfectly fine with a friendship. But if one party or the other has an unreciprocated desire for something more, it's best and only fair to just break it off and part ways. We'll both be happier. Trust me.
Beyond that, I'd prefer if you were somewhere around my age, in the 22-33 age range. Of course, if you're younger or older, then it's all a matter of chemistry. I've found that greater age differences complicate matters. Age is just a number, but the life experiences definitely tip the scales. However, if we click, if we can relate to each other and share a lot of common ground, and the chemistry is there, I'm not concerned with the number. Also, it would obviously help if you were somewhat local, at least in the same state. I've done the long distance thing before and it's pure torture and frustration. Even the best, most solid of relationships can bend or snap under the pressure and longing of being states and hours apart, so one that's just getting started stands even less of a chance of weathering the long storm. However, I'm not completely closed off to the possibility. Again, it's all about the right chemistry and if anything can give one strength to endure the most painful of hardships, it's love. So, if you're the wandering, free-spirited gyspy type that's either considered or not opposed to moving somewhere new (or you can convince me to relocate) then don't exclude yourself.
Note: If we do seem to really connect, we'll definitely have to make plans to visit and meet sooner rather than later. Meeting online is fine, but if two people go too long without taking things to the next level - taking things offline - to put it into better perspective, it can unnecessarily complicate matters. When the relationship is strictly online, or even over the phone, it's very easy to get swept up in fantasy, to build up expectations (often unreasonable expectations) of the other person, and that can lead to major disappointment when you finally do shift things into reality.
As for personality, I definitely favor intelligent women, as there's nothing sexier than a wicked sharp mind. You should be able to hold you own in conversations covering a wide range of subjects. Degrees of higher education are good, but you can also just be a voracious reader that's instinctively sharp and naturally bright. And I'd like a woman with good sense of humor. I define a good sense of humor as one that clicks with my own: witty, sarcastic, maybe a little dark and warped. Think George Carlin, The Simpsons & Futurama, the Cohen brothers, Oscar Wilde and Dorothy Parker. Or, if you laughed when reading American Psycho and Catch-22, then we're probably in synch. Playfulness is always appealing. Are you a bit coquettish and teasing, but in a good way? Ever dance in the rain just for the hell of it? Do you know how to make your own fun in almost any situation? If you're equal parts sexy, seductive siren and playful, carefree girl then you definitely score points. Also, I'm fond of strong, independent women, women with goals and ambitions, determination and drive, opinions and beliefs that you hold with conviction. Which leads in to another appealing trait: feistiness. I love a good debate and enjoy having a significant other that's not afraid to disagree with me, to argue points with me, to be aggressive when it comes to her opinions, thoughts, and desires. And, of course, all the usual desirable qualities: loving, honest, faithful, etc.
Bonus Points: You earn serious bonus points if you're artistic (paint, sing, play an instrument, etc.), wear glasses, have an exotic accent, or if you're Asian - especially if you're Asian. Heh.
Physical appearance? I don't have a set type. You can be any ethnicity, any height (within reason), any weight (within reason), and just about any body type. I do favor brilliant, expressive eyes, sweet and alluring smiles, thick athletic legs, and deliciously spankable asses. I mean, we all know looks are important since you have to be physically attracted to someone you get involved with, but looks take a backseat to mind and personality. Intoxicate my mind and you'll arouse my body.
Now I'll tell you a little about myself and what you can expect from me.
I'm 28-years-old and presently at a point where I want to be with someone truly special, to get out of the whole dating scene and focus my attentions and affections on just one woman. I'm interested in committed, monogamous relationships. I don't know that I'm necessarily marriage-minded (because I have certain issues with the concept of marriage...which you're welcome to ask me about if you really want to know) but I do know that I'm not interested in having children. Not now. Perhaps not ever. So, if that's important to you, we may not be compatible. But I would like to find someone that shares some of my passions, interests, views and life goals.
I'd say I'm cute - even handsome, depending on your personal tastes and opinions - though there's definitely a lot of improvements that could be made in the physical department and I've been trying to get back into a routine of going to the gym, but my work schedule has made that a little difficult. (And a job where you spend 8-10 hours a day sitting on your ass doesn't exactly help matters, you know?) But, of course, the right woman will accept me as I am - faults, flaws, flab and all. As for my personality, I'd say I'm relatively intelligent, witty, romantic, caring, creative, loving, charming, supportive, open, honest, thoughtful, and faithful. I definitely have a dark side to me, a very caustic, sarcastic, occasionally apathetic or misanthropic twist. I'm given to occasional brooding and morose moods but, for the most part, I'm a pretty easygoing fellow that's just as quick to joke, laugh and smile. (Er, I just never seem to smile while on camera, so I've been told.) I'm probably more introvert than extrovert, but I do dance a fine line between the two. I'm not overly social, preferring one-on-one interactions or small groups to large parties, but I'm not the type to sit off in a corner and talk to the plants when I'm in a social situation.
My current position in life: I have a decent job, though I still harbor the dream of becoming a published novelist at some point. (And I'd love a woman that can serve as inspiration, an encouraging and supportive muse.) I have my own place, even though it's not much, and live alone, unless you count pets.
Now, getting back to those previously mentioned passions and interests, I'm rather something of a geek in this regard. I don't go in for the stereotypical male pursuits of sports, cars, beer, etc. I have little to no interest in sports, beyond occasionally playing basketball with friends or maybe watching big events like the Super Bowl or NBA Finals or Olympics. I'm more interested in the arts: literature, music, cinema, photography, architecture, etc. I was a Lit geek in college, so I'm obsessed with reading: the classics to science fiction, fantasy, suspense/horror, and historical/scientific writings. I'm not much for nonfiction, unless it's about events or individuals that particularly interest me - and this does not include celebrities. I'm the sort of person who gets excited by the smell of bookstores and coffeehouses and loves to curl up with a good book on a rainy afternoon. So, a woman that's equally passionate about reading is definitely my type of girl. Now, while I have no talent for playing any instruments - though, I love women who can - and my singing skills have gone long neglected, I'm still a music fiend. Again, my tastes are pretty diverse, ranging from a love of heavy metal and hard rock to classical, opera, and Broadways musicals. I'm just not much for pure techno, country, rap, or hip hop. And I go to concerts at every given opportunity and I'd like a woman to share some of my musical tastes - particularly for classical music, opera, and musicals since I can't drag most of my friends to those things - so she can join me for evenings of live music and come home as psyched and energized from the experience as I do. The theatre and movies are also among my top passions, with similarly eclectic tastes. Basically, if there's an engaging story or interesting, developed characters, I'm in. Or, hell, even just breathtakingly beautiful cinematography or a mesmerizing soundtrack can please me. I mean, I like flashy explosions and gratuitous nudity as much as the next guy, but I also need some substance, you know? Drama, science fiction, fantasy, anime, foreign, indie...I'm open to just about everything.
Oh, and I'm a serious nature nut. Not the scary wild-eyed, whale-saving, tree-hugging environmentalist type. But I love to escape from the concrete, steel and glass abominations of the modern world and slip into a simpler world of man, beast and nature. Hiking, camping, stargazing... There's a tranquility there that can be found nowhere else. As such, I love to travel. I haven't done nearly as much as I'd like to and hope to do a lot more in the coming years. I'd certainly welcome a woman with a similar adventurous spirit and desire to explore the world. Not just lay out in the sun on sandy beaches, but crawl through sweaty jungles and explore the Inca ruins or hike across the Alaskan wilderness or visit the castles and cathedrals of Europe or any of a thousand other possibilities.
And I love animals. Being an animal lover would definitely win you points.
Okay, enough about all that. I doubt there's even anybody still reading at this point. But I'll carry on anyway...
Back to relationships and what you can expect from me. I'm a bit old fashioned when it comes to relationships and romance, in that I still believe the guy should pay and open doors. I believe in showing a woman how I feel, as well as telling her at every opportunity. I'm not one of those guys that won't talk about his emotions or who insists on playing games. I say what I feel and mean what I say. And I truly believe in romance, though I'll admit that I'm sorely out of practice. How do I define romance? Romance is all about the little things. It's giving a girl flowers for no other reason than you happened to be thinking of her. It's leaving her little notes in unexpected locations, a few sweet words or a bit of poetry that will brighten her day. It's calling her for no other reason than simply to hear the sound of her voice, to let her know she was in your thoughts, and to ask how her day is going. (And, of course, if her day isn't going well, it's a chance to think of a sweet little surprise to make things infinitely better.) It's giving her a backrub, not because you're horny and want to get her clothes off, but because you just like to be near her, touching her, and you want to make her feel special. Simply put, I love women and just absolutely adore their company. I'm not a "player." I definitely flirt when I'm single, turning on the charm with anyone who catches my eye. But when I'm with someone, she's my world. I don't believe in cheating. It's never made any sense to me. If you aren't happy or fully satisfied in a relationship, then you should work to make the relationship better or end the relationship before pursuing something/someone else.
Also, I will confess, it's not all sunshine and lollipops. I am, for better or worse, something of the jealous/possessive type. That's not to say I keep my girlfriend locked up in the house, cut off from the outside world, and refuse to let her have friends. Or that she can't go anywhere without me. (I detest those sort of couples, where one person always has to have their significant other in tow or where the boyfriend/girlfriend just latches on and goes along because they can't stand the thought of the other doing anything without them.) Not at all. I'm a firm believer that relationships need space. Yes, we're two people coming together as a single couple, but we're still very much separate individuals. We should still have friends and interests and activities that are ours alone. Everyone needs time apart or the relationship becomes suffocating. My jealousy and possessiveness is spawned more from behavior, from actions or a lack of communication that would suggest a need for suspicion or justified anger. If you don't give me any reason to be jealous, I won't be. Meaning, if we're in a relationship, I don't want you flirting with other guys. If we haven't seen each other in awhile and I want to spend time with you, I don't want to be blown off in favor of someone or something else that isn't all that important, like shopping with friends or going to a party. I'm pretty understanding and flexible, but I don't want to feel like an afterthought, someone you spend time with or devote your attention to only when there's nothing else you feel like doing. Don't treat me like you can spend time with me anytime because I'm always going to be available. I refuse to be taken for granted. Simply put, I should be a priority, our relationship should be a priority. Not necessarily the top priority in your life, since I don't expect you to skip work or ditch being with your grandmother in the hospital just because I want to see you. Nor would I expect you to bail on a friend in need in favor of me. But I should fall into that upper echelon of family, career, friends, etc. I'll always do my best to give you my full attention and assure you that you're the only person I want, so I think it's only fair that you do the same for me. At the same time, I don't sit well with others making advances or inappropriate comments to my significant other. So, my jealousy and possessiveness is also in part protectiveness. I've very protective of my family, friends, and significant other. Though, I do try to keep if from being suffocating.
Also, in the past I've been accused of being distant or emotionally closed off. To a small degree, this is probably true. I'm the type of person that generally likes to work things out for myself. So, if something is bothering me or there is something on my mind, I'm not usually going to come right out and talk about it. This isn't contrary to what I said about talking about my feelings. I'll talk about my feelings as they relate to the relationship, but if I'm dealing with something that primarily concerns me, I'd rather sort things out for myself. Yes, I know, in a good relationship anything that affects me will affect you, but...mainly, I just hate to burden others with my problems and I don't want to worry my significant other. However, I do realize communication is essential for a healthy relationship and will eventually open up if you show real concern and genuinely want to know what's wrong. I just take some prodding.
Well, I'm sure I could ramble on for pages upon pages, but I seriously doubt anyone is still reading. However, if you actually read all of this and I've described you and the sort of man you're looking for, if I've piqued your interest in the least, then by all means drop me a line. If not, perhaps pass this ad along to someone you know who may find it interesting. Either way, I appreciate you stopping in and having a look.
~Mephisto
So, I thought I'd place an actual personal ad, not just looking for some casual sexual romp, online or off, but an honest attempt to meet and get to know some women that might be compatible with me in the context of a real relationship. (Not that there's anything wrong with the occasional strings-free sexual romp. But I just feel like I'm searching for something more substantial right now.) At worst I've wasted a little time writing all this up. At best, I may find the sort of woman I've long been searching for, finding her in the most unlikely of places. Here goes nothing...
I don't want to be too specific about the sort of woman I'm looking for because I don't want to limit myself or possibly turn away anyone that I might have real chemistry with. So, I'll try to leave this as open as possible and just lay down some general preferences rather than strict requirements.
Okay, I will list one requirement: You must be single. This means no husband, fiancé, or boyfriend. No separations. Likewise, if you're "sorta" seeing someone, then I'm not interested. If you're hung up on some other guy that doesn't seem to know you exist or you just haven't approached but continue to hope something will happen with him, then don't waste my time. I'm not here to stroke your ego or play at being an online boyfriend until someone else, someone in "real life" comes along.
Similarly, and I know this sounds harsh but, I'm not interested in being "just friends." If I seem like a cool guy, someone you could really connect with but you're taken and all you can offer is friendship, then I'm really not interested. And spare me any of the "Let's be friends and see where it goes" tripe. Obviously I want my significant other to also be my best friend, and I wholeheartedly agree that we should establish a strong friendship - as we build the relationship - but I'm not interested in connecting with someone only to be strung along and kept at arm's length as a mere friend. Perhaps I'm too judgmental or entirely too hasty, but I nonetheless believe that we all know relatively early on the potential for a relationship. We know within a short time whether there's a proper romantic chemistry and sexual attraction to warrant a romantic relationship or if there's no spark and the best we can hope for or offer is a friendship. In those instances, where there's a mutual agreement that while we click, we're not romantically/sexually attracted to each other, I'm perfectly fine with a friendship. But if one party or the other has an unreciprocated desire for something more, it's best and only fair to just break it off and part ways. We'll both be happier. Trust me.
Beyond that, I'd prefer if you were somewhere around my age, in the 22-33 age range. Of course, if you're younger or older, then it's all a matter of chemistry. I've found that greater age differences complicate matters. Age is just a number, but the life experiences definitely tip the scales. However, if we click, if we can relate to each other and share a lot of common ground, and the chemistry is there, I'm not concerned with the number. Also, it would obviously help if you were somewhat local, at least in the same state. I've done the long distance thing before and it's pure torture and frustration. Even the best, most solid of relationships can bend or snap under the pressure and longing of being states and hours apart, so one that's just getting started stands even less of a chance of weathering the long storm. However, I'm not completely closed off to the possibility. Again, it's all about the right chemistry and if anything can give one strength to endure the most painful of hardships, it's love. So, if you're the wandering, free-spirited gyspy type that's either considered or not opposed to moving somewhere new (or you can convince me to relocate) then don't exclude yourself.
Note: If we do seem to really connect, we'll definitely have to make plans to visit and meet sooner rather than later. Meeting online is fine, but if two people go too long without taking things to the next level - taking things offline - to put it into better perspective, it can unnecessarily complicate matters. When the relationship is strictly online, or even over the phone, it's very easy to get swept up in fantasy, to build up expectations (often unreasonable expectations) of the other person, and that can lead to major disappointment when you finally do shift things into reality.
As for personality, I definitely favor intelligent women, as there's nothing sexier than a wicked sharp mind. You should be able to hold you own in conversations covering a wide range of subjects. Degrees of higher education are good, but you can also just be a voracious reader that's instinctively sharp and naturally bright. And I'd like a woman with good sense of humor. I define a good sense of humor as one that clicks with my own: witty, sarcastic, maybe a little dark and warped. Think George Carlin, The Simpsons & Futurama, the Cohen brothers, Oscar Wilde and Dorothy Parker. Or, if you laughed when reading American Psycho and Catch-22, then we're probably in synch. Playfulness is always appealing. Are you a bit coquettish and teasing, but in a good way? Ever dance in the rain just for the hell of it? Do you know how to make your own fun in almost any situation? If you're equal parts sexy, seductive siren and playful, carefree girl then you definitely score points. Also, I'm fond of strong, independent women, women with goals and ambitions, determination and drive, opinions and beliefs that you hold with conviction. Which leads in to another appealing trait: feistiness. I love a good debate and enjoy having a significant other that's not afraid to disagree with me, to argue points with me, to be aggressive when it comes to her opinions, thoughts, and desires. And, of course, all the usual desirable qualities: loving, honest, faithful, etc.
Bonus Points: You earn serious bonus points if you're artistic (paint, sing, play an instrument, etc.), wear glasses, have an exotic accent, or if you're Asian - especially if you're Asian. Heh.
Physical appearance? I don't have a set type. You can be any ethnicity, any height (within reason), any weight (within reason), and just about any body type. I do favor brilliant, expressive eyes, sweet and alluring smiles, thick athletic legs, and deliciously spankable asses. I mean, we all know looks are important since you have to be physically attracted to someone you get involved with, but looks take a backseat to mind and personality. Intoxicate my mind and you'll arouse my body.
Now I'll tell you a little about myself and what you can expect from me.
I'm 28-years-old and presently at a point where I want to be with someone truly special, to get out of the whole dating scene and focus my attentions and affections on just one woman. I'm interested in committed, monogamous relationships. I don't know that I'm necessarily marriage-minded (because I have certain issues with the concept of marriage...which you're welcome to ask me about if you really want to know) but I do know that I'm not interested in having children. Not now. Perhaps not ever. So, if that's important to you, we may not be compatible. But I would like to find someone that shares some of my passions, interests, views and life goals.
I'd say I'm cute - even handsome, depending on your personal tastes and opinions - though there's definitely a lot of improvements that could be made in the physical department and I've been trying to get back into a routine of going to the gym, but my work schedule has made that a little difficult. (And a job where you spend 8-10 hours a day sitting on your ass doesn't exactly help matters, you know?) But, of course, the right woman will accept me as I am - faults, flaws, flab and all. As for my personality, I'd say I'm relatively intelligent, witty, romantic, caring, creative, loving, charming, supportive, open, honest, thoughtful, and faithful. I definitely have a dark side to me, a very caustic, sarcastic, occasionally apathetic or misanthropic twist. I'm given to occasional brooding and morose moods but, for the most part, I'm a pretty easygoing fellow that's just as quick to joke, laugh and smile. (Er, I just never seem to smile while on camera, so I've been told.) I'm probably more introvert than extrovert, but I do dance a fine line between the two. I'm not overly social, preferring one-on-one interactions or small groups to large parties, but I'm not the type to sit off in a corner and talk to the plants when I'm in a social situation.
My current position in life: I have a decent job, though I still harbor the dream of becoming a published novelist at some point. (And I'd love a woman that can serve as inspiration, an encouraging and supportive muse.) I have my own place, even though it's not much, and live alone, unless you count pets.
Now, getting back to those previously mentioned passions and interests, I'm rather something of a geek in this regard. I don't go in for the stereotypical male pursuits of sports, cars, beer, etc. I have little to no interest in sports, beyond occasionally playing basketball with friends or maybe watching big events like the Super Bowl or NBA Finals or Olympics. I'm more interested in the arts: literature, music, cinema, photography, architecture, etc. I was a Lit geek in college, so I'm obsessed with reading: the classics to science fiction, fantasy, suspense/horror, and historical/scientific writings. I'm not much for nonfiction, unless it's about events or individuals that particularly interest me - and this does not include celebrities. I'm the sort of person who gets excited by the smell of bookstores and coffeehouses and loves to curl up with a good book on a rainy afternoon. So, a woman that's equally passionate about reading is definitely my type of girl. Now, while I have no talent for playing any instruments - though, I love women who can - and my singing skills have gone long neglected, I'm still a music fiend. Again, my tastes are pretty diverse, ranging from a love of heavy metal and hard rock to classical, opera, and Broadways musicals. I'm just not much for pure techno, country, rap, or hip hop. And I go to concerts at every given opportunity and I'd like a woman to share some of my musical tastes - particularly for classical music, opera, and musicals since I can't drag most of my friends to those things - so she can join me for evenings of live music and come home as psyched and energized from the experience as I do. The theatre and movies are also among my top passions, with similarly eclectic tastes. Basically, if there's an engaging story or interesting, developed characters, I'm in. Or, hell, even just breathtakingly beautiful cinematography or a mesmerizing soundtrack can please me. I mean, I like flashy explosions and gratuitous nudity as much as the next guy, but I also need some substance, you know? Drama, science fiction, fantasy, anime, foreign, indie...I'm open to just about everything.
Oh, and I'm a serious nature nut. Not the scary wild-eyed, whale-saving, tree-hugging environmentalist type. But I love to escape from the concrete, steel and glass abominations of the modern world and slip into a simpler world of man, beast and nature. Hiking, camping, stargazing... There's a tranquility there that can be found nowhere else. As such, I love to travel. I haven't done nearly as much as I'd like to and hope to do a lot more in the coming years. I'd certainly welcome a woman with a similar adventurous spirit and desire to explore the world. Not just lay out in the sun on sandy beaches, but crawl through sweaty jungles and explore the Inca ruins or hike across the Alaskan wilderness or visit the castles and cathedrals of Europe or any of a thousand other possibilities.
And I love animals. Being an animal lover would definitely win you points.
Okay, enough about all that. I doubt there's even anybody still reading at this point. But I'll carry on anyway...
Back to relationships and what you can expect from me. I'm a bit old fashioned when it comes to relationships and romance, in that I still believe the guy should pay and open doors. I believe in showing a woman how I feel, as well as telling her at every opportunity. I'm not one of those guys that won't talk about his emotions or who insists on playing games. I say what I feel and mean what I say. And I truly believe in romance, though I'll admit that I'm sorely out of practice. How do I define romance? Romance is all about the little things. It's giving a girl flowers for no other reason than you happened to be thinking of her. It's leaving her little notes in unexpected locations, a few sweet words or a bit of poetry that will brighten her day. It's calling her for no other reason than simply to hear the sound of her voice, to let her know she was in your thoughts, and to ask how her day is going. (And, of course, if her day isn't going well, it's a chance to think of a sweet little surprise to make things infinitely better.) It's giving her a backrub, not because you're horny and want to get her clothes off, but because you just like to be near her, touching her, and you want to make her feel special. Simply put, I love women and just absolutely adore their company. I'm not a "player." I definitely flirt when I'm single, turning on the charm with anyone who catches my eye. But when I'm with someone, she's my world. I don't believe in cheating. It's never made any sense to me. If you aren't happy or fully satisfied in a relationship, then you should work to make the relationship better or end the relationship before pursuing something/someone else.
Also, I will confess, it's not all sunshine and lollipops. I am, for better or worse, something of the jealous/possessive type. That's not to say I keep my girlfriend locked up in the house, cut off from the outside world, and refuse to let her have friends. Or that she can't go anywhere without me. (I detest those sort of couples, where one person always has to have their significant other in tow or where the boyfriend/girlfriend just latches on and goes along because they can't stand the thought of the other doing anything without them.) Not at all. I'm a firm believer that relationships need space. Yes, we're two people coming together as a single couple, but we're still very much separate individuals. We should still have friends and interests and activities that are ours alone. Everyone needs time apart or the relationship becomes suffocating. My jealousy and possessiveness is spawned more from behavior, from actions or a lack of communication that would suggest a need for suspicion or justified anger. If you don't give me any reason to be jealous, I won't be. Meaning, if we're in a relationship, I don't want you flirting with other guys. If we haven't seen each other in awhile and I want to spend time with you, I don't want to be blown off in favor of someone or something else that isn't all that important, like shopping with friends or going to a party. I'm pretty understanding and flexible, but I don't want to feel like an afterthought, someone you spend time with or devote your attention to only when there's nothing else you feel like doing. Don't treat me like you can spend time with me anytime because I'm always going to be available. I refuse to be taken for granted. Simply put, I should be a priority, our relationship should be a priority. Not necessarily the top priority in your life, since I don't expect you to skip work or ditch being with your grandmother in the hospital just because I want to see you. Nor would I expect you to bail on a friend in need in favor of me. But I should fall into that upper echelon of family, career, friends, etc. I'll always do my best to give you my full attention and assure you that you're the only person I want, so I think it's only fair that you do the same for me. At the same time, I don't sit well with others making advances or inappropriate comments to my significant other. So, my jealousy and possessiveness is also in part protectiveness. I've very protective of my family, friends, and significant other. Though, I do try to keep if from being suffocating.
Also, in the past I've been accused of being distant or emotionally closed off. To a small degree, this is probably true. I'm the type of person that generally likes to work things out for myself. So, if something is bothering me or there is something on my mind, I'm not usually going to come right out and talk about it. This isn't contrary to what I said about talking about my feelings. I'll talk about my feelings as they relate to the relationship, but if I'm dealing with something that primarily concerns me, I'd rather sort things out for myself. Yes, I know, in a good relationship anything that affects me will affect you, but...mainly, I just hate to burden others with my problems and I don't want to worry my significant other. However, I do realize communication is essential for a healthy relationship and will eventually open up if you show real concern and genuinely want to know what's wrong. I just take some prodding.
Well, I'm sure I could ramble on for pages upon pages, but I seriously doubt anyone is still reading. However, if you actually read all of this and I've described you and the sort of man you're looking for, if I've piqued your interest in the least, then by all means drop me a line. If not, perhaps pass this ad along to someone you know who may find it interesting. Either way, I appreciate you stopping in and having a look.
~Mephisto
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Of course, I probably sound more appealing in text than in reality. (Ask any of my ex-girlfriends. Heh.)
for luck 
