Shy girl comes back

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Hi! Hope we can chat sometime!

Bill did a double-take as the IM appeared on his screen and the name of the sender registered.

Two years, maybe a little more! That was how long it had been since he'd heard from her. He'd thought of her many times, though.

He sat for a few moments, just remembering. She'd been 19; not a lot of experience with dating, and none with submission. But she'd been curious enough to place an ad asking for guidance, and out of the flood of responses, she'd chosen him despite, or perhaps partly because of the more than 20-year gap in their ages.

She'd told him that she was shy, and she hadn't been kidding: that first time on cam, she hadn't even been able to take anything off. Nor had she really gone very far beyond that on subsequent occasions. She'd been trying, though, and Bill had believed that, given time, kindness and patience, she would have eventually been able to get past her mental walls and give herself over to an extent that would have shocked her closest friends, had they known, and made her see herself in a different light.

But "eventually" had never arrived: She'd gone away to school and a new life filled with new challenges and new friends. Her messages had become less frequent and finally stopped. He'd often wondered what things would have been like if they'd just had more time together.

But all of that had been a couple years ago. She'd be 21 or 22 now, doubtless with plenty of better things to do than submit to the guidance of a man easily old enough to be her father.

Still, he wasn't going to ignore her.

Hey! he typed back. Long, LONG time no see!

How are you?

 

[HottieKatie]

Meredith was freaking out. She had been trying for days to write those words, but she always backed out in the last minute. She was afraid of not getting an answer, or getting an angry one. But now she was happy she had finally pressed the return key

Hey! Long, LONG time no see!
How are you?

He seemed quite happy to hear from her. And indeed it had been a long time. For about two years she hadn't opened that IM account.

She had started a quite serious relationship and it seemed wrong to keep talking to Bill. But now it was over. And she felt like talking to him.

I'm fine...

She didn't know where to start. "Sorry" seemed stupid. "I've missed you" was not completely true, though lately she had thought about him a lot...

What about you?

She was always like that, putting the ball in another's court. She wanted to tell him everything, but she just couldn't, yet. She just couldn't appear like that, out of the blue, after such a long time, and spill it all out, thinking that he might be interested. But she was sure he would surely know how to winkle it out of her if he wanted to.

 

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Her reply wasn't very enlightening, but it was a continuation of the conversation. That was something.

Bill found himself wondering if she even remembered just who she was chatting with, after all this time. Perhaps she was just randomly going through old contacts and seeing which of the old IDs were still valid.

Did she remember how old he was and the things she'd known he wanted from her?

I'm working a lot, you know how it is, he responded.

Gosh, I thought you'd forgotten all about me, he added. Sometimes I still think about our after school chats.

He pressed Send, picturing her in his mind as she'd been back then, sitting on her bed with her cam on, her bedroom door closed to her parents and the world but not to him...

 

[HottieKatie]

Meredith was as nervous as a little child, nervous as the first time she had talked to him. It felt like no time had gone by since she hd last spoken to him. She had always felt ashamed of not saying goodbye to him, not telling him she wouldn't reply again. Every day she thought about dropping him a line, but every day it was harder and weirder. She had planned her words thousands of times. But now that she had decided to tell him about everything, she just couldn't find the words.

I'm working a lot, you know how it is.
Gosh, I thought you'd forgotten all about me.
Sometimes I still think about our after school chats.

That meant he thought about her too. Meredith felt a bit embarrassed and guilty. The things they had shared, and she had never shared with anyone else.

Me too.

She started typing. And decided to speak from her heart.

Everyday, I'd have to say.
And everyday I'm sad and sorry I had to stop it.
I wouldn't want to bore you, but a lot of things changed for me.
I guess for you too.
But I was wondering...

It took her a little to go on.

I was wondering if maybe we could go back in time?

She hoped he would say yes, because right now, she needed him desperately.

 

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Go back in time.

Bill's mouth went dry at the thought. How many times had he fantasized about her coming back after she'd disappeared? How many times had he imagined her gathering her courage up and giving herself more and more fully to him; doing more and more of the things he wanted; only for him, in the privacy of her room where no one else could see...?

He wanted to respond Turn on your cam, but it would have felt blunt and crass to lead with such a demand when she'd just come back after two years of no contact. And it was largely his subtlety and gentleness that had lead her to choose him in the first place. He remembered how often she'd said that she trusted him and appreciated his patience with her... often adding that she wanted to get to the point where she could do everything that he desired.

Well, there was no question that he still wanted her, but could they go "back in time"? There were practical aspects to that question.

That sounds great, he replied. Can you tell me what your situation is like now? Are you still at home or are you away at school these days?

It's been a couple years: Your life must not be exactly the same...

 

[HottieKatie]

Well, yeah, he was right, her life had changed a great deal.

My life has changed quite a great deal, in fact. I am neither at home or at school anymore. I have recently got a job as a barista and I have my own little apartment in the city. Well, a little studio I should say. So there won't ever be that I-might-get-caught excuse anymore

She had used that excuse more than a couple times, although it had never been a problem. Her door was always locked, and usually she was alone at home when she talked to him. But it was easier for her that saying "I'm too shy for that" or "I don't feel like doing that". But now she wanted to be crystal clear, no more stupid excuses, she was who she was.

Oh, and before I forget. Could you add me on the address "MerelyEdith"? I'm going to delete this account.

He might not have noticed, but her usual avatar was now a black square and she had the invisible status on. Too many people had her address, too many people she didn't want to talk to anymore. But that would be a story for another time.

As soon as he checked that account he would see her new avatar, herself wearing a Venetian mask. A friend had given the mask to her a while ago, but now she thought it was the perfect accessory for her profile.

Hello again! She wrote when she found him online in her new account.

So, these are the basic changes... On the other hand I'm single again, my hair is still lovely blonde and I like my tea burning hot

She just wanted to add some fun to the conversation, talking about her current situation still made her a bit sad.

 

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Got your own place? Congratulations, Bill replied.

So, he continued, since she'd made the comment, it's really just you and me alone now, huh? I like that.

Which was certainly true. Their entire relationship had depended on her being alone - a situation that was always somewhat precarious for a young girl still living at home. So the time they'd had together had never really been enough for Bill's taste, and perhaps Meredith's, as well.

Bill had even dreamed (foolishly, he knew) of being able to be even more alone with Meredith. So many times he'd imagined the impossible scenario of the then-19-year-old girl coming to his home, there behind closed doors to give so much more than she ever could on cam...

But he knew better than to talk about things like that, in general. There was a fine line between being a dirty old man and a creepy, scary one.

Single *again*? he asked. You mean there was someone besides me? Looks like I missed a whole relationship.

Like your new avatar, by the way.

 

[HottieKatie]

yes, I finally can say that it's only you and me.
I hope that will help me... Open up and be more receptive to you.

Meredith really wanted to, but it had always been so difficult. She had always been afraid, back home, of her patents stumbling into her room. During the first months in college, it was her roommate. There was always someone between her and her desire to leap into the unknown world Bill was trying to open for her. But now there were no excuses, and she was ready to jump.

There was a guy in college...but it didn't last long.
He was the main reason I had to stop contacting you.
He didn't ask me (he didn't know) but it just felt wrong to me.
But, as I said, it is just you and me now.
I'll be back in a moment.

Meredith set her status as "away" as she decided it was time for some action. She didn't want him to be typing alone while she got rewdy.

She got up from the bed she was sitting on and grabbed the mask lying on a near chest of drawers. She put it on while she undressed completely and put on a light green chiffon robe she had bought some time ago.

She had got it to surprise Eric, the boy she had dated, but she didn't have the chance. So when she found it some time afterwards, she thought it would be the perfect complement for the mask in the first conversation back to Bill.

He had asked several times to undress for him, and as much as she had wanted to do it, she couldn't. She always covered herself with the bed sheets. Just once she decided to undress, but she couldn't actually move the camera from her belly, so the only skin Bill got to see was the one around her navel.

But she was determined to change that.

Meredith sat again on the bed, in front of the computer, and checked the camera vision. She focused it on her upper body, she could see the reflection of her body from her chin to her navel. Her skin had a green tone behind the robe, but she could actually see her curves and a darker shade around her nipples.

It took her a while to turn the camera on in her chat with Bill, but she finally gather the strength to do it.

So, what do you think of my new robe? Do you like it?, she finally typed

 

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Sheer was Bill's first thought, and he approved. While the robe wasn't completely transparent, it showed enough to be very interesting: the shape of Meredith's body was visible, and even some fair skin and a hint of the darker circles of her nipples could be seen.

It seemed that Meredith was serious about wanting to be more receptive to him.

Why, Meredith... I love it, he typed.

How do you feel, he continued, wearing it for me?

 

[HottieKatie]

He was so nice. Meredith felt so good having compliment on her. She was so happy she had finally gathered the strength to talk to him again.

First, I feel strong. You know how difficult this is for me... But as I said, I'm willing to get past my fears.

Meredith's heart was beating faster than usual. She knew it was a mixture of fear and joy.

And on the nice side, I feel a bit naughty and excited.

Meredith wanted to go further, but she couldn't. Not yet. She hoped she could do it soon.

Just a little bit more she asked herself.

Knowing there was somebody watching her moves made her hands shiver a bit. Again she couldn't tell if it was because of fear or excitement.

Not without difficult she undid the bow at her waist that was keeping the robe closed. Without it, the two front parts of it separated a bit, leaving an inch or so of h skin shown in between them.

Now Bill could clearly see her navel and a bit of the valley between her breasts.

Meredith's breathing speeded up a bit.

What do you think of my body?, she wanted to ask him. Do you like it?, but she couldn't be that blunt. She just waited for his own comments.

 

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Bill's heart started beating as fast as if he'd jumped out of his chair and started running. He didn't leave the chair, though: his eyes were glued to his monitor.

God, her skin looked so soft; she was so young...

The thoughts that leapt into his head were predictably direct and uncouth. I want you naked, he wanted to say. Meredith, take your robe off.

But he couldn't say that. Not yet, at least. Meredith was clearly taking her courage in her hands: being so direct might well shock her enough to scare her into leaving and never coming back. Besides, it would have been unkind: As far as Bill knew, Meredith still had no experience with D/s, even if she'd had a boyfriend for awhile.

She was trying: She wanted him to look, to see. What she needed right now was gentleness.

Bill did a fast image search on the Web and, luckily, found a picture close to what he had in mind.

You're beautiful, Meredith, he began.

And you must be quite nervous.

Perhaps it would be easier for you if you had a prop to use.

The thing that worried Bill was that Meredith's robe opened in the front: she had relatively little chance for gradual revelation.

I have an idea that might help. He sent her a link to the image he'd found of a girl with a pillow.

 

[HottieKatie]

He was such a nice guy. Never forcing her to do anything she wasn't ready for. Always so encouraging and helpful.

Yes, I can try that, she typed.

Meredith kept looking at his words, "you are beautiful" as she moved on her bed.

She turned around and grabbed her pillow. Meredith sat on her bed just like the girl in the picture and grabbed the pillow in front of her, covering all of her upper body. She realised it wasn't really an improvement as she wasn't showing more that she was before, only the inside if her calves. Then, she decided to take off her robe.

Slowly, she took off one sleeve and then the other, while she kept the pillow in place with her chin.

Now she was wearing just a green lace thong, that couldn't be seen since it was covered by the pillow. She thought about taking it off, but couldn't think of a way of doing it gracefully on camera. So she thought it would have to wait until she could get rid of the pillow.

She saw her reflection on a mirror on her room and realised she was quite sexy.

How can I now improve this a little? she had to ask him

Meredith kept pushing the pillow a bit downwards, now showing the upper part of her smooth breasts, just a little over her nipples. That was all she was ready to share right now.

Next step she could think of meant throwing the pillow away. But there must be something in between she couldn't think of.

 

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Oh, Meredith, Bill typed.

He knew now that Meredith was absolutely serious. And so was he. God, he wanted her naked. God, he wanted her to give herself to him and do... everything...

But he still wouldn't be brutal. What he had offered Meredith two years before was seduction, not brutality. And she had come to him asking if they could turn back the clock.

He quickly found another picture and sent it to her.

Perhaps, he suggested, you could turn to the side a bit.

He caught himself holding his breath again, hoping that she'd turn so that he could see down the line of her body.

 

[HottieKatie]

Another picture.

Meredith thanked him secretly for being so patient. She was sure he would be dying to having her completely naked in front of the camera. But she couldn't; not yet. She needed a little time. And he was doing so well providing her with it, and steps to do it. He was guiding her so well.

Meredith looked at the picture he sent her and imagined herself like that. The girl in her screen was so sexy, Meredith was a bit turned on by her.

I wish I was as sexy as this girl, she typed before turning.

She grabbed the pillow covering her front with her left hand and turned to her right, so she could keep typing with her free right hand.

and now? guide me, Bill

He had won her, and she wanted to please him.

 

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All of a sudden, Bill realized something that should have been obvious all along.

Most newer webcams have microphones, Meredith.

Do you see a microphone icon? If you do, you can click on it and I should be able to hear your voice.

It's much more personal that way...

A second later, as he waited to see how Meredith would respond, he noticed something that he hadn't been able to see before.

Why, Meredith... Are those panties...?

That is naughty, Meredith. Letting me think that the pillow concealed only you...

 

[HottieKatie]

When she read his last message she realised he couldn't have seen it before, as it was covered by the pillow. Now, as she had turned to her side, he would be seeing the green lace of her thing.

Yes, Bill, sorry. I'll take them off right now.

Meredith turned her laptop camera so it would show the wall, turning Bill's eyes away from her body for a while. That way she could drop the pillow without having to show him her tits. She jumped off the bed, and from behind the computer, she clicked the microphone icon and allowed Bill's ears into her room. She didn't say anything yet, though.

Meredith went on walking around the computer until she placed herself in front of the camera again, her back to it. Showing her almost naked bum to Bill was not that difficult. She had showed it around more or less like that every time she had gone to a pool. Only the bikini she used to wear was a nit bigger than this thong. Only a small green triangle covered the top of her bum.

Still without opening her mouth she grabbed the sides of her panties and started lowering them down. She brushed them down her ass cheeks, thighs and calves, until they hit the floor. Meredith wondered if Bill would have been able to get a peek at her slit when she had bent down a little to get the panties off. She guessed not, she was a bit far from the camera, and the resolution wasn't that good. But maybe--

She stepped out of the green circles around her feet and walked back to the bed, turning and moving quickly to her right, disappearing again from Bill's sight. This time she covered her breasts with her right arm, so Bill couldn't see much.

When she sat back on the bed, decided not to cover herself with the pillow. Meredith turned quickly the laptop camera towards her, and quickly adjusted it to get a closer and smaller view of her body. Now Bill could see half down the stubble covering her mound, and up to half her breasts, the dark circle around her nipples in the camera.

"Better?" she heard herself ask.

That had been a great step she had taken. Her heart was pounding fast, with the excitement of showing herself more and more to him. She was so proud of herself at being so daring.

 

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Bill watched with his heart pounding as Meredith, with her back to the camera, dropped her panties and stepped out of them. He had waited so long to see Meredith's bottom, and now it had happened without his even having to ask.

He was so sure of Meredith's intentions now that he didn't even really mind when she stepped out of view of the camera again.

When she came back she was still naked, of course. She'd even discarded the pillow and now was relying only on the boundaries of the camera's picture to allow her any modesty.

Bill clicked the microphone icon on his own screen. As long as Meredith's speakers were turned on, she should be able to hear him, too.

"Better, Meredith," he replied to her question.

"And I hope you also think it's better that we can hear each other."

He paused a moment before continuing. "You're so brave, Meredith. How do you feel now?"

"You don't have any clothes on..."

 

[HottieKatie]

As the microphone coughed when Bill connected it, Meredith wondered how his voice would sound. She'd never heard him talk.

"Better, Meredith," she heard his calm voice through the speakers.

"And I hope you also think it's better that we can hear each other."

"Yes, Bill," she replied. He was such a gentleman.

It was a bit embarrassing to hear her voice in his room, hear his voice inhere room. It was easier than typing everything.

"You're so brave, Meredith. How do you feel now? You don't have any clothes on…", she heard him.

She felt the sudden urge to hide herself. She was showing her body to a complete stranger. Only Bill was no such an stranger. He know a lot more about her than most people.

"I feel a bit… embarrassed? I don't know, this is a bit weird."

She paused. But she felt good too. Aroused by her view on the camera. Her naked body.


"But it feels good. I'm much more daring now. And I'm so excited."

She saw her own body in the little square on camera. Her breathing was so intense, she saw her bust going up and down with each inhalation.

"This is so much fun, Bill."

 

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Bill's eyes were glued to the view framed in Meredith's cam; the bottoms of her breasts, the plain of her stomach, the slight shadow where she'd shaved...

He wanted all of her, of course, but he still had enough self-control to savor the moment; to keep drawing it out.

"I think it's fun, too, Meredith," he answered.

"Why don't you cross your legs and use one arm to cover yourself up top? Then you can widen the view so that I'm talking to Meredith instead of just Meredith's stomach." He kept his tone light, not wanting to sound like he was scolding.

"Can I see Meredith again?" he smiled.

 

[HottieKatie]

"Of course, Bill," she replied quickly.

He couldn't see her yet, but she blushed at his comment. She hadn't realised how strange it must be to be talking to a navel.

Meredith decided to sit on her ankles, only a second later separating them with her buttocks. She thought about them going numb at any moment and having to sit differently on camera might be difficult.

Then, she crossed her left arm in front on her breasts while she adjusted the camera zoom shot. She widened it until she saw her whole body, along with almost half of the bed she was sitting in.

At first it was a bit difficult to see herself naked, knowing Bill would be seeing her too. But then she realised not much as really seen. Her mound was covered partially with her thighs and shadows, and her arm covered most of her breasts.

When she was happy with the width of the image, her right arm retreated to her body. She rested both on her hands on her lap, covering her mound a it more, and making sure each of her arms covered each of her breasts. Thus, she could be offering them to Bill little by little, separating her arms a bit more each time.

What do you think? she thought about asking, but knowing it might be a bit childish, she waited for Bill to comment by himself.

And again, she thanked him in silence for being so patient. She knew he might be dying for her to show more and more, but there he was, asking her so little every time. The little more that she could give him.

 

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For a moment, Bill was at a loss as to what to ask Meredith to do next: She was about as uncovered as she could get. But then he had a wicked thought.

"Meredith," he asked, "instead of sitting, can you rise up onto your knees?"

He knew that, if she were kneeling instead of sitting back, she'd have no way to conceal her mound except with her hands.

With her arms concealing her breasts and her hands hiding the view lower down, she would have very little freedom to move and would feel exposed indeed.

 

[HottieKatie]

"Y-yes, I-I think I can do that," she told him, a bit unsure in fact.

For a moment, she stood still, thinking how she could move not to show too much on camera. But then she realized she had shown much more of her body to her ex-boyfriend. And he had been much less nicer with her than Bill was.

So, quickly, she moved a bit backwards, so she could fit better on the screen when she sat up. Then, she raised to her knees, and covered her partly shaved mound with her hands, her arms still covering her breasts with her arms.

Posing like that, she felt strange. It was not very comfortable to keep that position for long.

Without saying a word, she got up from the bed.

Bill would be wondering for a little, but soon he would be seeing e light go dimmer, as the curtains started covering the outside daylight.

Soon she was back on camera, sitting on the bed, not making any attempt to cover herself. She felt the little darkness was enough to cover herself. Maybe Bill was seeing more that she wanted to show, but she felt quite good for the moment.

Meredith wanted to talk to Bill, but she didn't know what to say.

 

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At first, Meredith did as he had asked.

Then, to Bill's surprise, she got off the bed and stepped out of view. Bill had no idea what she was doing until he heard the shushing sound of drapes being drawn; saw the light in the room darkening.

When Meredith returned, she simply sat on the bed, letting the new twilight be her only cover. It helped that what light there was came from behind her, throwing her face and the front of her body into shadow. Not that Bill couldn't see anything: Meredith's breasts were more visible than they'd been beneath her robe, sheer as it had been.

Bill unconsciously held his breath for a moment, waiting to see what Meredith would say; waiting for some clue as to what she was thinking. But Meredith sat quietly, looking at the camera.

Meredith sat nakedly, looking as though she were seeing him through the camera.

"Meredith," Bill finally breathed.

"I've waited so long for you."

 

[HottieKatie]

"I know," she started softly. "And I'm so grateful for your patience, Bill."

She readjusted her body on the bed, sitting more comfortably on her right calf, placing both of her legs to her left.

"You know how difficult this is for me, and you've waited like a real gentleman," she continued, stroking her arm a bit. She felt a bit chilly now she was naked.

"You've been so kind, helping me, guiding me. I hope I can make it up to you some time."

 

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No time like the present, Bill thought eagerly, but he kept control, not voicing the harsh thought.

"Sometime?" he asked gently, after a moment. "But you're here now, Meredith..."

"Are you still okay with being here with me?"

"Do you want me to continue guiding you...?"