She moved On(OPen to one)

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Star Jenkins

Star Jenkins thats my name... apparently I am the stunning next door girl type but you can be the judge of that, now heres my story..

I am in love with a amazing man... at least I thought he was amazing we were together for years, I am now 23 and he is 30 yes I like older man. I was home one day waiting on him and he came in late... okay he never came home late unless he called to tell me. He is the greatest man always there for you, we were supposed to get married, when he came home I got the shock of my life... he joined the navy what the hell how could he do that without telling me his life he claimed. So here I sit alone and crying I even kicked him out I couldn't bare to say goodbye that day he left... now to get to the hard part... I hated him for leaving him and not telling me I am now 25 years old and it is two years later and I haven't heard from him since he left... so I moved on I hated him for what he did... I have a new life now... and he isn't part of him not that I haven't missed him... and since his sister told me he doesn't have plans of returning home so that made moving on easier... and to me I used to be the sweet girl next door but when he left I lost myself now I am sad and lost at times still sweet but not the same.... Looking for one man to fill the part.

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Bump Hope someone joins me

 

[schmoe_128]

Bump Hope someone joins me

I'll play if you'll have me. PM me with your thoughts on the role.

 

[schmoe_128]

Steve

Steve and Star had a great relationship. They were always there for eachother and told eachother everything, except one thing. Steve felt a huge rush of patriotism after the 9/11 attacks on America and wanted to do more to help his country. Without telling Star, he joined the Navy to fight in the war on terrorism.

The day he came home and told her, she blew up. He couldn't entirely blame her, they had always shared everything until now. He told her it was his life to do with what he wanted. When she threw him out that n ight, he went to the only place he could think of, his sisters house. He stayed with her until he shipped off for basic training, and never looked back. Sure, he missed Star, but he tohought she had over reacted. After all, he had only singed up for 2 years.

While at his sisters, he told her that even if he didn't get killed, he didn't think he was coming back here. Without Star, there wasn't anything for him here.

While he served his two years, he thought about her quite often, but could never bring himself to contact her. She was the one that threw him out. When his time was up, he decided to go visit his sister, half hoping he'd run into Star, half hoping she had moved on with her life. He was still bitter about the way she had reacted to him joining and he hadn't talked to her since that night.

He pretty much figured she was married by now so it probably didn't matter.

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Star

Star was at work, she worked in a quant little coffee shop and was able to wear her regular cloths she hated the old uniforms so bland at her old job. She was wearing a baggy flannel blue shirt it was cold out.. and she had wore tight blue jeans and tennis shoes, she had pulled her long dark brown hair back. She sighed she was tired and was pulling a duble damn 24 hour places she thought.

She still lived alone but had been dating a man for about 5 months now but wasn't ready to move in with him yet... she was still in her mind but would never admit it, still in love with Steve and wished she wasn't. Sure maybe she was wrong for overreacting but he never stayed around to find out why, she was hurt for one.. and for two she was scared he'd get killed... so she figured she'd give up on him and let him live his own life.

She hated when she thought of him, she got angry all over again... he never even tried to make sure she was alright... she cried for a entire year over him.. and still she never heard from him not even i'm sorry but I had to do this.

Oh well she thought the past was the past and she really needed to move on she was sure she'd never see Steve again and it made things easier.

 

[schmoe_128]

Steve was taking a cab from the bus station to his sisters place when he spotted a little coffee shop along the way. Since it was only a couple of blocks from away, he told the driver to stop and he'd walk from there. He got out of the cab and grabbed his big duffle from the trunk. With the street he was on, there was only a little window into the shop and he couldn't see the counter.

He walked in, the bell on the door announcing his entry. He looked at the woman behind the counter and froze. It was her. Star. He thought about turning around, but he couldn't. He just stared at her hoping she wouldn't recognize him.

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Star

Star looked up when the door opened it was slow so she had a habit when hearing the bell she knew to look it was here and her friend there tonight.. and it was so cold when the door opened it seemed the man brought the night air right in with him...

It took her a moment to notice him.. and when she did she felt her world shake all over again, she took a long deep and rushed to the back her face was hot and her hands were shaking it was a good thing she wasn't refilling someones cup.. she went to the back room and leaned against the door while her friend asked Steve if he needed a table.

 

[schmoe_128]

"I, um, I think I better have it to go" Steve said, knowing he didn't want to force Star to have to deal with him now. "Large cup, Black" he said as he sat down to wait. He took a napking from te counter and wrote a note to Star:

I'm only in town to visit. Would love to talk to you if you can. You know where I'll be.. He didn't sign it, he figured she'd know who it was from. When he waitress brought him his coffee, he handed the folded napkin to her and asked her to give it to Star.

He left the shop, hoping she'd stop. But figuring she wouldn't.

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Star

Star came from the back and her friend asked her what was wrong but Star only told her she needed to get something.. then she handed her a napkin with writing on it... Star openend it and knew right away it was Steves handwriting... she smiled only once while reading it and it caused her to think of the first note he wrote her... telling her how beautiful he thought she was.

Star took a deep breath... and when it was close to closing time... she went to her car.. and sat there for a moment.. it was late and she was debating to go to his sisters house or not. Star drove to the driveway and parked she wasn't sure wether to get out or not or even if she was ready for this.

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Star

Star finally got out of the car and was walking to the door she wasn't looking forward to this but she had to get it over with.. so she lightly taps on the door.. partly hoping noone would answer.

 

[schmoe_128]

Steve sat in the living room chatting with his sister, sipping on a drink. She had taken the next day off, so the time really didn't matter. The conversation eventually turned to Star.

"So, how has she been" he asked.
"You'd know if you had contacted her."
"I wanted to, but didn't know if she'd want to hear from me. Besides, she threw me out. She just didn't understand my need to do more for my country."
"You didn't explain that to her either."
"Who's side are you on anyway? Look, I didn't come here to argue with you, I just wanted to see you again."
"Does she know you're in town?"
"Well, I stopped at the coffee shop up the street to get a cup and she was working there. I had no idea when I walked in. I left her a note."
"You didn't talk to her?"
"No. She went into the back room when she saw me. I don't even know if she read the note."
"She's seeing someone you know."
"Just seeing someone? Hell, I figured she'd be married by now."
"She didn't date for over a year after you left."
"Oh." was all he could say. He hadn't realized how much it had hurt her when he joined the Navy. He thought he wanted to see her and try to explain why he had done what he did, but wasn't possitive. He thought he still loved her, but would that be enough?

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Star

Star sighed okay noone answered she could leave it at that... but a part of her wanted to know he was okay... she heard so many storys from her own brother about being over there he had tried to make her understand but Star had it in her mind that he kept it from her and thats all there was to it... so for a moment she stayed there okay knock again she thought..

She knocked just slightly harder this time she didn't want to wake them up either it was awful late, and she had no intentions of doing this after work all she wanted to do now was get home and have a nice bottle of wine and go to bed.

 

[schmoe_128]

Whe he heard the knock, Steve's face went white as a sheet. There was only one person who would be here this late. It had to be Star. He looked at his sister and she looked at him. "Well, you invited her over, don't you think you should answer it? I'm going to bed. she said to him. Steve got up and walked to the door. He opened it just as Star was turning to leave. "Hi Star." he said. Her reply was to turn and slap him hard across the face. "Ok, I deserve that." he said. "Do you wan to come in? or is that all you have to say?" She slapped him again as she walked past him into the house. He couldn't tell by her face if the tears in her eyes were from anger, joy, or sadness. He hoped she'd let him try to explain.

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Star

She hadn't planned on slapping him at all but when he said her name the anger of him leaving without saying goodbye, the memory of crying herself to sleep... over losing him angered her... when she went into the house she wanted to scream at him but she didn't want his sister to hear them so she sat on the edge of the couch wiping the tears from her eyes

 

[schmoe_128]

Steve sat in a chair opposite her. "I know my joining up and leaving hurt you" he said. "May I try to explaine?"

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Star

''Please... and I shouldn't have hit you like that I really do not have any right'' She said but the anger and the hurt in her voice did not waver

 

[schmoe_128]

''Please... and I shouldn't have hit you like that I really do not have any right'' She said but the anger and the hurt in her voice did not waver

"Yes, you did. If you had done that two years ago, we might have been able to be discuss this then. The reason I joined the Navy is that I felt I needed to do more for our country. After 9/11, my mind kept trying to think of something, anything I could do. The Navy seemed like the right choice. I knew then and I know now that I should have talked to you about it first. But, I had no idea you would react the way you did. I had hoped you'd let me explain first." he said, trying to read the expresion on her face.

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Star

star was unsure of what to say at first so she waited until he was finished she thought she had gotten over him but seeing him here and now made her realize she hadn't. ''When you told me I was hurt, angry, and scared... scared you'd get killed so I did what I thought best kick you out but I thought you'd come back the next day.. but you didn't and I even wrote to you a few times but the letter always got sent back...two years and not even a phonecall to say you were okay... if you'd have came to me I wouldn't have cried over you a year... I would have been able to face you more now... if you'd have talked to me'' She said fighting back tears and anger.

 

[schmoe_128]

He listened to Star and handed her his handkerchief for her tears. "I couldn't. I was so angry with you for the way you reacted. By the time I calmed down, I had been shipped out. Besides, I figured you didn't want anything to do with me since I hadn't heard from you either, I never got your letters. I know that's not an excuse. But just kow, I've never forgotten you."

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Star

''You were angry... how the hell was I supposed to react!'' She almost was screaming... ''The only man I had ever loved was risking his life and hadn't even told me'' She said trying to calm herself down.. ''And about the letters it was only a few guess I sent them to the wrong place I still have them if you want them'' She said softly and looked away not thinking of his last comment about forgetting her

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Star

She looked at him a little softer after she had calmed down but didn't say another word.

 

[schmoe_128]

Steve

The look on her face made his heart melt. He hadn't realized until now how much he had hurt her by not telling her his thoughts and feelings before joining the Navy. " I know I should have told you what I was thinking and feeling, and I realisenow how much of an ass I was for not. All I can tell you now is that I'm sorry and that I wish I knew how I could make it up to you" he said. "I'm sure you have someone in your life so we probably can't have the same relationship we had before, but I miss you. Right now, I'd be happy if we could at least be friends."

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Star

Star listened as he spoke and for once she believed him maybe it had hurt him that she wouldn't listen that night... they were both wrong... but she couldn't just let the past go... ''I am seeing someone but yes friends sound good'' She said how could she ever be just his friend she wondered to herself

 

[schmoe_128]

He stood up from his chair and looked at her "Can we hug on it" he asked sheepishly with his arms extended. hoping she'd accept.

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Star

Star looked at him and just nodded her head okay... she couldn't bare to say no to him... so she went into his open arms and hugged him.. he felt strong like before and she felt safe to be within his arms.